The emotions are so real here. That numbness, which the body creates to protect us from anguish, is anguish and confusion itself; the numbness hurts, contrary to logic. Rachel was so close to him that what she would feel if that dam broke is more than what anyone else would, barring his parents, and maybe other close friends;
This is the hardest part of the story to write--what happens after the end. How to make it real and not overdone and how to make a reader care, believe it. I have always admired these last few chapters best, despite my love for the fluff in earlier ones, because I think they demonstrate just how much this story means to you, that you saw it through to its end; where it should end, not where it was easy.
The bit at the end, here. Perfect. Not overdone. Balanced and real and just raw enough.
Author's Response: A lot of the idea of numbness, if you can believe this, actually came from Sarah -- I remember talking to her around this bit, and she was discussing a dream she had where Marcus died and how she felt, and it was so perfect for this. Obviously I owe most of my writing to her, is what we're getting out of this conversation. And she was so close to him, even in the span of less than nine months; there was a power behind their love, which WAS love, I think, even if they were so young.
Or, you know. I'm biased.
I'm so relieved you think this end strikes a nice balance. ♥ I feel like a lot of people probably stopped reading after the last chapter, because, well... what's left? But it was very important for me to give Rachel closure, and you understand that.
Tears in my eyes now, you wonderful person. YOU have made me see, more than I have made myself see, how important this story was to my own writing. And despite it, like I've said before, I am proud of it. ♥
-more weeping now okay-