So, I'm writing (or at least starting) this review on the text app on my phone in the middle of a party I didn't want to attend. I feel sick and tired and read half of this before leaving for said party, so I'll be darned if I'm not allowed to finish it now. Not to mention I watched Prisoner of Azkaban last night and oh my gosh, the bit in the Shrieking Shack with Remus and Sirius and Snape. DYING. And so when I started reading this today, still rolling in Remus/Sirius feels, and realized this took place in the Shrieking Shack, it's become hard to stop reading. I'm a firm believer that you can write anything in this world. Period. This is proof positive of that!
I've actually come to be a pretty big Remus/Sirius shipper, which is something I never thought I'd say. And when I knew you'd be writing one I was so excited, and my gosh, this is LITERALLY one of the best I've ever read! ♥ Like... I have to sit here with my friends and not be able to tell anyone about all these feelings. The tone of the entire thing was oxymoronic: Hopefully bleak, lovingly hateful. How do you DO this?! Fair warning, a huge part of this review is going to be me hurling your own writing back at you. The further I got in this, the harder it got to put down. I can't even. Your Marauders are such a treat to read, and I missed them so much (because I clearly didn't get enough of them in Run) and this was just perfect.
“I was with James.” Sirius's mouth distorted, eyes shimmering around the edges with pewter jewels. “I was with James and Lily again until you ripped me away.” -- RIPPED MY HEART OUT, THAT. Oh, that would be the most painful thing in the world for him. He might have loved Remus once, but to separate James and Sirius... That would be so terrible for him, no matter how he felt about Remus.
“Don’t say that. Don’t say that it was for me. If you ever say that again, I’ll never forgive you." -- Shattered. Just shattered. And here it's so evident to see that even through what Remus has done, even through all the obscenities and curses Sirius hurls at his retreating back, he still loves him. It's a raw and heartbreaking love (which is obviously my favorite kind) but it's there. Sirius just can't stand to think that the hell he knows, Remus would put himself through, just to be with Sirius.
It was way too long to quote, but my absolute favorite part of this entire story was the end, with ghost-Sirius disappearing and ghost-Remus sealing his own fate, trapping himself with the traps he originally laid for Sirius. I've told you dozens of times, but you're so good at bringing stories full circle, tying everything together and making everything relevant. It's a skill I lack and I always find myself going to your stories when I need to remind myself how to do it. I don't know. I just have such huge admiration for it. ♥ Repeating the bits about dreams replacing good sense and Conjured objects was brilliant, brilliant foreshadowing!
I was thinking just before you posted this how much I wanted to read a Remus/Sirius one-shot, and you've gone so above and beyond with this. Missy is so lucky! (Except you wrote me CEDCHEL. STILL ON CLOUD NINE. ♥) Gah, I want to have not read this so I can read it again. This is everything I love. Tragic romance. Marauders. Twist ending. Write more of this, always. Always more.
Author's Response: Your reviews are the best to receive and the hardest to respond to. Trufax.
I'm beginning to see the allure of Remus/Sirius. I mean, I am Tonks/Remus for LIFE, but I can see why people love it. I've often thought that if Sirius was secretly in love with any of them, it might have been James, since he pretty much worshiped James. A lot of people are not married by the time they're 21, which was how old they all were when James died, Sirius went to prison, and Remus went off the grid; but I understand fans wanting to give Sirius love of any kind before his death. I've told you a million times and I'll never stop saying it; out of everyone in Potterverse, Sirius had the worst life. There is not a single one of them who had it worse than him.
Making stories go full-circle and tie things up at the end is a compulsion of mine, especially when it comes to one-shots. I always want to go out on a high note, or else what's the point?
CEDCHEL. YARR. Speaking of one-shots for you, I need to get started on your birthday Sneth. Which I am very scared to write. You wrote TWO AND A HALF NOVELS about them, so the shoes I have to fill are about the size of Jupiter. It's already established that I will do a poor job of doing the pair justice, so I apologize in advance.
I need to stop rambling now.