"Here Missy. I wrote your favorite ship for you. Merry Christmas. By the way, I'm sorry for ripping your heart out and stomping on it." That should have been your disclaimer, by the way. Just saying.
I don't even know what to say, which is terrible because I had all these plans to leave you such an epic review in response for writing an angsty fic with my favorite ship (and your first slash!). I'm not even sure I'm capable of much except you know, lots of open-mouth gaping and offering you my broken heart.
Jesus. Big exhale. Okay, so this is basically one of the best, most realistic "Remus brings Sirius back from the afterlife" fics I've ever read. I love it because it's still somewhat canon, you know? You still have him marrying Tonks and having Teddy but they aren't a focus to Remus. He is so obsessed with the idea of being with Sirius in the afterlife that he ignores rationale and common sense and tries to follow his heart, but that only ends up damning him in the end.
Sirius's anger at being ripped from the afterlife and first chained in the Shack, and then kept imprisoned by words instead of metal...it's all so realistic. One of my favorite parts was when you were describing Sirius and you wrote about how adventurous he was and how he just looked at death as his next big adventure. I love imagining him that way - not afraid of what was to come, not like Remus.
I feel so bad for Remus. He loved Sirius to the point of insanity. There's no two ways about how mad he had driven himself over the idea of bringing Sirius back and keeping him a prisoner in the real world until Remus was ready to pass too. That's not fair to Sirius and Remus too, because while he had Sirius, there was nothing he could do about it. Sirius was just air...there was nothing tangible. It makes me sad that they can't be together but Remus deserves it for what he did. He didn't pay attention to the warnings and he used people. I'm sure he didn't do it purposefully, or to be malicious since he really wasn't sane, but it's kind of like, well, it's your own fault.
Ungh, there are so many good lines in here - little ones that don't really drive the story forward but reveal to us more about Remus and Sirius's characters (Adventure was one of his greatest delights, and a voyage into the unknown, the unwritten, the untold - it appealed to him more than any other adventure preceding it.). I love how you give us this clear picture of how Remus was and is without delving too deep into detail, if that makes any sense. Like this:
As a child of the moon, Remus had learned how to flourish in times of chaos.
This story makes me sad. The fact that Remus couldn't deal with Sirius being gone and just...everything. Tonks's desperation to be what she thought Remus needed, only to be greeted by a cold and aloof Remus. Sirius eventually disappearing and leaving Remus a prisoner in the Shrieking Shack. It's painful, but it's a good reminder that the dead should remain dead.
Thank you so much for writing this for me. You have no idea how excited I was to see that you had written me a fic for the Secret Santa. Your writing is magnificent, and it's no different here. Everything flowed so smoothly and it was beautifully written and heartbreaking, and..gah, thank you. You're the best.
Author's Response: MERRY CHRISTMAS, HERE'S A PILE OF FEELS FOR YOUUU ~ XD
Sirius and Remus both led pretty depressing lives for a while, so putting them together was very D:
I try to put canon in everything. In my opinion, there is not a single ship in Potterverse that could not happen realistically if the author took the time to explain the hows and whys. Anything can happen! So I wanted to keep Tonks in the picture to make it feel a touch more believable.
Remus's behavior derived from what I know of his character - not bothering to talk to Harry until Harry's third year, avoiding people on the presumption that they wouldn't accept him, his somewhat selfish, very misguided attempt to abandon his pregnant wife to run off with Harry and his friends. Remus is both peaceful and dark, both understanding and narrow-minded. He's a wonderful character study. Pairing him with a free spirit as volatile and buoyant as Sirius creates a certain energy that I really like. And while in life Remus was usually the voice of reason and Sirius was the one with the bad ideas, in death this was reversed. Remus really was driven to the point of madness because he couldn't cope with the idea of living without him, and of dying without him. Sirius's acceptance of death mystified him a lot.
I was so nervous for you to read this! Everyone knows that you're the Remus/Sirius queen and you've pretty much set the standard for that ship, so it was daunting to give it a try. I'm so, so happy that you liked it. ♥