|Review:||Toujours Padfoot says:|
Beth and Severus trying to have a conversation is like two walls staring at each other with poker faces. I just want to smack them both over the head, especially Severus, who invites himself over and then is all cryptic business as usual. And then as soon as I'm sitting there yelling at them to speak to each other, they're yelling at each other and I'm shrinking back saying NO, NO, I'M NOT READY FOR THIS. MAKE THEM STOP.
I'm so glad Severus told Beth - not just because she needed to know that information (why the hell didn't James tell her? I'm assuming Dumbledore told James. If not, Dumbledore just dropped twenty notches in my esteem), but because it shows that Severus is allowing himself to get more emotionally invested in their relationship, putting her first. The Slytherin agenda is naturally a selfish one - the name of the game is self-preservation. Horace, Voldemort, Lucius, etc. They're all about saving their own skin, but Severus has demonstrated clear growth here by putting Beth first, because he knows how much she cares about her friends. Even though James bullied him in school. It speaks volumes. It's easy to say that the decision to tell her should be a no-brainer, but Severus would be killed for this without a second's thought. Voldemort has no mercy. Severus knows this and he shared information, anyway.
I'm so proud of him for doing that. ♥
So just when I was sitting here thinking that, yeah, things are grim but at least Severus and Beth are on the same page, YOU GO AND EXPLODE MY SOUL WITH THE LILY/JAMES BIT.
For reasons you are already aware of, I wanted to curl up into a corner and die.
I CANNOT TAKE IT. Please make James and Lily suddenly turn into horrible people so that their deaths won't be sad anymore. Or don't kill them. OR MAKE THEIR DEATHS AS NON-PAINFUL AS POSSIBLE, COUGH HACK WHEEZE. You are like lemon juice in a burn, you are.
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Author's Response: I think Beth and Severus are fully and completely unable to have a decent, normal conversation with each other. There's always something lurking in the background. I think if/when they finally get to a point where they can put all their STUFF behind them, they're not even going to know what to say to each other. Although I rather like you playing puppetmaster to their awkward encounters.
I think the thing about Dumbledore and the prophecy is that, while he's told James the sort of danger they're in... nothing's secure yet, and I can't see him worrying the Potters unnecessarily. You know? And because James is a) a man, and b) Sirius's best friend, he's not really one to talk about things like that too much if he can make them seem like less than they are.
LOVE what you said about the Slytherin agenda, though; that is one of the largest canon traits, the one that sticks out most to me, that notion of self-preservation. Because while not all Slytherins are evil in canon (like you said -- Slughorn), they're all desperate to save their skins. And it should show how much Severus cares about Beth that he let her into his confidence about something like that. ITB was about them getting to know each other, testing the waters of each others' personalities; ITR is the growth of their personalities towards each other. If that makes any sense at all, and I highly suspect it does not.
PLEASE DON'T CURL UP IN A CORNER AND DIE. I'M SORRYYY. I am offering you endless plates of virtual brownies. And lots of hot chocolate. With mini marshmallows. D:
Much love from the salt in your wounds ~ ♥