So, my yesterday review did NOT save, but that just gave me an excuse to reread the forth installment. And it reminded me that I had something to ask you:
ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME? WILL YOU NOT BE SATISFIED UNTIL YOU SUCK EVERY LITTLE TINY TEAR FROM ME?
Phew. Now that that's over...
I don't get it :(. I KNOW James and Lily die. I realize this, but you just made it all feel so new an raw and ugh :(. The mixture of memories tied into the present when he was holding baby Harry, with a dead Lily only feet away.. God that was such an awesome but painful touch. Just remembering how happy everything had been, even when they were in hiding and it sucked.. and then it's all gone and bah :(. I understand I'm making on sense right now, but I'm trying to! I really am!!
I think you played out the 'make Peter your secret keeper' perfectly. Sirius brought it up in sort of a casual manner, and tried to downplay it all, but in reality he knew that they were going to catch him quickly. Yes, he'd die before giving them their information, but what if they still got it? Voldemort is a terrifying master of the mind, and bah. It just made so much sense when the three of them were talking about it, and Wormy. Of course it should be Wormy because.. because.. :(. Then they're all so clever doing a double bluff but they aren't. There's a reason we tell Dumbledore everything. EVERYTHING. Because of the double bluff they died, and Sirius spent his life imprisoned and it all just hurts. But during that section you made it all seem so logical, like 'how could this ever fail?' I want my Marauders back, JKR. I WANT THEM BACK.
Then the scene with Bellatrix! You always praise me for my action scenes, but good Lord Sarah! Did you read that??? Well, of course you did you wrote it, but it was so intense and fast and perfect and CURSE SPELL CURSE then the part where he thought about it being the second time in his life that he could have killed, and remember Harry's words. I do and I don't wish he would have killed her. If he did, he's still be alive. But does that even matter? Because there isn't much left for him to live for. Your ending made me almost happy that he died, because he felt so free and like he was finally where he belonged. Back with the two people (3, but only you and me know that, mwahah) he loved the most, and rid of all the things that he endured during his human life.
I didn't think there was any chance you'd be able to end this on a positive note, but you really did and I wasn't quite so teary at that point.
Thank you so much for all of this Sarah ♥ you have no idea how many amazing/terrible/heartbreaking/warm/loving Sirius and Marauders feels you've given me. This story just reminded me even more why I love these people so much, and no one but you could have done this justice.
AND YOU DEVIATED FROM CANON? You had Sirius come in first?? I think I may take you to the doctor.. :P. But really, I loved that. Just this sacred moment between Godfather and son, the last time he'll ever hold Harry James Potter as a baby... and bah. Okay. I have to be done before I turn into a tear ball.
Author's Response: Can you even believe how long itâs taken me to respond to this? You should put me in a time-out, but then Iâd get even *less* done. This response isnât going to be as long or as in depth as your review, mainly because I agree with your flaily emotions and canât say much other than, âthere, there. I know.â
You KNOW I wrote this specifically to make you CRY. Iâm glad I did it. Hahahahahah. Love you. Thanks for trying to be coherent ;)
Oh man, I really had to think my way through the secret keeper conversation and reveal... Iâm glad you think I got it right! And I like the way you put it âHow could this ever fail?â - isnât that just such a James and Sirius way of thinking?!
Oh my, I loved writing the action scene with Bellatrix, but boy was it hard! I had to really work to keep track of who was where and what was happening - I bow down still further to your greatness at writing stuff like this!
Iâm really happy you got what I was doing with Siriusâs death. Of *course* we donât want him to die, as much for Harryâs sake (and ours) as much as his own - but in this story at least, it sets him free finally from a life of loss and loneliness.
Iâm so glad you loved this story. I wrote it for you, after all! And of course I wanted to warm your heart as well as make you cry. Thank you so much for being the inspiration behind it, and for being such a good friend. Iâd make you my secret keeper. Voldemort would never suspect! :P
I DEVIATED FROM CANON AND I LIKED IT. It had to happen, really. I wanted to give him that moment with Harry.