I casually opened the archive tonight, drinking tea, not expecting your new chapter SO soon. I almost choked to death with my tea when I saw that you posted your new chapter. Of course I had to read it as soon as I saw it. I expected it to be beyond all expectation, and may I say, it exceeded my expectations. It was perfect.
I could almost feel Draco's touch on my own skin, I automatically thought of my boyfriend's tender touch and knew how painful it was for Hermione to feel him so close to her, only to know she won't have him after he leaves the Prefect's bathroom. Your descriptions are very vivid and realistic, and I have the whole scene playing in my head - it is so easy to imagine what you describe. I'm very glad that Hermione relaxed and let her heart lead her for once instead of her brain, even though it might bring her pain and desperation.
I ache for Draco and his state. I cannot but pity him because of his inner emotional battle, and I can only imagine how hard it is balancing between his love for Hermione and his wish to protect his family. I know this come off funny to you, but I hate Blaise for sticking his nose in Draco's privacy. I know he is a good friend of Draco's, and that he is only caring and worrying for him, and with his loyalty to him, Blaise redeems himself in my eyes.
If I could, I'd read this chapter into eternity. I wanted to cry when Draco had to leave. The fact that he had to turn his back to Hermione (in more ways than one) and leave, it pained me as much as it did him. My eyes filled up with tears when he told her to keep her heart open for anybody else but him because he doesn't deserve him. It was agonizing for me to see how he simply had to reject her, in order to save her and keep her alive and well.
I love how Hermione cares for him so deeply, that she lit a vigil for him. It must hurt her to hear his words, even though she knows he means and wishes her well.
A wonderful chapter, by all means. I can't simply wait for the next one. :) Please, keep up the awesome work.
Author's Response: Ilovecookies,
Oh, dear, you have so much insight and always leave me with the wonderful reviews that render me speechless. I'm so sorry that I've taken so long to respond.
I am so happy to read how much you liked this chapter. I always worry about building up a story only to disappoint readers. I'm so glad that you liked this bathroom scene as they enjoyed each other despite everything.
It is wonderful that you can relate to Hermione in feeling his touch. It really is something, isn't it? A loving touch... :)
I do try to describe what I see in my head and what I want them to experience so that readers can see it as well. Thank you so much for that compliment. It really makes me feel good as an author.
It is funny that you mention Hermione allowing her heart to lead her instead of her brain because that's what love does, doesn't it? It has people doing things they wouldn't normally do in allowing someone to get so close. I'm sure you know exactly what I'm talking about. :)
Ah, yes... Draco is very much torn and knows what he must do for the seemingly best interest of them all. And Blaise... he does redeem himself with loyalty.
Your comment about reading this chapter 'into eternity' is really incredible and might be the most amazing thing anyone has ever said about my writing. Such a compliment that I don't even know what to say... even now as I'm finally responding. It means more to me than I can put to words.
Honestly, I cried writing that piece about him wanting her to keep her heart open to love someone else... someone allowed to love her. Such tragedy in words that he really didn't want to be saying. Whaa!
And yes... poor Hermione. I'm glad that you mentioned her vigil. It is what people do when situations seem grim and out of their realm to help. Sometimes prayer is the only thing a person can do. ;'(
Thank you so much for your encouragement and your wonderful comments that mean so much.
More to come as he has to say goodbye to her one last time.