|Review:||Toujours Padfoot says:|
As soon as Beth's bracelet caught the light and Sirius noticed it, I got this really sick feeling in my stomach. I kind of just wanted to stop reading right there because I knew something was going to happen. Seriously shuddering right now.
I DON'T LIKE FIGHTS. D:
I have no idea whose side I'm on at the moment. On the one hand, kind of irked at James for not jumping in with, "Oh, I bought that for her," but I'd imagine he's tired of all the secrets. He's probably been ready to get this out in the open for some time. I can see why Sirius lashed out. He has a really strong point - Severus is a Death Eater and it's dangerous for him to be spending time with a member of the Order. And everything's always worse when it's been kept a secret, especially because James knew as well and didn't tell Sirius. It would feel like a slap in the face.
But on the other hand, I am not a fan of how he spoke to Beth. She's capable of making her own decisions. But one of the consequences of making dangerous decisions with the potential for fallout is losing a few friendships. I'm not sure I would want to be close friends with someone who hangs out with a Death Eater, either. But still, he was so cold and cutting and calling her 'Bridger'... :( I hate that. This is going to ruin everything. OMG AND THEY HAVE TO WORK TOGETHER, TOO. I didn't even think about that. That is going to be sooo awkward. And I get the feeling that Sirius holds grudges and is one to sit and stew over something. He's going to make sure she feels the sting.
And I'm also scared because of the last chapter, what happened at the end. What if Severus suddenly deems it prudent to see much, much less of Beth? And now she wouldn't have Severus or Sirius. That would be horrible. She's not that close with Remus and Peter is making himself scarce these days, the sneaky little rodent, and James is preparing to move away. I feel really sad for Beth. She needs to mend her friendship with Sirius, she truly does. She needs that support, especially if her relationship with Severus starts to get rocky.
THERE ARE LOTS OF NEGATIVE FEELS GOING ON. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I FEEL LIKE HARRY THAT TIME IN DH WHEN HERMIONE TRIED TO PUMMEL RON AFTER HE CAME BACK WITH HIS LITTLE GLOWSTICK ORB IN HIS HEART.
I feel so bad for all of them. WHY DO YOU DO THESE THINGS TO CHARACTERS I LOVE. WHY.
Author's Response: Beth's bracelet actually had a bigger role in this story than I initially intended! It'll come up again in the third book, too -- I was planning that a bit more today. :3 So excited to starting writing that!
I think James didn't interfere for precisely the reason you mentioned, because he is sick of the secrets and whatnot. Poor guy... he really is such a middleman. And then there is Sirius, of course, who is all temper, all the time, and I love the dynamics between them. Am I allowed to? I WILL ANYWAY. ♥
I love how you've gotten a sense for Beth's need for Sirius, too, because I know that I've said this a lot, but you just /get this story/. I cannot even begin to tell you how appreciative of that I am, either. She surely knew that losing him, and even the rest of her friends, would be one of the risks she'd been agreeing to, but knowing something like that and seeing it in front of your face are two very, very different things. THEY DO HAVE TO WORK TOGETHER ~ Luckily Sirius kind of pulls it together, though. That could have been horrendous, really.
This is another point where I wish I'd made Remus and Peter more prominent in this story! Even if Peter is a rodent. Ahh, I think there are a lot of things there would have done with this story, if I'd known things like this. But you know, I'm proud of it all the same. I am. ♥ And you make it so easy to be proud of my work!
Brief epiphany/mush over. Seriously, though, thank you so much for leaving me reviews like this. I know I say it every week, but I MEAN it every week.