Oh my goodness, Amanda. Oh my goodness. How have I not read this sooner? This... gah. Oh my goodness.
I used to squawk at the very idea of Remus/Sirius, but now (I think largely with Missy's enthusiasm for them!) I've really come not only to enjoy the pairing, but even to see a bit of sense in it. This is by far one of the most canon Remus/Sirius fics I've ever read, and I don't believe for a second that this even could be, yes, plausible, behind the scenes. You've got a masterful way of wrapping canon into your own events, and I've got such appreciation for authors who have the ability to do that!
I absolutely adore the connection in Remus's mind between Sirius and Tonks, bittersweet though it is -- she does love him, and he loves the idea of her as being a Black descendant, and having one of his own in Teddy. That's brilliant, so brilliant, and I never, ever thought of it like that before. (I'm kind of in a pleasant state of shock right now.)
One of the most amazing things about this story, and really, all of your stories I've read, is your incredible capacity to get your readers to feel what your characters are feeling. The opening paragraph actually made me both hot and cold, and the ending -- I still have shivers skittering up my arms and shoulders from that battle scene. It's incredibly, beautifully tragic that Remus saw himself fighting alongside Sirius, in the end. That's gorgeous, and I love that, and I am seriously so impressed by it.
Your descriptions too were lovely, as they always, always are. There is a very distinct reason I've favorited you as an author, because it takes a lot for me to do that -- I don't put a lot of people on that list. You can turn a phrase and make it both elegant and intelligent, all while winding allusions in amongst the poetry, too. I have lots of emotions right now and don't know how to make sense of them.
Gorgeous, gorgeous story -- I'm beyond pleased that I got the opportunity to read it. What an awesome gift! ♥ SO well-done!
Author's Response: Ohmygahhh. All the feels. ALL OF THEM.
Missy is the reason I can try to write Remus/Sirius. Really and truly, she is such an inspiration. I couldn't believe how I devoured her Wolfstar stories, and I really tried (and hopefully sort of succeeded) in emulating her style with this story. She liked it, so evidently I didn't do too shabbily :) Canon and I have this sort of pseudo-love affair, in the sense that I love AU as much as anyone but also like to be able to return to flirting with canon, too.
I was trying to get into Remus's head and figure out why he would give in to Tonks. I mean, he's in this state of shock over Dumbledore, and she seemed to have stronger feelings for him than he did in return, and their whole relationship just seemed very much less than ideal. The idea just sort of came to me that maybe he wanted to try to resurrect Sirius within her, something that I found plausible whether they were just friends or something more. I'm happy that you felt like it made sense and worked okay here.
You're super sweet. I'm so flattered by how affected you were by the opening and closing scenes. As a writer, you obviously want those to count, so your reaction was lovely to see!
Ahh. I may well die of flattery. Thank youuu!
You're so lovely. Thank you, thank you again.