Wow, what an emotional train wreck! It was so disturbing that part of me didn't even want to read, but so wonderful that I couldn't stop.. if that makes sense.
I think this is such a sad area of Remus's life to think about. That moment when he decided Teddy deserved better, Tonks deserved better, and though leaving them would be best.
I always wondered if she ever know, or if everything happened so quickly (between Remus deciding to leave to Harry yelling at him) that she never found out.
Anyway, I love the way you have depicted them in this. You make it obvious that he loves her more than anything, that doing this is killing him, but that he thinks she'll be better, safer, if she is no longer attached to him.
Obviously that isn't true, she's part of the Order and it already has been common knowledge of their marriage, but in the chaotic sense Remus was in I'm sure it made perfect sense.
Watching his heart break when she wakes up is so devastating :(. It makes me want to just hug both of them :(. I know that he ends up going back, but you nearly made me believe he didn't!
Great one shot!!!
Author's Response: An emotional train-wreck - yeah you hit the nail on the head there, that was exactly what I was going for in this fic!
Yeah I agree, this is a really sad part of Remus's life, the part where he just felt he was no good for his family, that his very presence was endangering them, that he felt that he was poisoning them, quite literally.
I know what you mean about did Tonks know or did it happen so quickly. I imagine it had been building for a while, if I'm honest with you. I'm actually working on a fic about Lupin's whole life (Door Into The Dark), it sort of grew out of this one shot, I felt that I had to provide reasons why Remus felt this way, why he made this awful decision, it was only supposed to be a novella about his relationship with Tonks, but then I felt that I had to go back to the beginning of his life in order to do proper justice to his relationship with Tonks, so now I've a massive project on my hands, but I've got a detailed plan of what is going to happen, and I have the thought of leaving building for a long time before this actual moment occurs, and Tonks, I feel, knew this was coming, but didn't want to believe it, if that makes any sense at all! I'm rambling, sorry!!!
I'm glad you think I got Lupin's love for Tonks across. I've met many people who think that he never really loved her at all, but that's not what I believe or how I see it. He loved her more than anything, so I am really glad that came across!
Yeah you're right, this is a time where no one is safe and with Tonks being in the order she is far from safe, but Lupin, I feel, just did not want to put her in any more danger than she needed to be in, so that's what he left. Plus I think there is a slight element of fear in it too, he was a little afraid of being happy, because whenever he was happy in the past, death took those that made him happy from him, and I think part of him couldn't stand to have that happen again.
I want to hug the two of them as well! I know how you feel!!!
Thanks so much for the review! I really appreciate it! I'm glad you picked this one-shot, because it is without a doubt, my favourite of all the one-shots I've done!
Thanks so much,