There are no words for how much I love this :)
I'm always amazed to see various authors' takes on this challenge, and I love yours -- dissecting the eternal 'always'. I love how honest and raw this feels -- some of the word choice seems a little foreign to Snape (for example, 'mom' and 'dad' versus 'mother' and 'father'), but other parts of it just scream out to me as things that he wished he had said. For instance, I love that he apologizes, that he just keeps saying how sorry he is, hoping against hope that she might listen to him now even though she refused to do so even when she still possessed living ears and a living mind. I also love that he feels guilty for hating Harry and transferring his hatred for James onto a mere child. It just goes to show how grown up he is, even if it took him a long time to get there.
I liked the flow here -- it was desperate, disjointed. Snape does not speak with his usual eloquence, carefully choosing and releasing each and every precious word, but blurts out things he has always wanted to know in his final moments.
The ending here was wonderful as well. He finally succumbs to the chaos in his mind, choosing to view his demise as a chance to embrace relief and accept that he fulfilled his mission, that he did not disappoint Lily despite all that she did to hurt him, despite the one thing he did to hurt her.
Lovely, Jane. Just lovely ♥
green with envy 2012
Author's Response: Amanda! I am always nervous for whenever you read something Snape-y of mine, particularly Snily, because you are queen of all things Snily. :3 I'm so glad that you liked this, though!
'Mom' and 'dad' are probably the two words in this that bug me the most, but I couldn't say 'James' or 'parents' or 'mother' or 'father' and it was more out of necessity than anything that they're in there. I think it's interesting that you picked up on that, actually, because I always sort of squick when I read that line. :D
I do think there's a sort of frenzied tone to this, and mostly because at this point in the canon timeline, Snape knows that he's going to die, and it's going to be soon. And he's died trying to protect Harry, which of course makes him think of Lily, and so all these things just come spilling out of him. I'm rambling now, but basically you got this down!
Ohhh, Amanda, I am just so glad you enjoyed this. ♥ And I'm so grateful to you for dropping by and leaving me a review -- thank you so much for taking the time to do so!