I didn't even know what this was about when I first clicked on the link. It just seemed interesting, you know? Like it would be powerful and moving, as a lot of your stories are, and I wasn't wrong in that regard. What I didn't expect was the content matter and how deeply it would affect me. I actually feel like crying right now. My throat is closing and my chest aches and god, Helen, you have written my life story here and I don't even know what to say. I may get a little too personal in this review (not revealing information or anything, but about my struggle with self-harm and depression) so I'm sorry if this makes you uncomfortable in any way.
I don't think I've ever admitted this to anyone on this site, but there's something raw about this story that rips me open, and makes me want to spill my secrets. I'm not ashamed anymore because I won the same battle Lucy was fighting many years ago but to read it, especially in 2nd person POV...it makes me feel more connected to what Lucy is going through. It just makes everything more painful to remember. I swear everything you've written has gone through my mind at some point in time, and the whole 'it's just a phase' that Molly claimed, to try and save Lucy from having to go talk to someone, that was the worst part about it all - to hear that I was just seeking attention and that it would all just go away. And I can understand her anger at her family and you know, I understand her family's point of view too - the panic and the worry. But it's frustrating that now everyone suddenly cares and worries about you, worried that maybe they did something wrong, that pushed you too far. I hated that part - that other people tried to shoulder my blame.
Lucy's thoughts and actions are frighteningly accurate. The fight for control, a war different from that which Harry and George fought in, but a battle all the same.
It's interesting how this all started when she was younger with Molly saying that sometimes she likes hurting, like poking a bruise. I don't think she ever imagined that Lucy would take it to that level, though.
The best part is that I've felt Lucy's triumph, and I'm so happy for her to feel that control without having to take drastic measures to try and get a grasp on it.
You did a fantastic job with such a sensitive topic. It must have been difficult to approach this, so kudos to you for being realistic and not afraid to show it how it is. And thank you for writing it, for reminding me that I'm not alone and that there are people fighting this war every day and winning.
Author's Response: Hey there Missy :)
I'm thinking about adding a warning to the summary about what this is actually about because, well, I'm not sure it's fair to stumble across a story about such a topic if you don't know what you're letting yourself in for.
This is my story too. I fought it and I won. So, don't worry about getting personal about those things because I promise you that I understand. I'm not ashamed anymore either, I guess I'm sort of proud that I came through the other side and I haven't slipped yet. So, yeah, congratulations in winning because I know how difficult it is and anyone who's fought those battles... well, just... I'm so happy for you that you made it through :)
My parents never found out about things because that was one of my worse fears so I was very carefull about things, but you here that sort of thing every day and it's simply not fair. i hate it when i here people talking about people do things like that to 'get attention' becase the desperation involved in something like that is just /beyond/ that.
Thank you for this lovely review and I hope that bringing up some of these memories and such wasn't... like, a bad things for you. I was scared of posting this in case it made things worse for anyone, but I needed to write it.
Thank you for sharing :)