This was absolutely wonderful, Violet! I've never read a Tonks/Remus that captured such an alternate view of Tonks, before. You can feel her pain, the way she longs to be loved by Remus -- and I'm glad that she was wrong. I'm glad that despite it all, before she faded into nothingness, she could see that he did love her, even when he didn't want to.
You capture them so richly that honestly, I don't know what else to say. I'm left speechless and spellbound.
You are running out the door, your lingering kiss still warm on my lips. You did it to silence me, to placate me, I know it, but I remain silent as the door shuts. Gone. You are going to die. Alone.
In one moment, I reject what I fought so hard for. Teddy is more real than me, and I cannot love him.
Oh, my goodness. Those are two of my favorite lines. Even though the Order was a cause that Tonks believed in, I had always wondered if she believed in it enough to leave her child behind to fight for it? Just, the conflicting feelings she has is conveyed so brilliantly that I feel like my words and thoughts are all jumbling together.
Excellent job! Wonderful one-shot! ♥
Author's Response: That twist at the end wasn't going to happen initially, but I couldn't end the story on such a depressing note, with Tonks believing that he never actually loved her, when that can't be true. Remus may be reserved and damaged, but he's not cruel and heartless - he would not have had a relationship with her for nothing. I'm still not sure if I caught their relationship "correctly" here, as the story took on a life of its own, going in its own direction. I like what you say about Remus not wanting to love her, but also not being able to help it - I'd never thought of it that way before, and it adds a more painful element to their relationship.
It's fantastic that you liked the characterizations, as they were a major anxiety for me - both of them seem off to me, not quite canon, but maybe that's because so little of both of them was seen in DH, so we can't know what they were like during that book, especially Tonks. I focused more on her conflict, though, and I'm glad that you liked how that was portrayed.
Thank you for this wonderful review! It was a pleasure to receive and reply to, and I appreciate hearing from you. ^_^