This was another moving, poignant piece. I can really see why you chose Remus as your contribution to the eHPF collab - you seem to know and feel for his character inside out, and it makes your fics about him and Tonks so amazingly real and sympathetic. I love the idea of this "missing moment" about him, as we didn't hear much from him at the end of DH, did we? The descriptions of the Marauders were wonderful - I think you're going to be one of my favorite Marauder writers (and there are only two or three of those) because you somehow describe them the way people always imagine them, yet they always seem original. One of my favorite parts: "However, the image of her dark eyes rapidly welling with fresh tears remains burning in my memory and a fire explodes in my chest, finally offering me a reason to survive. Because this time, for the first time since this war lasts, I have something to come back to. I have someone to live for." So gorgeous and SO Remus.
I got teary at the conversation between him and Tonks when he begged her to stay behind with their son, so he could feel better about leaving and have someone to fight for. I got even tearier when he made her promise him that she would run and never look back, no matter what she heard - although I think he knew that Tonks was Tonks and she wouldn't keep that promise either. She will always run back to him. :( Love this part: "The light is blinding and beautiful and I swear I can see James grinning at me, Lilly smiling kindly from his embrace, as she always had, Sirius reaching out a hand and winking at me, even Albus standing behind them with that knowing little smile of his and mirth in his blue eyes. And I know I had somehow found home again." So incredibly poignant and touching that Remus accepted death - after all, he and Tonks would go together.
Amazingly beautiful writing, it blows my mind every single time. 10/10
Author's Response: Hello again!
It's so funny that this story currently has the most reviews when it's actually my least favorite of the ones I've written in this fandom... :D
It was written in the moment of desperation following the Remus/Tonks deaths in DH and, although there are parts I'm really satisfied with, there are so many things I would have written differently had I been writing it now.
Either way, I'm very glad you liked it. As you already know, I appreciate your opinion immensely. :)
I've always felt especially connected to Remus. I'm not quite sure why, but his life of isolation and constant putting up with prejudices and the gracefully tragic way he had been dealing with them have always fascinated me. I've spent a lot of time while constructing his background to fit with the character we know from canon.
Oh, and I love doing "missing moments" fics! I feel that JKR had left a lot of holes for us fanfic authors to fill, especially with the not-so-main characters.
Wow, I feel so flattered that you think I write the Marauders well! Especially because I know you don't like Marauder stories very much. I'm having a lot of trouble with a Marauder scene in the next chapter of "Golden Slumbers", so maybe this encouragement helps me out of the crisis... :D
Actually, the conversation between Remus and Tonks in the little corridor in the middle of the battle was actually the scene I've constructed the entire story around. The moment I read in DH that they were dead (and went back a couple of times to read it again because I couldn't believe JKR was doing this to me), I had an image of the two of them huddled up somewhere and Remus trying to reason with the tempered Tonks, trying to keep her out of harm's way and, eventually, sacrifice himself for her. To me, it was just the ultimate display of his love for her that he somehow never knew how to express properly.
Remus always struck me as a slightly philosophical, reflective kind of a person so writing him in first person wasn't as originally hard as I thought it would be. His accepting of death in such a calm, sensible manner just came naturally according to his character.
Thank you, once again, for this wonderful review. Your kind words make me smile every time I read them. Your reviews are one hell of a mood-booster.