This is one of the best one shots I've read. The way you wrote Sirius' thoughts and feelings in this fic was just brilliant. It felt like you revealed his soul for everyone to see. He's a traitor - he's having an affair with his best friend's wife - and love and guilt are eating him alive and driving him crazy. You portrayed him as a tormented soul again - but an adult version of Sirius-the-Tormented-Soul. He's a beautiful character, and you made him even more so. You made it so easy to feel for him. I had the feeling I was in the same room and witnessing his slow 'agony'.
This flows so well, and it's full of emotions. Love, hate, love, anger, love, guilt, love... and so many more. It's very easy to understand how you can say the wrong words and be unable to say the one word that you should say. It's so sad, but so realistic. People do that all the time, because they hurt, like Sirius, or because they just think they will have another chance... But sometimes there is no second chance. Not for Sirius. It's just so sad, his grief is so poignant.
I'm not a Sirius/Lily shipper, but I can read any ship (well, not the absurd ones, like Grayback/Hermione or Ginny, of course... lol), especially when it's nicely written. And here it is, and more. It's a very good Sirius/Lily, all the more so that they are in characters. Good job!
Author's Response: Really?! 8-| Wow! Thanks, Anne! Now that I'm struck speechless, I'll try to put together some sort of meaningful reply. It's amazing that you liked the story that much - perhaps it's a deeper story than I imagined it, with it revealing the beauty and tormented nature of his soul (he's a wonderful sort of tormented character to write about - so enigmatic and moody!).
I'm also glad that the closeness to the story was there for you. Even though it's in third person, there's still that deep connection with the character, which is good to hear that it worked. The realism was less intended, seeing that I've never been in that situation, but I guess there's enough movies and books out there that have showed it in one way or another. :P It's great that his grief came out realistically - that's a very (obviously) significant factor in this story, that Sirius feels the self-loathing for what he did and that he really regrets everything, both having loved Lily and having lost her.
Truth to tell, Lily/Sirius isn't my thing either, but it is nice to write about - a good change from James/Lily or other ships I usually stick to. :) Thank you very very much for reviewing this and enjoying it. It means a huge amount to me. ^_^