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I Never Get What I Want so I Want You by Iluvharrypotter234

Format: Novella
Chapters: 23
Word Count: 25,485

Rating: 15+
Warnings: Mild Language, Mild Violence, Scenes of a Mild Sexual Nature

Genres: Humor, Romance, Action/Adventure
Characters: Dumbledore, Lupin, McGonagall, Snape, Sirius, Lily, James, Pettigrew, Voldemort, OC
Pairings: James/Lily, Sirius/OC

First Published: 05/14/2005
Last Chapter: 07/21/2008
Last Updated: 07/21/2008


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 Claire never gets what she wants. "He'll never notice me..." She only wants one person. "Just tell him how you feel..." She thinks up a plan. "It won't fail..." She decides to date his best friend. "So James..."

Chapter 1: Stuck on Him
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Disclaimer: I own nothing other than Claire and the plot or any other characters you don't recognize. Everything else belongs to JK Rowling.


"Claire, Claire!" I looked over to find the source of my name being called and I spotted James Potter waving me over.

"Hey James." I smiled as I sat down in front of him and he smiled back

"Hey Claire." My heart skipped a beat as I heard his voice say my name.

"Hey Sirius, Remus, Peter." I acknowleged the rest of the Marauders and pulled a plate of food to me.

"Woah, slow down there Reese." Sirius placed his hand overtop of mine and I tried to swallow the food in my mouth which was hard to do as my throat was dry as a log.

"S'rry." I mumbled, a blush creeping up onto my cheeks.

"So..." James said trying to start a conversation.

"So Prongs?" Remus asked looking over the top of his book that was propped up by the syrup bottle.

"Yes Prongs, something important you need to tell us?" Sirius asked removing his hand from mine and placing it in his lap.

"No, no, I was just wondering if you lot had dates to the next Hogsmeade trip yet?" He picked up his fork that had a piece of pancake stuck to it and stuck it in his mouth.

"Good question there Prongs, but as a matter of fact I do." Sirius replied beaming, there was Sirius for you. He always had a date.

"Who?" Inquired James dropping his fork back onto his plate which made a loud clanging noise.

"Sheesh Potter, keep it down!" Lily Evans moaned from the end of the table. Of course no one payed any attention.

"Lelia Graves, you know the one from Ravenclaw." He replied running a stray hand through his sleek brown hair.

I sighed and James looked up at me, giving me a quizzical look.


"Oh look at the time! It's time for class!" I dropped my arm and scrambled out of the Great Hall.

"She wasn't even wearing a watch." Sirius exclaimed.

"I know mate, I know."


I entered the Charms classroom with the rest of the Marauders trailing behind me. I was really the only girl allowed to actually hang out with the Marauders all the time. Practically my best friends were guys, but who said I minded?

James and I sat at a table in the back of the classroom as that was the best part to pass notes. Sirius and Remus sat at the table next to ours and Peter sat at the table on the other side.

James: Claire what was up with you back there?

Claire: Nothing, what are you talking about?

James: Well you took off pretty fast.

Claire: I didn't want to be late.

James: When have you ever cared about being late before?

Claire: I--

I was about to write my reply to James' question when another piece of folded paper landed in front of me with my name written on it.

Sirius: What are you guys talking about?

Claire: Nothing much, why?

S: No reason, this lesson is so boring we did shielding spells last year.

C: I know, Remus seems interested though.

S: Is he ever not?

I let out a small chuckle and looked over to Sirius' table. He looked up and just winked at me. I nearly melted. James pushed a note over Sirius' and I looked down to read it.

James: Hello? You haven't answered me.

Claire: Sorry, what were we talking about?

J: I don't remember... oh well.

C: All right, this lesson seems to be going on forever!

J: I know...

I looked up at the Professor and wished for the time to speed up.

Claire: How many more minutes left?

Sirius: Like ten.

C: Ten!! That's too long!

S: Tell me about it!

C: Well I better pay attention, and you better too!

S: Yeah, sure.

I chuckled and pocketed Sirius' note and scribbled another note to James.

Claire: Just ten more minutes!

James: Yes and then we are free for the weekend which by the way is Hogsmeade.

C: I know...

J: Have a date yet?

C: No.

J: Has anyone asked you?

C: Well yes, Jordan Martinez from Ravenclaw and Jake Marquez from Hufflepuff and...

J: No need to carry on, why didn't you say yes to any of them.

C: I don't know. I have to pay attention for atleast the last five minutes of class okay?

J: Okay...

I looked back up to the front of the room and tried to pay attention for the last minutes of class but it was no use, it was stuck on something else. Sirius.

Chapter 2: Poor Lad; He's Smitten
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"Evans!" The red-haired girl looked up from the book she was reading by the fire and gave me a strange look.

"What do you want Reese? Come to humilate me some more?" Lily hissed through clenched teeth. Oops, I forgot, the only time I talk to this girl is when I'm teasing her.

"No, I just wanted to ask you something." With the realisation I had just made I quickly looked to the boys dorm stairs.

"Don't worry, your little friends are all out on the Quidditch pitch." She rolled her emerald eyes and looked back down at her book. "Continue."

"You don't like James, do you?" I sat in the chair across from her and crossed my legs confidently. James' arrogant ego had kind of rubbed off on me or maybe I was always arrogant? Anywho, I focused my attention on the green eyed girl and hoped.

"Potter?!" She spluttered, "Are you kidding me, I would never like that arrogant, egotistic, pompous--"

"I get the point." I snickered, rolling my eyes at her heated face.

"Why?" She asked snapping her book shut and clasping her hands ontop of her closed book as a shrink would do.

"What are you my shrink?" I asked glaring at her, I hated nosy people.

"I was just wondering." She shot back. Jeez, this girl was a spit fire.

"Well, it's none of your business!" I stood up and glared daggers at her as I made my way to the entrance of the common room.

"Whatever Reese." Lily picked up her book and silently made her way up the girls dorm stairs.

"Mental that one." I replied to the empty common room before stepping out through the portrait hole to find my friends.


"Okay James, I'm going to release the snitch now." Remus' voice rang out through the night's sky as I made my way over to the Quidditch pitch.

"Ready?" Sirius' voice asked. My stomach did flip flops.

"Just do it." James called out. I watched Remus open his hand and before it disappeared I saw the glint of gold of the Snitch.

"Got it, what's the time?" James called out again, flying in circles around the pitch, hand closed in a fist.

"Eleven seconds. Great timing Prongs!" Remus exclaimed.

A shrill clapping and giggling pierced the air as Peter began jumping up and down in the Quidditch stands.

"Mate, how bout we call it a night before Peter wets himself from excitement." Sirius said, a disgusted look on his face as he watched Peter still jumping up and down.

" 'Ello boys." I called out, finally making my presence known.

"Hey Claire!" James touched back onto the ground and came walking up to me. I looked over his shoulder at Sirius who was looking up at the stars. I had to start my plan. I wrapped my arms around James' neck and gave him a kiss on the cheek.

"Well, I'm happy to see you too." He replied slipping his arms around my waist. I slithered my eyes over his shoulder once again to see Sirius studying his fingernails.

"Come on guys, it's almost curfew." Remus began packing up the Quidditch supplies and with James' arm still around my waist we began to make our way back to the castle.


I took a sip of my pumpkin juice as we all sat in front of the fire in the deserted common room. I was positioned between James' knees while his back was against the couch. Sirius sat on one side of us while Remus and Peter were on the other.

"Hogsmeade tomorrow." I said, breaking the silence.

"Did you get a date yet Reese?" Sirius asked turning his handsome face to look at me.

"No..." I trailed off, turning my own head to look at James. "How bout it Potter, you and me in Hogsmeade?"

James stared at me for a minute before answering. "Sure."

"Does that answer your question Black?" Sirius nodded looking back to the fire. My plan was working perfectly.


I groaned as the sunshine hit my closed eyelids. "Evans!" I yelled throwing a pillow at the girl standing by the window.

"What?! Are you trying to make me deaf!?" The red-haired girl picked the pillow of the floor and dropped it on my head.

"Maybe that's why you don't listen to me everytime I tell you not to open the shades this early in the morning!" I snapped sitting up, rubbing my sleep filled eyes.

"You don't need to sleep into lunchtime every weekend!" She went back to looking out the window at the Hogwarts ground.

"Yes I do, its called beauty sleep! Maybe you should learn about it, because you could sure use some!"I ran to the bathroom, quickly shutting it, when I heard a loud thump hit the door as Lily Evans threw a pillow at the door. This is how I woke up every weekend morning, by that annoying Evans. Just because I pick on her doesn't mean she has to retaliate! Goodness!

I change into the clothes I'm going to wear to Hogsmeade. I put on a blue shirt that says., Watch your step, you might just fall for me. I then pull on light blue faded jeans. Ready. I bounce down the stairs to meet the boys, surprised that they're already up.

"What has you four up so early?" I ask walking over to them.

"Hogsmeade of course!" James exclaimed hopping up to meet me. "Lets go." He grabbed my hand and started to pull me out of the common room. Once outside Sirius told us that he had to leave to go meet Lelia.

"Poor lad, he's smitten." I gave a side-look at James before ignoring his comment and pulling him down the staircase. All the while thinking that soon Sirius would be all mine.

Chapter 3: I'll Show You Who's Jealous
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We handed our permission slips over to Professor Campbell before picking out a carriage to sit in.

"After you." James held open the door for me while I stepped inside.

"What are we all going to do today?" Remus asked shutting the door behind him. The carraige started moving as James answered.

"Go to Honeydukes, Zonko's, where do you want to go Claire?"

"Huh?" I looked up into James' brown eyes realising he had asked me a question. Stupid Sirius, you got me all distracted.

"Zonko's is about it for me, I suppose." Yes, I was just like the Marauders. I was the prank Queen, well I was the only girl so I guess that you'd have to say that. I was one of the best though!

"Are you all right?" James asked peering down at me.

"Fine, fine." I lifted a hand up to my eyes to study my manicure. Muggle idea, pretty cool if you ask me.

"You first Claire."

"First for what?" I asked looking up and dropping my hand back into my lap.

"To get off, what did you think I meant?" James took my hand in his and pulled me outside with him.

"Oh, nothing. Sorry." A pink tint painted my face as we began walking down the street of Hogsmeade.

"Zonko's first?" James asked pulling me inside before I could react.

"Ahh, Mr. Potter! So nice to see you. Here for another stock?" Mr. Zonko came bouncing from the back of the store to where we stood.

"Ms. Reese! My favorite customer! I bet you're looking for our newest product. We just got a bunch of new stuff in yesterday!" Even if I was having one of my spaced out days, Mr. Zonko always brought me out of it.

"Please, show me!" I followed Mr. Zonko to the back of the shop while James followed me. Pranking people was my hobby and I absolutely loved Zonko's joke shop.

"We just got in these wonderful candies that make you sick to get out of class." I nodded taking in all of the things he was saying.

"I've got my order." I stated after he told me about a few more items. "A dozen of the sick candies, a box of fake wands, two dozen of the perma-ink in different colors, 6 things of the candies that make you invisible, and just an assortment of anything." Mr. Zonko smiled and went happily to get my things.

"What about you Mr. Potter?" James looked up at his name and smiled.

"The usual." He replied.

"Dungbombs too?"

"About a dozen should do it." James and I headed to the counter to pay for our things while Mr. Zonko rang it up.

"After this we should probably go find Remus at the bookstore and maybe meet up with Sirius and Lelia at the Three Broomsticks." James said pulling money out of his pocket.

"Okay." I pulled out the amount for my bill and handed it over to Mr. Zonko.

As we were leaving Zonko's, Mr. Zonko called out to us, "Can't wait to see you two next Hogsmeade!"

We waved before stepping out back into the busy street of Hogsmeade.

James and I walked in a comfortable silence to the bookstore where we found Remus reading a book at one of the many tables clustered around the store.

"We should go and see if Sirius and Lelia want to go to the Three Broomsticks with us." James said as we reached Remus' table.

"Sure, let's go." We made our way over to the little pub for us teenagers and stepped inside.

"Mr. Potter, Ms. Reese, and Mr. Lupin! How lovely to see you three. Where is Mr. Black?"

My heart sank, "He's there Madam Rosmerta." I pointed a shaky finger to the back of the pub, where Sirius and Lelia were snogging.

"Oh, another one. How many girls has it been so far?"

"Like six." Remus replied.

"And it's only October!"

"I know." James intertwined his fingers with mine and we sat down at one of the booths.

"Where's Peter?" I asked realising the fifth Marauder was missing.

"I don't know, but who cares." James replied shrugging his shoulder.

For the rest of the Hogsmeade trip, I carefully sipped my butterbeer trying not to look at the girl and guy snogging in the back of the pub. The girl snogging the guy who was supposed to be mine. I was going to have to work a lot harder.


"I'm going to bed." I said coldly as the five of us stepped into the common room. I had been giving Sirius the cold shoulder the whole way back to the castle.

"Wait, Claire, can I talk to for a minute?" Sirius asked giving the other guys 'the look.'

"Whatever." I replied flopping down on the red couch, in front of the fire. The others trudged up the boy's dorm stairs and Sirius sat down next to me.

"Are you okay?" He asked running a hand through his brown hair.

"What do you mean?" I asked fairly quickly as my heart started to increase its pace.

"Well, you were kind of ignoring me the whole ride home. Were you freaked because I was snogging Lelia." His brown eyes traveled around my body before settling focus on my eyes.

"Why would I care who you snog?" I snapped. I was becoming really fed up with him.

"I don't know. Maybe your jealous." Oh no, he did not just say what I thought he said!

"Jealous!! I am defiantly not jealous of you and that Ravenclaw girl!!" I was finished. Without a backward glance, I stormed up the girl's dorm stairs, not caring if I woke up the whole bloody castle. Jealous, me? Hmph, I would show him. Sirius Black, watch your step. I've got a few tricks up my sleeve. I'll show you who's jealous.

Chapter 4: I'm Just Getting Started
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I woke up the next morning still in a bad mood from the night before. Oh how Sirius would be getting the cold shoulder today. I dressed in my uniform and walked down to the common room.

"Hey." James said pulling me to him.

"Hey." I pecked him on the lips and smirked at Sirius who was staring at us.

"Jealous Black?" I asked once James had left the common room to go to breakfast.

"Come on Claire, don't do this."

"Do what? Kiss the guy I like in front of my best friend?" I asked smiling sweetly.

"You don't like James, do you?" He asked with shocked eyes.

"Why yes, I think I do." I replied turning my back on him while I skipped out of the common room. I was loving this.


"Prongs buddy, can I ask you something?" Sirius asked sitting next to his friend who was sitting next to the tree by the lake after classes.

"Sure, what is it?"

"Do you like Reese?" Sirius said staring out at the lake.

"Claire, yeah, she's great." He sighed, thinking about her made him happy.

"Oh, well she likes you too." James head snapped to the side to look at Sirius and a smiled appeared on his face.

"She does?!" Sirius nodded.

"Go get her mate."


James entered the library and found me doing my homework at one of the tables.

"May I sit here?" He asked pulling out the chair next to me.

"I guess so since you already sat down." I chuckled going back to my homework.

"So Claire..." I pulled my eyes back up to his brown ones and smiled. I had a feeling of what was going to happen.

"So James..." I mimicked.

"I was wondering. Would you like to be my girlfriend?" I smiled and nodded. This was too easy.


The Marauders sat in front of the fire in the common room, just talking.

"What should we do, its only 8:30 on a friday evening?" I asked patting my hands on James' knees which were pulled up around me. Sirius sat staring at us from the couch.

"I don't know, any ideas?" Remus asked looking around at us all.

I racked my brain for anything fun we could do right there in the common room. Then I thought of something.

"Truth or Dare."


After we had nicked some Truth potion from Tuttle's office, we settled on the rug in a cricle.

"Who wants to go first?" James' asked sitting across from me.

"I will." I replied, putting on an evil smirk and rubbing my hands together.

"Remus, who would you like to kiss in our grade." I asked after he had picked truth and dranken some of the potion.

"Melissa Patil." He responded, almost mechanically and blushed pink afterwards. We all laughed and passed the truth serum around and we all took a sip.

"Ok, Peter, truth or dare?" Remus asked staring at the mousey boy.

"D-dare." He squeaked.

"Okay, I dare you to run around the common room in your boxers yelling I'm a fish." We all laughed and Peter stood up. We all watched him do his dare and by the end of it we were all holding our sides with laughter.

After a few more rounds and intenseful dares we started doing the kissing dares.

"Claire, I dare you to make out with James for a minute." I smiled and crawled over to james. I lifted his face to mine and pressed my lips to his. His lips were warm and soft against mine and he licked my bottom lip. I opened it and allowed his tongue access to my own. After a minute I pulled away. James looked out of breath but I was fine. I retreated back to my seat and asked Remus a question.

Then Remus dared me the thing I was dreading.

"I dare you to make out with Sirius for a minute and a half." Remus smirked at our shocked faces. I pulled myself together and crawled over to him. My heart was beating faster than usual and I was hoping that no one could hear it. I pushed Sirius down and straddled him. I lowered my face down to his and finally my lips collided with his. I was in complete bliss. Our tongues danced together to an invisble tune and our bodies melded together perfectly. I ran my hands through his brown hair that I had wanted to do for so long. Someone cleared their throat in the background and I reluctantly pulled away. I turned my head to look at Remus who was smirking big time.

"What?" I asked annoyed that he had ruined our perfect moment.

"Your time's been up for like five minutes." I felt my face grow hot as I crawled off of Sirius who still lay on the ground dazed at what had just happened.

"I'm tired guys, I'm going to bed." I stepped over Sirius' perfectly toned body to get to the girl's dorm stairs.

"Uhh, night?" came three boy's voices and just a "Wow." from the fourth. I told him to watch out, did he listen? No. Sirius Black, there's more where that came from. I'm just getting started.

Chapter 5: I Would Never Want to Hurt Him
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When I awoke the next morning I knew it was going to be a nerve wracking day. Hopefully James won't ask about the kiss last night between Sirius and I, but that kiss proved to me that he is who I want to be with.

I pulled on a pair of faded jeans and a white t-shirt. I slipped on my sneakers and made my way down to the common room. Sirius was the only one up so far. He was sitting quietly on the couch.

" 'Ello Sirius." I said as I stepped into the common room. Sirius looked over in my direction and a blush creeped up onto his handsome face.

"Uhh, hey Claire."

"Why so shy?" I asked, smirking.

"Shut up." He turned his head back to look at the fire and I stepped closer to the couch. "Can I ask you something?" I sat down next to him in front of the fire and nodded.

"That kiss last night. That meant nothing right? It was great and all, but you're with James. There's nothing that could happen between us, I would never want to hurt James. He's my best mate and I know that you would never want to hurt him either." As he finished his last sentence, my stomach dropped. Thanks Black, for making me feel guilty. I was kind of playing James. Oh bloody hell, why do you do this to me.

"No, no, I would never want to hurt him."


The rest of my day was filled with books, quills, parchment, homework, and Sirius' words ringing in my ears. What was he, my conscience? I never really thought I was hurting James, but my plan had always been to dump him when Sirius figured out that he really liked me. I guess I would be hurting him. How do I get myself into these kind of things. My plan sounded perfect when I had thought of it, but now it seems childish and stupid. What is a girl supposed to do?

"Ms. Reese, what are you doing in the library at dinner time?" James' voice filled my ears. Great, the last person I wanted to see.

"Working on homework. What are you doing?" I asked flipping a page in my book.

"I was looking for you, Sirius said you might be in here and I guess he was right." James smiled and pulled out the chair next to mine.

"Well, next time you see Mr. know it all, tell him I would be very pleased if he would mind his own business." I snapped, annoyed that Sirius always knew where I was.

"Okay, is there something going on between you two?" His brown eyes filled with concerned as my heart rate quickened.

"No! Why would you say that?" I responded fairly quickly. James raised an inquiring eyebrow.

"I meant, are you guys fighting?"


"Is there something else going on that you want to talk about?" I glared my blue eyes at the raven-haired boy.

"No. Do you mind, I'd like to get most of this done." I snapped, picking up my quill once again.

"Oh, sorry. See you later." He gave me a kiss on the cheek and left. We hadn't kissed really since that dare in the common room. Much of a couple we are.


"Black! Just stay out of my personal business!" I yelled across the room at Sirius who stood holding a small book in his hand.

"How could you Reese! After those things you said to me this morning!" He snapped back.

"How could you!?" I threw back.

"We're not talking about me here Reese!" He yelled.

"How could you steal my diary! That's what we're talking about! You invaded my privacy! How could you, you're supposed to be my best friend!" I could feel the tears coming to my eyes, but I tried to hold them back. I wouldn't cry in front of him.

"So is James! But look what you're doing to him! You're just dating him so that the guy you do like gets jealous and asks you out! How do you think James will feel when you dump him for this other guy. Don't you think he may beat up this guy you like?!"

"Well then, when and if he does, please, tell me how you feel being beaten to a pulp. I'd love to know." I stormed up the girls stairs letting the tears silently make their way down my cheeks. Behind me I left Sirius standing shocked, while my diary was lying facedown on the common room floor.

Chapter 6: There I Go Again
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That night I cried myself to sleep. Just the look on Sirius' face was heart breaking. I didn't want to hurt James, I really didn't. I didn't even know if Sirius was worth it anymore. Did I really want to hurt James just to get Sirius to notice me? No I didn't, I knew what I had to do.


"James!" I called out to the boy who was making his way down the long corridor. He smiled as he turned around and began walking towards me.

"Hey Claire!" He wrapped an arm around my waist and pulled me close to him. I winced at his touch, greatfully he didn't notice.

"What's up?" He asked, raising a brown eyebrow at me lazily.

"I-I can't see you anymore." I replied quietly slipping out of his reach and running down the empty corridor.


"So Reese, what did you do to Potter to make him so miserable?" Evans sat down in front of me at the Gryffindor table. I looked down the table to the Marauders, all who were patting James on the back. Then, sending icy glares down the table to me.

"What do you mean?" I snapped, throwing her my most dirtiest look I could muster.

"Well obviously you did something wrong because they won't let you sit with them." Her eyes softened at the pained expression on my face. "You dumped him?"

I nodded, poking my fork at the piece of meat on my plate. "I-I didn't want to hurt him." I whispered. Evans gave me a confused look.

"What do you mean?"

"I didn't want to hurt him okay!?" The marauders looked over as I said it, louder than I intended to. "Okay, let's all stare at me like I've got a second head!" I snarled at them before slamming down my fork and storming out of the Great Hall, with Evans at my feet.


"Want to tell me what is going on?" Evans was leaning against the bathroom door while I was locked inside.

"Why all of a sudden are you trying to be nice to me?" I asked, wiping a tear off my already tear stained face.


"Don't tell me that you feel bad for me, that won't help any." I replied sarcastically. I could feel her roll her eyes behind the door.

"Can I tell you something?" She asked.

"Sure, shoot." I let out a choked laugh and could feel Evans smile.

"When we first met on the train in our first year, I thought you were really cool and I wanted to be friends with you. Then I saw you with the Marauders and they hate me so basically you followed." I heard her sigh behind the door and suddenly felt a pang of guilt.

"Sorry." I mumbled, mentally adding that on to my list of people I've hurt.

"No problem. Doesn't mean we can't start now." I smiled and unlocked the door. I stepped out and smiled at Evans.

"I think this is the beginning of an interesting friendship."


"Hey Reese, what's with you and Evans being all friendly to each other?" Sirius called out as I entered the common room the next morning.

"Well, unlike you Black, she is actually being a friend to me." I snapped exiting the portrait hole before another word could escape his perfect lips.

"Reese!" I turned around as I put one foot onto the staircase.

"Evans." I smiled and waited for her to catch up.

"Had an encounter with Black?" She asked, walking down the stairs with me.

"Yeah, you?"

"Same, same." Before I could push the doors to the Great Hall a voice stopped me in my tracks.

"Lovely, can't do much better than Evans, can you Reese?" I felt my face flush and turned around to face the wonderful James Potter. Wonderful? That's an understatement.

"She's much better than your lot Potter." I smirked sweetly at him and then pulled Evans into the Great Hall by her elbow.

"Let's not get hasty Reese." Why wouldn't he just leave me alone?

"I'm not the one who just yesterday was having his little friends comfort him. If you don't mind Potter, I don't have any time in my overly busy schedule to talk to the likes of you." Without a backward glance, I plopped myself down at the Gryffindor table adding James Potter twice to my list of people I've hurt.

"Evans, tell me why I get myself into these kinds of things?"

"Sorry Reese, you're in this one on your own." I replied by banging my head on the table and getting a horrible headache afterwards. There I go again.

Chapter 7: Doesn't Matter Now, Nothing Matters
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Classes were the same all week. I sat with Evans at a table near the front of the room, while the Marauders, missing one person, sat in the back. The worst part of classes is having four boys glare at the back of your head.

I skipped dinner that night, tired of icy stares and headed back to the common room.

"I'll bring you something." Evans called, while jogging down the stairs to the Great Hall. I continued walking, with my head down, to the common room.

I was thinking about all the things that had happened the past week when I ran smack dab into someone. My butt landed on the cold stone floor and I looked up to see who I had run in to. Staring down at me were two chocolate brown eyes and a boy with brown hair.

"Well thanks Black, you just had to run into me. Couldn't resist?" I snapped, ignoring his hand that was trying to help me up. "I think I'm capable of getting up by myself, and anyways, you wouldn't want your little gang to catch you." I stood up, brushing my robes off and tried to pass Sirius to get to the portrait hole. He moved to the left, where I had tried to pass. I moved to the right and so did he. I crossed my arms over my chest and glared at him.

"We need to talk." His eyes met mine in a sad gaze and I swifted mine up to the ceiling.

"I thought we had already established everything that we need to talk about, there's nothing more to say." I lifted my gaze off the ceiling and back to his own. I felt a pang in my stomach as I stared at the boy before me. All I wanted to do was jump in his arms and have him tell me that everything would be all right.

"I think there is, why didn't you just tell me?" He pleaded.

"I have nothing left to say on this subject, and you can not make me say anything anyways." I pushed past Sirius and his voice stopped me before I could open my mouth to give the fat lady the password.

"You didn't have to hurt James to get me to notice you, I already had." A single tear ran down my cheek.

"Doesn't matter now, nothing matters." I mumbled.

"I was pretty mad when I found out that you were doing that to James, but now I see that you're a mess. I-I'm sorry."

"I don't think I can forgive you for this one." I wiped my cheeks on the sleeves of my robes and stopped. The air had changed. The sadness and sympathy had changed to heat and anger.

"Forgive me?! I should be the one forgiving you!" Sirius' eyes were flaring with anger.


"You were the one who hurt my best friend just to get me to notice you! You should be saying sorry about what you did! I should have never come here to see if you were all right. You certainly proved that you don't care about anyone but yourself!" I looked up at the boy who had just finished yelling. In response I threw my charms book on the floor, with my diary ontop and ran through the portrait hole, into the common room.

Sirius stared after me, feeling terrible about what he had just said. He picked up my charms book and my diary and gave the password to the Fat Lady. The portrait swung open and Sirius entered. Sitting by the fire, he took my diary and opened it to the latest page.

It's me again. This week has been a nightmare. Evans has been a great friend to me, counting that the Marauders all hate me. Her and I probably wouldn't be friends if I hadn't thought of that stupid plan. I should have just talked to Sirius, but he's always moving from girl to girl. I didn't want to be just another toy to his collection. James and I are still exchanging insults. I guess I was only thinking of myself when I thought of that plan. I didn't want to hurt James, but I was so caught up on getting Sirius' attention that I never really thought of it. Sirius is just so perfect. His eyes are wonderful. Everytime I look in them I get lost. His smile is contagious and makes me smile just thinking about it. Actually that is the first time I've smiled in days. See he just does that to me, makes me happy no matter what. Too bad he's not talking to me. I don't know what I'm going to do. What if they never talk to me again? What if they don't let me be a Marauder ever again. I loved being a Marauder, it was so much fun. And they were my only true friends, I loved hanging out with them. Now? Now it seems like those will all be just memories and that's all I'll have to live off. Time for classes and now time for more glares from my once to be friends. Well here I go.


Sirius shut the diary. He stood up and tucked the books under his arm and continued his way to the girls dorm stairs.

Chapter 8: I Don't Do Quidditch Games
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A soft knocking filled the empty dorm. I opened my eyes wearily and brushed away the tears still falling from my tired eyes.

I sat up and tiredly made my way over to the door. I pulled open the wooden door to see Sirius standing behind it. I turned my back on him and sat down on the windowsill. I heard Sirius shuffle over to where I was and listened as he cleared his throat.

"What?!" I snapped, after he had cleared his throat for the third time.

"Is this all true?" He asked handing me my diary.

"You could say that. I'm not so sure now." I snatched the book out of his hands and rested my cheek against the cool glass.

"It was nice. Look Reese, you really hurt James, I just don't know if there can be anything between us after what happened." I looked back, new tears forming in my eyes. I met his gaze and felt the tears sting my eyelids as he looked at me with sad eyes.

"I know it was stupid! Please Sirius!" I pleaded, finally letting the tears escape once again. Sirius sat down in front of me and wiped away my tears with his thumb. I shivered at his touch.

"You're amazing, you know that?" I smiled at his words. "I just don't know, it would be weird."

"I know, but I've wanted this for so long. Can't we atleast try?"

He smiled and rubbed his fingers over my cheek. "I don't know, let's just see what happens, all right?" I jerked away from his fingers and stood up.

"Fine." I flopped down on my bed and stuffed my face in my pillow, letting my tears spill onto it. Sirius looked at me sadly before leaving the dorm. What was I to do now?


"How you doing?" Sirius asked sitting down next to James on the common room couch.

"Better, I've moved on. James Potter is back!"

"Oh who?" Sirius asked raising an eyebrow.


"What?! You like Evans now? Good luck!" Sirius patted his friend on the back

"I know, a challenge, but that's what I like."

"Say, if someone new was to go out with Reese, would you care?" Sirius asked.

"No, I'm over her."

"Yes, I mean that's good."

"Sirius, I'm not stupid. Don't let her get away mate."


The next few days of classes were a living nightmare. After Potions class on Friday James caught up to Evans and I. I was sure that he was going to insult me so I was ready for it. The weirdest thing happened though.

"Evans, will you go out with me?" James panted because he had been running to catch up with us.

"No." Evans replied shortly and pulled me down the hallway by my elbow. I looked back at James to see him smiling like a lovesick puppy.


"Hey Reese." James, Remus, and Peter all sat down next to me at the Gryffindor table for dinner.

"Woah, I thought you guys weren't talking to me?" I asked curious as to why all of a sudden they were being friendly to me.

"Well we've been talking--"

"And we've decided--"

"To let you be a Marauder again--"

"Yes!" I shook my fist in the air in triumph. That had just made my day.

"On one condition." James replied, smirking at my sudden face change.

"What is it?" I groaned.

"You help me get a date with the lovely Ms. Evans." James smirked at me.

"You know that she'll never say yes Mr. Potter?" I smiled sweetly at him. He sighed.

"Then I guess your Marauding days are over." I rolled my eyes at his acting.

"Ok, fine. Count me in."


"So Evans, I've been noticing Potter's new interest in you." Evans turned to look at me from the table she was sitting at in the library. I was leaning against a bookcase and smirking at her.

"Yeah, so?" She replied, picking up her quill to begin working again.

"Maybe..." I trailed off, staring out the window where the Gryffindor Quidditch team was practicing. They had a game against Hufflepuff in an hour.

"Maybe what?" I snapped my eyes back to Evans and smirked a little more.

"Maybe you'd like to come with me to the Quidditch match?" The plan was working ever so greatly.

"I don't think so Reese. I don't do Quidditch games." She bent over the book she was taking notes from and I smiled.

"I know how much you hate Potter, so..." I trailed off waiting for her curiousity to get the best of her.


"Well, if you go, he might get so stressed out that he doesn't play well. Then you would have a grand ol' laugh at him for messing up!" A look of concentration came over Evans face as she thought over my proposition.

"What are you standing around for? We've got a Quidditch match to get to!"

Chapter 9: God, She Was Right
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Evans and I found seats in the Quidditch stand in the middle part. The teams were warming up and when James saw Evans and I he came right over.

"Couldn't resist the temptation of coming, could you?" He asked Evans, smirking.

"What temptation?" She replied dully.

"Why me of course."

"Actually you've gotten yourself mistaken. I would never come here just to see you"

James smirked at her and winked at me before flying off.


Gryffindor beat Hufflepuff 170-40 and as it was supposed to go, James didn't mess up and Evans was amazed at his talents, though she wouldn't admit it.

"Did you see that dive he made when he saw the snitch, it was amazing!" Evans' eyes glossed over as she replayed the memory over for the fourteenth time.

"Yes, that's what I've heard." I replied sarcastically. Evans cheeks tinted pink at my words.

"It's not what you think. He's a good Quidditch player, nothing else to me."

"Whatever you say Evans."


Evans left me for the library saying that she had tons of homework to finish. I decided I would go take a rest in the room of requirement and think about some things.

I was walking to the Room of Requirement when a voice stopped me.

"Where are you off to?"

"What do you want Black?" I snapped. I was still mad at him. He rested his hands on my shoulders and spun me around. I looked up into his brown eyes and shivered as I saw the longing etched in them.

"I really need to talk to you Reese."

"The last time we talked it ended up in us yelling at each other."

"It won't, I promise." Sirius grabbed my hand and pulled me to the room of requirement. He walked three times by the wall before a door appeared. We stepped inside and sat down on the couch in front of the fire.

"What?" I was still frustrated with him for all the things he had said to me. I really wanted to be his.

"I talked to James."

"Yeah, so?" I had no clue what James had to do with this.

"He told me that if someone new was to ask you out, that he was okay with it because he was going after Evans now."

"I still don't understand. Are you trying to set me up with someone?"

"No, that's not what I'm saying!"

"It sounds like it, are you saying this so that'll I'll move on and forget about you?"

"Reese, you've got it all wrong. Please don't blow this whole thing out of proportion!"

"Oh so now I'm blowing things out of proportion! What else am I doing wrong, huh?"

"God Reese, why do you have to be so difficult?!"

"That's another thing to add to the list of dumb things Claire Reese does. Go ahead, name all the stupid things I do!"

"Fine I will! You're stubborn, difficult, you always blow things out of proportion, and you always have to get your way!"

"I knew I shouldn't have let you drag me here."

"Who said I was keeping you here! Leave if you want to!"

"Fine!" I stormed out the door leaving Sirius there heaving with anger.

"God, she was right."


"Reese, what happened?" Evans sat down on the edge of my bed, where I was sobbing uncontrollably into my pillow. "Is it Black again?"

I nodded and she stood up.

"I'm going to go have a word with him." When my brain had finally registered what she said, it was too late.


"Black, I want a word with you."

"What?" Sirius snapped at Evans. He also was having a terrible day.

"What did you do to Reese. She's up there crying, her second time this week!"

"It's not my fault she's so stubborn!"

"So are you!"

"I'm not stubborn" Evans smirked at Sirius. "Shut up Evans."

"You have got to stop hurting Reese."

"I didn't hurt her. She starts it!"

"Evans, stop." They both turned around to see me standing there.

"Reese, I didn't know you were there." Evans turned to glare at the boy behind her, who in return glared at her.

"Stop!" I yelled at the two foolish sixth years. "Stop with the fighting and the glares! Evans I don't need your help. Black, just please leave me alone from now on! Just both of you, leave me alone!" I stormed back up the girls dorm stairs leaving them alone together once again.

"See what you've done now!"


I was mad at everyone. No one would leave me alone to think in peace. Evans kept following me around like I was a lost puppy. James kept begging me to help him get Evans to go out with him. Peter kept asking me to help him with his Arthimancy homework. Remus kept trying to get me to tell him what was wrong. The only person who left me alone was Black.

"Prongs, I don't know what to do. She won't talk to me. And everytime we do talk, we end up fighting."

"I told you mate. You just ruined it for yourself."

Chapter 10: Remind Me to Thank That Little Birdie
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I decided to take a breather from everyone inside the castle by sitting out by the lake for awhile. I watched the Giant Squid float lazily in the otherwise still water. A slight breeze rippled by brushing against my tear stained cheeks. I blinked a few times feeling the stiffness of my wet eyelashes. I inhaled, feeling myself shake. I ran a hand through my brown hair and frowned. So plain, so ordinary. I needed a change. Maybe some highlights. Something that would brighten my life right now.

I let my hair go and the wind blew it back, whipping it around my shoulders back into my face.

"I know, stop teasing me!" I yelled at the wind.

"Talking to yourself isn't a good sign Reese." Heat rose to my cheeks.

"What do you want now Black? Come to torment me some more?" I asked, not bothering to turn around.

"No, just came out for some fresh air." He stood a few feet away and didn't make any move to sit down.

"You sure about that, didn't want to just check up on me." I snapped, annoyed with the boy standing near me.

"Could be something like that." I could feel his smile and I couldn't help but let out a small chuckle. "Was that a laugh Reese?" Sirius rose an eyebrow at me but I brushed it off.

"No, I just had something in my throat." He smirked and I scowled at him. "You know that I'm alive and kicking so you can be on your way now."

"That hurt, really it did." Sirius put his hands to his heart in mock hurt.

"Haha, very funny." I rolled my eyes.

"Why won't you let me in?" I shifted my gaze to the handsome boy leaning against the tree.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"After all the things that have happened, you've shut me out. We used to talk about a lot of things. Now all you are with me is sarcastic." A sad look appeared on Sirius' face and a pang of guilt poked at my stomach.

"Well yeah, a lot of things have happened. It's not entirely my fault Black. You shut me out too. You wanted nothing to do with me after what happened with James and I. Just another peach on my tree."

"There you go again." I felt a new rise of heat flush my cheeks.

"Sorry." I diverted my gaze back to the lake.

"It doesn't have to be this way." I sighed.

"It doesn't matter. You'd get bored of me and then throw me away into the discarded pile with all the other girls you got bored with." He shook his head.

"No, you've got it all wrong. You want to know the real reason I dumped all those other girls."

"Please, enlighten me."

"All those girls were just that, girls. I never liked them, never did anything with them, never cared about them. Some of them were smart, some just pretty, some stupid, some just bimbos. None of them were smart, pretty, nice, fun, or caring. They all had one of those characteristics but one never had all. When I would figure that out, I would ditch the girl and go on to someone else. Then, believe it or not, I found a girl with all of those."

"Yeah, who's that?"


"Me? You sure about that. After what I've done, I don't see myself as nice or caring." I stared sadly at the lake waiting to her the boy's response.

"If I'm mistaken you do fit those even after what you did."

"How's that." I shifted on the ground, pulling my knees up to my chin.

"You broke up with James after you realised that you would only be hurting him and that was something you didn't want to do. That was--"

"Because I cared about him." I finished his sentence and felt my stomach drop. I hadn't been thinking of that.

"Do I need to continue?"

"No. No need to." Sirius came over and sat next to me.

"Would this ever work?" I asked resting my head on Sirius' shoulder.


"You and me?" His hand found mine and our fingers intertwined.

"I don't know, one thing I do know is that a little birdie told me not to let you get away." I smiled at the boy sitting next to me.

"Remind me to thank that little birdie."

Chapter 11: There's No Music
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I indeed did thank that little birdie the next day.

"Prongs!" James turned around and broke out into a smile when he saw me.

Yes, m'lady?" He bowed making me giggle.

"Enough. I wanted to thank you." I whispered, though I didn't know why I was.

"No need. Padfoot told me everything" He smirked.

"Hey! We didn't do anything!" I protested crossing my arms over my chest.

"Sure Reese. That's what they all say."


I pushed open the doors to the Great Hall and sat down at the Gryffindor table for breakfast.

"Hey Reese." Sirius slipped his arm around my waist as I sat down next to him.

"Black." I smiled nudging him playfully in the side. He smiled back, brown eyes sparkling.

"Reese?" Evans looked shocked at how much Sirius and I were getting along.

"Evans?" I crossed my arms over my chest, smirking at her.

"Nevermind." She mumbled turning back to her plate.


Evans was a tad bit freaked at Sirius and I but after a few days she started to get warmer to the idea. That and the fact that Prongs chasing her everywhere was annoying the magic out of her.

"Please Evans! Just one date!" James whined from the seat next to her on the couch.

"For the tenth hundredth time, no!" Evans crossed her arms and stared blankly ahead of her. Sirius and I giggled at the sullen expression on James face. Then an idea hit me.

"How about a double date?" James and Evans looked over to Sirius and I sitting against the wall. I winked at Sirius and hoped he would catch on.

"That sounds like a fantastic idea Reese." Sirius winked back and looked at James and Evans.

"W-what?" Evans stuttered.

"You go with James and I go with Sirius, I really don't think its gonna work the other way around." I snickered with a smirk plastered on my face.

"That sounds good to me." James piped up with a huge smile on.

"Evans?" I asked, turning my blue eyes onto her.

"O-ok." She replied.

"We'll all meet at the Astronomy tower at 7 o'clock tomorrow." I said and everyone nodded their heads. Tomorrow was going to be an interesting evening.


"I can't believe you guys made me agree to this." Evans and I were getting ready for our double date.

"You didn't have to say okay." I reminded her for the thousandth time.

"Is it too late to get out of it?" She asked, giving me her puppy dog eyes.

"Yup." I brushed the mascara brush over my eyelashes and stood back to admire myself. "Let's go."


We reached the Astronomy Tower at five minutes past 7. We knocked slightly on the door separating us from the inside.

"Come in!" Sirius called from the inside. I pushed open the wood door to reveal Sirius and James and a beautiful decorated room standing all around them.

"Wow, this looks wonderful!." I threw my arms around Sirius' neck and smiled up at him.

"All for you." He bent down and brushed his lips slightly against mine.

"Come on guys, not here please?" James said as Sirius smirked at me while he pulled away.

"Let's eat!"


The dinner was delicious. The house elves did a really good job even though the boys said they did it themselves. Yeah, when pigs grow wings and fly away to Spain.

"So Lily. Did you enjoy the dinner?" James looked nervously from Sirius to me to Evans.

"Yes, it was very nice." She smiled cautiously at him as if any minute he was going to do something drastic.

"May I have this dance?" I turned my head at Sirius' voice to find him holding out a hand to me.

"There's no music." Sirius pulled out his wand and waved it in a circular motion. Slow music started to play.

"Now there is." I smiled at him before taking his hand. I looked over to James and motioned with my eyes for him to ask Evans to dance.

"Er, Lily, would you like to dance?" James asked, standing up and holding out his hand like Sirius. Evans nodded her head and took James' hand. James pulled Evans in close and I took notice of the happy look on Evans face. Someone had deffiantly changed their mind.


"So are you and James like a couple now?" I asked Evans a week later. Her and James had been spending a lot of time together.

"I suppose. What about you." She asked, not fully answering my question. I looked up at her annoyed.

"I suppose? What kind of answer is that and for your information Sirius hasn't asked me yet." I stuck my nose in the air as I turned my head to look down the table at the boys.

"Oh, I'm sure he'll ask you soon. James never said we're a couple but I'm deffiantly crazy about him." She looked down at James as he brightly waved at her.

"Wow, and this is coming from the girl who wouldn't give him the time of day just a week ago." I rolled my eyes and watched as Sirius wiggled his eyebrows at me. I stuck my tongue out in response. I pulled my sweater closer around me because it was a bit chilly in the Great Hall. It was the beginning of December and Christmas was only a couple weeks away.

"What are you getting him for Christmas?" Evans asked, pulling me out of my dream land.

"Huh? Oh, I don't know. A Thunderbolt maybe?" The whole broom thing didn't faze me at all, I had enough money. Did I forget to mention that I was kind of wealthy? Oh, oops. Evans, well, she wasn't so casual about it.

"A Thunderbolt?! That is like the fastest broom known to Witch kind. It's way too expensive, how could you afford it?"

"Well, you see--" I started to explain, but Evans dropping her jaw stopped me in mid-explanation.

"Oh my carbs. You're one of the rich girls aren't you??" I shrugged and went back to picking at my food.

"So? Does it matter."

"I thought you only hated me because of them" She pointed down the table to the Marauders. "Now I know that you are just orginally that way." I scrunched up my face in confusion.

"Orginally what way?"

"Snotty." Evans didn't even seemed fazed by the situation. This is why I didn't like her at the beginning of school.

"Excuse me?" I hissed. Evans looked up at me surprised.


"Did you just call me snotty?!" I pursed my lips as the response came tumbling out of her mouth through her lips.

"Well, yeah. All rich girls are like that. Its not like they can help it, its in their nature." She shrugged her shoulders. At this point I was standing and everyone in the Great Hall was looking at us, even the Marauders. Sirius was staring intently at me, whilst James was staring at Evans.

"Well excuse me Evans. I'm sorry that my parents work hard at their job to make the money they do and I'm sorry that I am a spoiled little brat who gets everything she wants, but I was never the snotty rich kid! I was always the kind, generous rich kid! I was always mean to you because you were an easy target! Someone who was always picked on so I just did it to tweak your feathers a tiny bit more. That's how I am. Never am I snotty! So why don't you just shut your stupid little mouth before I decide to shut it for you!" I stalked out of the Great Hall, with Evans staring open mouthed behind me.

"Er, I guess I should follow her?" Sirius asked and without getting a response jetted out of the Great Hall to find me, hoping that I wouldn't bite his head off either. Evans better watch out, Claire Reese is going to show her who's in charge.

Chapter 12: I Haven't Noticed
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"Reese, slow down!" I stopped abruptly in the middle of the hallway.

"Oof." I felt Sirius run right into me because he probably wasn't expecting me to stop in the middle of the hallway.

"What?" I asked, still irritated at Evans.

"Why did you stop like that?" He asked rubbing a hand over his forehead.

"S'rry. You all right?" I asked, sliding my hand over his forehead. I leaned over and kissed him right in the middle of his forehead.

"Much better. Now what was I going to tell you." I shrugged as his face scrunched up in concentration. "Oh yeah!"


"You shouldn't worry about Evans. You know her. And trust me, you're not snotty. If anything Evans' the snotty one." I smiled and leaned over and pecked Sirius on the lips.


"What if I said you are the nicest girl in Hogwarts." I wrapped my arms around his neck and pecked his lips again.

"What if I said that I was tired of compliments and wanted you to shut up and kiss me already." Sirius' face broke out into a wide grin.

"I guess I co--" I pressed my lips against his to stop him from saying anymore. Sirius returned the kiss almost instantly. He was probably the best kisser ever. He slid his tongue along my bottom lip and I opened willingly. Our tongues danced around like a couple of dancers. Ok, enough with the literary devices. I played with the back of Sirius' hair, tickling his neck. He looped his fingers through my belt loops. Since it was Saturday, we were wearing normal clothes.

"Uh, get a room!" I pulled away from Sirius and saw him look over my shoulder.

"Sounds like old Snivellus hasn't found a way to wash his greasy hair so he's taking it out on others." Snape glared at Sirius.

"She could do so much better than you Black." I felt my face lock in disgust.

"Like I'd want anyone else." I said, feeling Sirius slither an arm around my waist.

"Can't wait to watch your house lose today at the Quidditch game." Sirius smirked as I remembered that Gryffindor played Slytherin today.

"We'll see." Snape glared before brushing past us.

"You better go get ready." I said kissing him once again. Not as long though.

"You watching? I would die if my girl wasn't there to see me." He raised his eyebrows.

"Are you kidding, I wouldn't miss my favorite chaser in action." I raised my own eyebrows back at him. My mind was racing. He had just called me his girl! Still it wasn't official...yet.

"You haven't seen all the action this chaser can do." I swatted his arm at his comment.

"Maybe someday. Remember we're only sixteen." He rolled his eyes.

"Okay Reese, whatever." I swatted him a second time.

"Go, before I hex you out." Sirius held up his hands in mock defense.

"I'm going, I'm going." He kissed my nose and headed down the staircase to find James.


I still wasn't talking to Evans so I found a seat in the Quidditch stands with Remus. Peter was nowhere to be found.

"Excited?" I asked Remus who was trying to warm up his hands.

"Yup. You know Sirius really adores you." I smiled and searched for him. I found him laughing with James and when he saw me looking he smiled and ran a hand through his brown hair. I loved when he did that, it gave me chills.

"I haven't noticed." I replied still smiling as the game started.


"Whooooooooo!" Sirius let out a long whoop as he planted his fist in the air.

"Jeez Padfoot, calm down." Remus said but smiling the whole time.

"Come on Moony, we just beat Slytherin!" Sirius, in his high of happiness, threw down his broom and grabbed me roughfully by the waist and his lips came crashing down on mine. The Gryffindors around us let out wolf whistles and cries of delight.

Sirius let go of me and I stumbled backwards into James. He pulled me up straight before we both had toppled to the ground.

"Wait a second, I should be doing that too! Where's Lily?" James ran off in his search for Evans and we all shook our heads.


"In the Gryffindor common room?"

"What are we waiting for!" We all took off for Gryffindor Tower, happiness floating all around us.


Everyone was dancing in the middle of the common room to a fast song. Sirius was holding me by the waist as we danced. Every few minutes I kept looking at James and Evans who were dancing a few feet away from us.

"What's going on between you two?" Sirius asked, moving my chin so I could look at him.

"I just remembered why I wasn't friends with her in the first place." I said shrugging as if it was no big deal.

"Don't you shrug your shoulders at me Reese. You and Evans had fun together when you weren't fighting and I know you miss her. Admit it." Sirius looked down at me, eyes blazing. I hated when he was right.

"No." I stated, stubbornly.

"Why do you have to be so stubborn." He sighed, his face releasing all anger. He absentmindedly ran a hand through his hair. I pressed my lips against his fiercely. I don't know why, but whenever he did that, it just made me crazy. It was cute, no hot.

"What was that for?" He asked, after we both pulled away. I looked down at the ground, panting for air.

"I don't know, when you do that thing--"

"What thing." He said, running a hand through his hair again.

"That thing!" I exclaimed pointing to his hand. He looked confused for a minute but then realization struck him. A smirk slithered up on his lips.

"You mean this." And once again the hand went through his hair.

"Yes, now stop, before I jump on you." His smirk grew wider.

"I don't mind." I rolled my eyes.

"But I think every other Gryffindor in this common room would." He pouted his lips and I resisted the urge.

"Don't worry. It'll happen soon."


"Evans?" I asked, later that night when we were all getting ready for bed. She turned at my voice and gave me a slight glare. I narrowed my eyes at her and snapped, "If you're just going to glare at me then I guess you don't want to hear what I have to say?!"

"What?!" She snapped back.

"I just wanted to say that I- I miss you. Okay, I said it. Are you happy Black!?" Evans gave me a strange look and I then realized that I was shouting to no one. "S'rry."

"I'm sorry too!" She broke out into a smile and threw her arms around my neck.

"Yeah, yeah. I'm exhausted, let's go to bed." I pulled her arms away from my neck and pushed her towards her bed.

"Goodnight Reese."

"Goodnight Lily." My lips curved into a smile knowing that for the first time I had a real girl as a friend. By just saying her name, mind you I've never called her by it before, we've bonded and have become real friends. Like I had said before. This was going to be an interesting friendship.

Chapter 13: He's Quite The Character
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"What do we have first?" Sirius asked peering over the top of Remus' book to look at him.

"Defence Against the Dark Arts." I replied, not even looking up from my plate.

"Great, I stink at that subject." Sirius mumbled, trhrowing his face into his hands.

"No you don't, I do." I replied.

"Yeah right Reese. You and James are the only ones in the class who can do a Patronus!" Sirius exclaimed exaspperated. James just smiled broadly.

"Come on Sirius. We don't want to be late. Cambell'll have our necks." I stood up and looked down at Sirius who'se head was still laying on the table.

"Go without me." He muttered. I leaned down and whispered something in his ear. He sprang up immediatly.

"Why are you lot just standing around for!? We've got a class to get to!" With that Sirius quickly walked out of the Great Hall.

"What did you say to him?" James asked, turning to face me.

"Told him that if he didn't stop acting like a stupid prat that he'd get a good long snogging session later." I replied with a smirk on my face.

"Works everytime." James said, rolling his eyes.


"Now, please spread yourselves around the room and begin." Professor Campbell pushed her wire rimmed glasses back onto the tip of her nose and began moving around the room to watch everyone's progress.

"I'm never going to get this!" Sirius exclaimed, flinging his wand about.

"No, but if you don't stop flinging your wand about you are going to take someone's eye out!" Evans replied.

"Hmph." Sirius flung his wand down on the wood floor and crossed his arms over his chest.

"Your chance just flew out the window, bud" I smirked at him.

"What? No!" Professor Campbell looked over at the source of noise and like a beady hawk swooped down on us.

"No what, Mr. Black?" Her beady black eyes swiveled over the six of us.

"Nothing Professor."

"Well since you have decided its more important to talk than to practice Mr. Black, I assume you've gotten it down?" Sirius' eyes jumped to her's in surprise.

"What?" A crooked smile spread up onto her lips.

"Let's see your Patronus, Mr. Black." She flicked her wand and a chair appeared behind her. She slid comfortably into it and smiled wickedly up at Sirius.

"All right." Sirius positioned his wand in front of him and closed his eyes for a brief moment.

"Expecto Patronum!!" A wisp of silver smoke floated lazily out of Sirius' wand. Professor Campbell's wicked smile grew.

"Ms. Reese, may we see yours?" I nodded, taking in a deep breath.

"Expecto Patronum!" A bright light flew out from the tip of my wand and prancing around the room was a black panther. Professor Campbell clapped her hands in delight and stood up.

"Mr. Black, I think you could learn something from Ms. Reese here." She turned around and began prowling the classroom once again.

I smiled sheepishly at Sirius while he just rolled his eyes.


At dinner that night Sirius sat inbetween Remus and James leaving me to sit inbetween James and Lily. I looked over at him to see him scowling into his soup bowl.

"Black, are you still fretting over the whole Patronus thing?" I asked, resting an elbow on the table. Sirius looked up and glared at me. "It's not my fault she asked me to demonstrate. If you would just concentrate a bit more."

"You always have to be the show off, don't you though?" He asked, through gritted teeth.

I rolled my eyes, "No that's Evans. Ow, I'm just kidding!" I rubbed the spot where Evans had elbowed me and turned my attention back to Sirius. "Are you mad at me?"

"Yes." He huffed, blowing on his hot soup. I cocked my head to the side and gave him a puppy dog look.

"Come on Padfoot. Can you really say that to this face." James said, waving his hands in front of my face. Sirius looked up and tried not to smile. Finally he gave up.

"Ok, ok, Prongs. You've got a point." I smiled, and batted my eyelashes at him for fun. He just rolled his eyes in response.

"So Reese, Hogsmeade this weekend." Evans smirked at me and I caught on to what she was doing.

"Oh yes, and that means Christmas shopping." James and Sirius' heads perked up at the mention of gifts.

"What are you planning on buying, you know, him?" I decided to have some fun with this.

"Probably a book." I watched Sirius mouth 'a book?' to James as if revolted by the idea. "He loves to read. You know, being a Ravenclaw and everything." I tried to force back a smile as did Evans as Sirius' eyes snapped to my own.

"What?!" He asked, harshly I might add. Evans and I couldn't take it. We burst out laughing.

"What are you two laughing at?" James asked, looking at us as if we were crazy.

"Did you really think that I was dating someone else?" I asked Sirius. Sirius' cheeks turned a tinge of pink.

"Umm... No, what gave you that idea?" He asked, the rest of his face turning pink.

"What?!" I mimicked him, my eyes going all wide.

"Haha, you've had your fun Reese. So what're you really getting me?" He asked, smirking.

"A T-- Hey!" He smiled, innocently at me.

"You'll just have to wait and see."


Hogsmeade came faster than any of us could say- well Hogsmeade.

"We'll see you later boys." Evans and I left the boys to go shopping. I pulled Evans by the elbow into a little Broom shop down the street.

"Hello Misses. What can I get for you?" A short, balding man came scurrying out from the back room to meet us.

"Well, I was wondering if you carried Thunderbolts?" The man's eyes lit up and he scurried out of sight to return only moments later holding a long silvery blue broom.

"One Thunderbolt." The man squeaked and held the broom out to me. I took it and examined its exterior. On the handle it said 'Thunderbolt' in gold writing.

"Do you do inscriptions?" I asked looking up from the magnificent broom. I already had one but rarely used it. It just sat up by the side of my bed most of the time.

"Surely! What would you like." He grabbed the broom out of my hands and placed it on the counter. He whipped out his wand and held it steady over the broom near the handle. I thought for a moment, looked at Evans and then opened my mouth to speak.

"How about, mmm... Sirius Black, Gryffindor Chaser, Happy Christmas." Evans smiled at me as the man began moving his wand furiously over the broom.

"Finished!" He handed the broom make to me and I looked at the gold inscription. It was perfect. I handed over the money for the broom and we exited the shop.

"What are you getting James?" I asked once we were back outside in the cold. I wrapped my jacket tighter around myself, pulling my scarlet and gold scarf tighter around my neck.

"I was thinking some Quidditch socks." I snorted and Evans gave me a strange look.

"Are you serious? Get him, er, let's see." I racked my brain for something James would like. "How about a big thing of stuff from Mr. Zonko's Joke Shop?" Evans shrugged and we made our way to the famous Joke Shop.


"Ms. Reese! I haven't seen you in ages! Why haven't you come sooner?" Mr. Zonko came bustling over from behind the counter.

"Sorry Mr. Zonko. I'll be sure to buy extra today." He smiled at turned to look at Evans.

"Someone new! What can I do for you?" Evans looked at me nervously.

"Mr. Zonko this is Lily Evans. She's James' girlfriend." Mr. Zonko's eyes lit up at James' name.

"Ah, Mr. Potter and yourself? How lovely. What can I do?"

"Well, you see, I need to get him a Christmas present and I know he adores your Joke Shop. You must know what he orders when he comes in so if I could get an assortment of those and other things he may like, that would be great!" Mr. Zonko smiled and whisked off to get Evans' order ready for her.

Twenty minutes later we were paying Mr. Zonko after he had finished wrapping Evans' gift.

"See you in a month!" I called over my shoulder as Mr. Zonko waved after us.

"He's quite the character." Evans said smiling. We went to the Three Broomstick's after to meet the boys.

"How was your shopping?" Sirius asked trying to peer in one of the bags. I slapped his hand away.

"You'll find out on Monday." Sirius gave me puppy dog eyes.

"I can't wait that long!" He whined, I just rolled my eyes.


Sunday night was Christmas Eve and all of the Gryffindors had a little party in the common room. Dancing to music and eating. It was a lot of fun.

The next morning I was, sruprisingly, the first one up. I picked up my pillow and dropped it on Evans' head.

"Ugh, Reese!" Evans threw the pillow back at me but because she still had her eyes closed it hit another girl on the head.

"Lily!" Evans shrugged as she sat up in bed.

"Its time to wake the boys so we can give them our presents!" I exclaimed, pulling on a pair of sweatpants. I piled my hair into a artfully, messy bun and grabbed Evans by the elbow and began pulling her down the stairs.

"What took you so long?" James exclaimed once we reached the bottom of the stairs. I guess Christmas is the only time boys get up early. I sat on Sirius' lap and kissed him good morning. He smiled and cocked his head at me.

"Be patient." I said, smiling the whole time. We began tearing open our presents and while Sirius wasn't looking I flicked my wand towards the Boy's dorm.

"Thanks Lils!" James hugged Evans after opening her Zonko's gift.

"Here Reese." Sirius said lazily handing over his gift.

"Thanks for the enthusiam Black." He smirked and watched as I opened the square box. Inside was a gold bracelet with a Reeses peanut butter cup, a muggle food, hanging off it. Then there was also a dog print also hanging off it. I was speechless. It was really beautiful.

"Er, Reese? Can you say something so that I don't think that you hate it anymore?" I looked up at him with big eyes.

"I- I-" Instead of trying to find the right words, I flung my arms around his neck, burying my fingers in his hair, and kissed him for all he was worth.

"I guess you liked it then?" Sirius croaked out when we both pulled away for air.

"Yes, It's wonderful!" His usually arrogant ways were back in a flash.

"So, where's my gift Reese?" I scrunched up my face in concentration.

"So that's what I forgot!" I threw my hand over my face and gave out a frustrated puff of air. Sirius looked stricken.

"Are you serious!" He exclaimed standing up. This was working perfectly.

"I got up early for nothing! Fine then, I'm going back to bed!"

"Please Sirius, don't be like that! I'll make it up to you!" I exclaimed, hoping everyone else was buying this especially Sirius.

"Come on Padfoot. Don't be that way." Sirius dismissed us with a wave of his hand and disappeared up the Boy's dorm stairs.

"Sorry Claire." James said giving me a sad look. I tried to give one back in return, hoping my face didn't look strained from how hard I was trying not to smile.

"He'll snap out of it." I replied. Five minutes later...

"Reese!!" I smirked.

"Told you."

Chapter 14: Only For You
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After Sirius’ yell, from the Boy’s dorm, to me, James scampered up the stairs to find out what he was yelling about.

Remus, Peter, Evans, and I quickly followed in James’ footsteps and by the time we threw open the sixth year dorm door both boys were in awe.

A sly grin, like the one Sirius and James usually wore after pulling a prank, snuck quietly onto my face. Sirius looked up from his bed, where his present was laying, and looked straight into my blue eyes. His eyes were saying ‘Is this for real?’

After the boys were rounded speechless, none other than Evans broke the silence. “Looks like you’re getting something tonight Reese.” I swatted at her but she ducked as a reflex.

“You’ll get it for that Evans!” I yelled, chasing her around the dorm. Chuckles could be heard from around us as the Marauders watched entertained. After being fully amused, Sirius caught me around the middle. I, who never gives up, began thrashing around as Sirius’ grip tightened on my waist.

“That’s enough Reese.” I twisted my head around to look at his handsome face. I narrowed my blue eyes at him and glared for all that I was worth, which was pretty hard to do since he was just too darn cute. I tried really hard to keep my glare steady on my face. “What we do and don’t do is not up to her. And personally it isn’t any of her business.” I dropped my glare instantly at his words because they were really sweet.

“So you like your gift?” I asked, the sly grin, my face once held, returning full force.

“You kidding me? I love it!” Sirius picked me up and twirled me around. When he placed me back down again on the ground he bent down and kissed me. My arms, automatically, encircled his neck. I began to play with the back of his hair, he loves that. Sirius emitted a small groan into my mouth and I smiled against his lips.

“So is that the preview for what is going to happen tonight?”

This time Sirius didn’t try to stop me.


An hour later, after countless demands of trying it out right now, we were all huddled around on the Quidditch Pitch, shivering.

We all pulled our cloaks tighter around us, wondering why we had to be out here in ten degree below weather. ’Good going Reese! What were you thinking, giving him a broom?’

“Why are we out here. Couldn’t you have done this by yourself Padfoot?” James asked, edging closer to Evans.

“Because if you didn’t. You wouldn’t get your turn to try out my new broom.” James shut his mouth so quickly I was surprised he didn’t bite his tongue off in the process.

After the boys each had their fun little joy rides on Sirius’ broom, we all headed back inside the Castle.

“So Reese.” Evans said, breaking the nightly silence while twisting a piece of her auburn hair around her finger innocently.

“Would you like a face full of snow Evans?” I asked, clearly getting annoyed by her.

“You wouldn’t!” She stopped and placed her hands on her hips.

“I-,” I bent down and swept my hand underneath the blanket of white snow. I made a snowball with the snow that now resided in my hands. Then I did what Evans was so sure I wouldn’t do. I stuffed the cold, hard snowball into Evans pink- tinted face, while finishing my sentence. “Would.”


I sighed, leaning my body against Sirius’ as we sat on the common room couch. Evans and James were sitting on the floor, leaning back against the couch. Remus was curled up comfortably in one of the armchairs while a book was lying open freely in his lap. Peter was no where in sight.

“Uh, Lily?” Evans picked up her head from James’ shoulder and looked curiously at James.

“Yes?” James’ eyes darted around the common room nervously and before they reached Evans’ again they landed for a minute or two on the Boy’s Dorm stairs. I looked up into Sirius’ face to see if he realized what was going on but Sirius was as clueless as ever.

“Sirius.” I hissed, poking him in the side. He made an agitated face at the fire before turning his sweet brown eyes on me.

“What?” I could hear the slight irritation in his voice at my interruption of the warm silence but I pushed it away.

“James is--” I didn’t know how to say it to him. How do you tell your boyfriend that his best friend and your ex-boyfriend is about to ask none other than Evans to theirdorm. I decided to use Evans sense of words. “Uh, it looks like Evans is getting something tonight.” Sirius’ eyes flickered in amusement and followed James’ gaze to the boy’s dorm stairs.

“Are you tired?” I looked back down at the couple on the ground to see James fiddling with the sleeve of his sweatshirt, while looking at the carpet.

“Yes!” Evans grabbed James’ hand and fiercely pulled him to his feet. She began to pull him towards the Boy’s dorm stairs but James stopped mid-flight.

“Uh, Lily. Its probably more likely that I should be the one pulling you up the stairs.” Evans blushed before letting James pull her, behind him this time, up the boy’s dorm stairs.

“At least I’m not that desperate.” I said, laughing as James and Evans’ disappeared out of sight.

“How desperate are you?” I shuddered at Sirius’ breath on my ear. I turned my head to find him smirking lazily at me.

“Not that desperate, Black!” I pushed him as he feigned mock hurt. “And anyways, I don’t want Evans to get the idea that the only reason we would do ‘it’ tonight would be because I got you that Thunderbolt.” I looked back into the fire, watching as the flames began to wind down into small embers. The orange glow that was cast over the empty common room gave me an eerie feeling and I shivered.

I felt Sirius let out a puff of frustration. “I thought you didn’t care what people think of you?” Sirius said standing up suddenly.

“I- I don’t.” I replied, his sudden frustration catching me off guard.

“So who cares what Evans thinks. I don’t want to do ‘it’ with you because you got me a bloody broom for Christmas.” Sirius was standing over me now, blocking the fire from my view, and making the room darker in the process.

“Bloody broom? I thought you loved it?” I was getting irritated with his sudden change of mood.

“Bloody hell Reese! I did love it, but that’s not what I’m talking about! It’s just a broom for bloody sake. I don’t want to do ‘it’ with you because of a bloody broom, that I do love! I want to do ‘it’ with you because I love you!” Sirius stared down at me and I had a feeling that he hadn’t even realized yet what he had said. I was still trying to figure out if what he had said had really happened or if I was imagining it.

“W-what?” I stammered. I was feeling really caught off guard, which is not usual for me. I am usually very calm and collected, okay, maybe not all the time. Sirius rubbed a tired hand over his strained face.

“Bloody hell Reese. Look what you have me doing to myself. I’ve been crazy about you since our first year here! I just thought that you were never interested in me and then this year happened and wow. I mean, I really do. I love you Claire Reese.” Sirius looked away, acting as if I was about to hit him for saying that, instead I smiled.

“God Black, what took you so long!” I jumped up, throwing my arms around his neck, and kissed him, hard.

I pulled away about five minutes later when I felt something poking me in the thigh. I smirked at Sirius who was smiling down at me, embarrassed.

“Mr. Black!?” I gasped; “someone’s being a little naughty aren’t they?” Sirius placed a small kiss on my lips.

“Only for you Ms. Reese. Only for you.” He smirked, running one hand down my back towards my ahem and the other through my hair.

“Well, should we do something about it then?” I asked, running my fingers down Sirius’ chest and slipping my thumb between the waistline of his jeans.

“Oh yes, I think we should.” Sirius said, taking my hand that was residing by the top of his jeans and pulling me up the boy’s stairs for an unforgettable night.


Author’s Note: Sorry for the wait! This would have been out sooner but I was pretty busy the minute I got home from New Jersey. First cheerleading tryouts started on Tuesday and have been every night this week and this Monday so I’ve been pretty tired and sore. Also the huge chore of unpacking and getting back into my usual schedule. Thirdly I was having a bit of a writer’s block. The next part for Love Gives An F will be out soon. Thanks for all your reviews and support!

Chapter 15: Tears of Desperation; Letters of Horror
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The next morning was a rough one. It felt like five minutes that I had fallen asleep when I was being shooken awake.

"Good morning sleepy head!" I looked up to find a surprisingly very cheery Sirius looming over me.

"Why are you in such a good mood?" I groaned pushing the pillow into my face. Sirius grabbed the pillow and threw it over his shoulder. I groaned even more.

"I don't know, probably because of last night." I smiled inwardly, but didn't let it show on the outside because I was trying to be mad at him.

"Yeah, yeah." I mumbled flipping over onto my other side. Sirius let out a chuckle.

"Come on, it's time for breakfast, and then I have a surprise for you." I sat up really quickly at that.

"What are you waiting for? Let's go!"


Breakfast was an awfully weird event with the boys being terribly cheery while Evans and I just stared at each other. James and Sirius seemed to be in a long hearty discussion about something when loud flapping could be heard. I looked up to see tons of Owls flying overhead. I saw my owl Jade flying down toward me and I thought of what my parents could be sending me.

A very business-like letter was dropped onto my plate. I gave Jade a piece of my toast and after it was completely engulfed she flew away. A new sound brought me to a complete stop. It was the silence of Sirius.

I looked over to where Sirius and James were sitting and saw Sirius' face in utmost horror.

"Sirius..." Sirius looked up from the letter he held in his hands and the look in his eyes scared me. "Sirius?" I edged between him and James and peered down at the letter still perched in his hands. Sirius didn't pull away like I thought he would.

'Dear Mr. Black,'
I am sorry to imform you on the day after Christmas about an ufortunate event. I do not like to be the bearer of bad news but I have been ordered to by the Ministry. On the evening of the 25th of December there was an attack. There were many left dead. Many were of you-know-who's supporters and many of the Ministry. I am afraid to say that your brother was one of the many who were killed. Some are happy that these men died because they supported You-Know-who but I know that they still had families who must have cared for them. Sorry about your loss.

Mr. Ridgely
Head of the Department of Magical Attacks

"Oh Sirius..."


The rest of the day went by very slowly. I was so shooken up over the letter that Sirius recieved that I had forgetton all about my own. Sirius told us that he wanted to be alone and we all respected that. We haven't seen him since. I didn't remember my letter until James brought it up later that evening in the common room.

"I feel awful. Poor Sirius." I rubbed my hands over my tired eyes that were puffy and red.

"Don't worry Reese. He'll bounce back. He just needs his alone time until then." James patted my shoulder and I didn't feel any comfort what so ever. James and Remus were playing exploding snap on the floor while Peter watched. Evans was finishing her homework which I had finished days ago.

"Wait a second Reese. Didn't you get a letter at breakfast too?" I couldn't remember getting a letter at breakfast. Breakfast had been a blur of pain and misery. "Don't you remember, Jade dropped it off and then when you saw Sirius' face you stuck it in your pocket." I still couldn't remember that happening but when I stuck my hand in my pocket I felt a square envelope residing there and the memory rushed back. I pulled the envelope gingerly out of my pocket, my heart thumping. Just one letter could turn one life upside down. My head debated on whether I should open it or not. Is it better not to know?

"Are you going to open it?" Remus asked looking up from the game, ending in him losing and getting a face full of smoke and ash.

"I-I don't know." I was thinking back to the horror that was in Sirius' face after he read his letter. What if mine was the same. What if--

"No!" James, Remus, Peter, and Evans looked up frightened at my sudden outburst.


I looked down at the floor where the letter was now laying, I had dropped it in my fright. I knew what was in the letter. I had the worst feeling. Something bad had happened.

"It's not good." I cried, shrinking back into the couch, as far away as possible from the letter that was laying soundlessly on the floor.

"How do you know, you haven't even opened it?" James asked, bending over to pick the envelope up.

"No! Don't touch it!" I screamed at him. James jumped in surprise.

"Reese, what's wrong?"

"Don't touch it! It's not good, not good!" Tears of desperation were streaming down my pale face. "Oh god, oh god..." I started mumbling.

"Come on, just open it. It may be good." James wasn't convincing though. I knew it wasn't good. I don't know how I knew but I just knew. I also knew that I couldn't keep hoping that the letter would disappear in thin air. I had to open it and face my worst fears. Or maybe James would be right and my feeling would be wrong. Maybe it is good, yeah, I'll just keep telling myself that and it will be good. I took a deep breath and picked up the envelope off the floor.

I stuck my finger under the flap and pushed it to the end. I pinched the letter inside with my thumb and index finger and gently pulled it out, my hand shaking. I unfolded the letter and my worst fears were confirmed.

Sirius finally decided to come out of hiding and entered the common room when I had decided to scream with horror and faint.

Chapter 16: Good Answer Reese
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"Did you read the letter?"


"Why not?"

"It's her own personal business!"


"Ugh." I blinked open my eyes to find Sirius, James, Evans, Remus, and Peter all standing around me. I looked around to find out that I was in a bed in the Hospital Wing. "Why am I here?" I asked, rubbing a hand over my throbbing head.

"Reese! You're awake!" Sirius exclaimed. I clamped my hands over my ears, trying to block out his loudness because of the pounding in my head.

"Take this Reese." Nurse Slingbottom handed me a purple goop in a clear vial. I scrunched up my face as I took the vial from her. "It's not going to kill you, just take away that inscient pounding that I'm sure you have residing in your head right now and Mr. Black, it doesn't help that you're yelling at her either!" Sirius' cheeks flushed pink as he turned to look at me. I put the vial to my lips and gulped the disgusting goop down in one sip.

"G-gross!" I choked out once the vial was empty, although the pounding in my head was gone.

"Back to normal I'd say." James laughed, making me throw a pillow at him.

"Haha, very funny."

"Um, so, what happened?" I shot a quizzical look at James before it dawned on me. Tears started to roll down my cheeks as I began to sob. Sirius sat in the chair next to my bed and wrapped an arm around me.

"Shh, it's all right Reese."

"No, no it's not all right! It's horrible, horrible!"

"What did it say?" Evans asked, breaking into the conversation.

"Dead, all gone, dead! Killed them, he killed them!"

"Who, killed who?"

"Killed them, he killed them! How could he!" I yelled, causing everyone around me to jump at my outburst.

"Shh, Reese, kill who?"

"He killed them, my brother, my dad. He killed them." Those were the last words I said before I passed out again, in Sirius' arms.


"What are we going to do?" The marauders sat around the fire in the common room contemplating on what actions they should take.

"Well, all I can think up is that we have to be there for Claire and be watching over her at every moment."

"What if he comes for her?" Sirius looked up at his friends, his eyes red and his head pounding. "What if he tries to kill her?"

"He won't Sirius, we promise you, he won't."

"You can't promise me." Sirius' words came out in a strangled whisper as he fought back a new surge of tears.

"What do you mean I can't promise you?" James asked, looking taken aback.

"You can't promise me because you don't know! He could come after her and if we happen to not be there then he can kill her!" Sirius' brown eyes began to leak transparent tears that showed James how much he loved me.

"We'll be there Sirius, every single one of us. We'll never leave her side. Reese is my best friend too, and if he comes anywhere near to touching her I'll kill him. Don't forget that, I promise you."

"Keep her safe Prongs, please."


The next morning I woke up to blinding sunlight coming through the window next to my bed. I groaned and then some, remembering the events of the day before. After the realization hit me once again the wretched tears I so wanted to hold back escaped.

"Why?" I said aloud, wishing that all of this was a horrible nightmare that in any second I would wake up screaming, sweating saying; 'It's just a dream, just a dream.' But it wasn't just a dream, it was reality.

"Why you ask. I can tell you why." I jumped in surprise as the mysterious voice floated into the air from the other side of the room. My heart started pounding in fright at this strange but famaliar voice. I looked helplessly over to Nurse Slingbottom's office where no soul could be seen. She was no where in sight.

"W-Who's there?" I asked in a hoarse whisper, as if my voice hadn't been used in weeks, or maybe years.

"My, my, you don't recognize me. What a terrible misfortune." The voice, that was much a male, still hadn't showed himself which made me more nervous.

"N-No. I don't associate with chickens." I felt a slight stab of relief that I had been able to think of something smart.

"Me? A chicken? I think wrong." My brain was going a mile a minute, thinking up terrible scenarios that could take place at any minute.

"Well, if you're not a chicken then why don't you show yourself." I declared in the direction that the voice was coming from. After a few nerve-wracking minutes a male figure retreated out of the shadows.


"Well, good answer Reese."

Chapter 17: Ladies First
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Sirius woke up with sweat smeared across his forehead. He couldn't believe the dream he had just had. It had felt so real. He took a deep breath to calm himself and remind himself that it was just a dream. He layed back down closing his eyes as his breathing returned to normal. Even though he knew it was a dream he had this uneasy feeling in the bottom of his stomach.

He knew he'd never be able to sleep until he made sure that she was safe. He quietly slipped out of bed and pulled on a hoodie. He put his wand in his pocket and tip-toed out of the boy's dorm.

He peeked into the common room making sure the coast was clear. He quickly strode across the common room and as the portrait swung open he sped through it.

"Mr. Black, what do you think you're doing?!" The fat lady yelled out after Sirius.

"Just going for a walk, can't sleep."

"You--" He didn't hear anything that the Fat Lady was saying because he had turned a corner and her voice had faded out, being absorbed by the castle walls.

He reached the Hospital wing ten minutes later, breathing heavily. He stood before the wooden door, wondering if this whole thing was silly. Reese was probably nice and cozy, sound asleep in her bed and this would be just a big waste of time. But still something didn't feel right.

Sirius pushed the wooden door open quietly, hoping that it wouldn't creak. When the door was successfully pushed open, he looked inside. Everything seemed normal. The lights were dimmed and Madam SlingBottom's office light was off. Sirius walked along the rows of beds, looking at each of them. All the beds seemed in order. No one was here.

"Great, a big waste of time this was." He mumbled, his eyes scanning the room once more. "There's nothing wrong here or no one here for that matter."

Sirius began walking back towards the door when realization dawned on him.

"No one's here."

Reese was missing.


"James!" Sirius hissed through clenched teeth as he tried to awaken his best friend.

"Guh, stry-ktls." James mumbled, pushing his face into his pillow.

"Wake up!" Sirius whacked his friend on the head with another pillow and James looked up at Sirius.

"What do you want?!" He asked, annoyed at the interruption of his sound sleep.

"You promised me! You promised!" Sirius hissed. He saw that Remus, and Peter were awake and staring at them. James stared blankly at Sirius, wondering what he was talking about.

"Promised what?" He yawned, stretching his arms over his head. Sirius grabbed James' arms and threw them to his sides in anger.

"How could you? You promised! She's gone, he got her."


"What are we going to do?" Evans asked the four distraught boys as she paced back in forth in front of the fire in the common room. It had been four hours since Sirius had told James' about my disappearance. The Marauders and Evans were all settled uneasily in the common room trying to think of places he could have taken me and what they were going to do.

"I think we have to tell Professor Turtle." Remus said, rubbing a hand over his scarred features.

"He can't help us in this situation." Sirius replied, bitterly.

"He's all we've got."


"Does anyone know the password?" James asked, staring at the still gargoyle statue.

"Er, butter biscuits?" Sirius replied, staring at the statue, willing it to move.

"Lemon drops?" Evans asked.

"How about Cockroach clusters!"

"Gross, why would it be that Wormtail?"

"I don--" Peter was cut off because the gargoyle statue had sprung to life and was twisting up to reveal a winding staircase. The Marauders all stepped onto the winding staircase that brought them to Professor Turtle's office door.

"I'll knock." Evans said, looking at each of the boy's faces. Before Evans could place her hand on the door a voice rang out.

"Come in."

"How'd he know?" James asked, before pushing the wooden door open.

"What can I do for you?" Professor Turtle was seated behind his large wooden desk, with a bowl placed in the middle of it.

"We have some news for you Professor. Well, you see--"

"It's all right Mr. Black. I already know about Ms. Reese. The Ministry is out looking for her right now."

"Do you think she's okay?" Sirius asked, his heart rate quickening.

"We can only hope." Professor Turtle put his wand to his temple and in one swift motion a stringlike like cloud was hanging off the tip of his wand. He gently placed it in the bowl on his desk and swirled the contents with the tips of his wand.

"I have one question." James said, speaking up for the first time in minutes.

"Yes, Mr. Potter?"

"Why does he want her?"

"The Dark Lord works in mysterious ways. I can not tell you why he desires Ms. Reese."


"But I can show you." Professor Turtle motioned for the five of them to step closer to his desk. "This bowl that you see in the middle of my desk is a pensieve. When the thoughts inside my head become crowded and overwhelmed, I just place those thoughts inside this bowl and then I can look at them whenever I need to. That way my mind is free to puzzle over other things."

"How can you show us then?" Evans asked, staring at the swirling blue contents inside the pensieve.

"Just place your faces close to the contents and touch it with your noses. I am going to show you a memory of long ago when I was attending Hogwarts." Professor Turtle placed his face right on top of the blue contents before sticking his nose in. In a small flurry he was gone.

"Where'd he go?" Remus put his face down close to the bowl and looked inside. He didn't see anything other than a thick cloud of blue. "I don't see anythingggggggg!" Remus' nose was touching the blue cloud and with a swish he had too disappeared.

"I don't get it?" Evans said staring at the blue bowl. "Do we just follow them? What if it's not safe?"

"How can it not be safe if Professor Turtle has gone inside it. He would have told us." James replied.

"Well then, I guess we have to go too." Evans placed her face above the pensieve and stared down at the swirling cloud. "Here goes nothing." Before she vanished her pointed little nose briefly touched the swirling insides.

"Your turn Wormtail." Sirius turned to look at Peter who had a frightened look on his face.

"N-no, y-you can go f-first."

"Here, we'll give you a hand." James pushed Peter's face smack dab into the pensieve, and in a second he was gone.

"Well, mate, who shall go next?" Sirius asked his long-time friend.

"How 'bout you, ol' Padfoot buddy."

"Oh, I vote you Prongs, go right ahead."

"Nah, ladies first."

"Very funny, but seriously, you should go."

"All right." James began to inch towards the pensieve with Sirius following close behind. Sirius and James both looked down at the pensieve at the same time, staring at the thick cloud that lead to who knows where.

"Go ahead."

"Yep, here I go, or more like it here you go!" Instead James pushed Sirius' head down into the pensieve.

"Jamesssssss!" Sirius yelled before he disappeared into thin air.

"I told you, ladies first."

Chapter 18: Startling News
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"Where am I?" James blinked his eyes open after hearing Sirius' voice.


"James?!" James looked in the direction where Sirius' voice was coming fr and saw him standing with Remus, Peter, Evans, and Professor Turtle.

"Where are we?" James asked again, referring to the town that was around them. The town was old, maybe the 1850s.

"You'll see, please follow me." Professor Turtle began walking towards a run down house.

"Why are we going there?" Evans asked a hint of fear in her voice. James merely shrugged.

They began to follow Professor Turtle to the house and stopped when he opened the door and went inside.

"Is he- Is he allowed to do that?" Evans asked, shocked.

"We're in a pensieve, it's just a memory, no one can see you or sense you." Remus stated following in Professor Turtle's footsteps.

"Oh." They followed Remus who was following Professor Turtle into the house. Inside it seemed like no one was home, though there were plates and silverware set out on the dirty table. A few minutes later a teenaged girl came bounding down the stairs. She ran to the dusty oven and yanked the oven door open.

"Charlie? What are you doing?" A boy had come down the stairs a few minutes after the girl.

"Dad'll be home soon and he's bringing a guest home. Go wash up Adam." Charlie looked to be about eighteen with dark brown hair and piercing blue eyes. The boy Adam looked almost identical to her except with green eyes.

"Professor Turtle, may I ask you something?" Sirius said while staring intently at the girl Charlie.

"Yes, Mr. Black she is."

"She is what?" James asked, totally confused at this unspoken question and answer.

"Charlie, this girl you see here is Claire's mother." James looked at Sirius who was still staring at Charlie.

"Professor, I don't understand, why are we here?" Evans asked looking around the house.

"You'll see Ms. Evans, you'll see."

Adam returned from washing up and took a seat at the dirt covered table. As soon as Charlie was done placing the food onto the five plates on the table the front door banged open.

"Charlie, Adam!" A large man with blonde hair and baby blue eyes treked into the kitchen where Charlie and Adam were sitting at the table. The Marauders and Professor Turtle just looked on. "Look who I've brought home for dinner again."

A thin like man entered the kitchen behind Mr. Reese and stood next to him. He had dark black hair and snakelike black eyes.

"Oh daddy." Charlie's eyes had glazed over with fear and her body had tensed.

"Charlie, we've talked about this."

"Professor, is that- is that Voldemort."

Professor Turtle nodded his head solemly. "Yes, Mr. Potter, I'm afraid it is." Professor Turtle motioned for them to keep watching.

They watched as the Reese family and Voldemort ate dinner and then as they moved into the living room for a chat. Before Charlie could follow her father into the living room Voldemort grabbed her arm and held her back in the kitchen.

"I'd like a word with you." He hissed, turning her to face him.

"Yeah, about what?" She shot back, with the same sarcasticness that Claire held.

"I thought I told you to stop seeing that guy?" Voldemort's eyes flickered with disgust. Claire's mother scrunched up her face in anger.

"Who do you think you are, my father?" She spat out, rolling her blue eyes.

"No, but I could saunter into the living room and tell your father about it." Charlie's hands flew to her stomach protectively.

"You wouldn't?!" She growled through her teeth.

"Yes, I would. That baby is worthless. A filthy half-blood. You getting pregnated by a filthy half-blood." Charlie's hand flew out of no where to smack Voldemort across the face.

"Don't you dare talk about her father that way." A smirk flashed up on his face.

"How do you even know it's a girl?"

"I have a feeling." Charlie began to turn her back on him, feeling that their conversation was over. It wasn't in the case of Voldemort's mind. He grabbed her wrist swiveling her around hard once again to face him and pushing his face towards hers.

"You listen to me," he spat out, his words stinging like venom, "I told you not to see that half-blood. But did you listen? No, you have to be such a brat don't you? Never do what anyone tells you. You disobeyed me and now you'll have to pay for it by giving me your baby. That baby is mine." Charlie's eyes snapped to his in anger.

"No, she isn't.," Charlie's voice was low and murderous, "She's mine and if you ever thinking of touching any hair on her head, I'll kill you, with or without my wand. You're not my master or my father for that matter, you can't tell me what to do."

"Yeah, but one day I will be your master and one day I will get her. You bet on it. When she gets older and moves away from you, I'll find her. This isn't over, I'll find her and she'll be mine." With those last words Voldemort disappeared out the door and Charlie was left alone in the kitchen.

"That's why he took Reese tonight?" Sirius asked.

"Yes Mr. Black. Voldemort told Claire's mother that he would find her and take her and he did."

"But why?" Evans shouted. "Why Reese?"

"It's hard to say this but, Voldemort was in love with Charlie."

"Voldemort?!" James spluttered. "He doesn't have a heart an inch of anywhere."

"I know you are too young to understand this but I tend to see that there is some good in all people, even the evilest of all wizards but maybe all one needs is love." The Maruaders pondered over this for a moment.

"Nah." They said all at once.

"How do we get her back?" Remus asked, speaking up after a while.

"Well Mr. Black, you're the one who loves Ms. Reese the most, you have the answer." The rest of the Marauders all turned to stare at Sirius.

"I don't know where she is. I'm not physic Professor."

"Yes I know." He chuckled. "But you do hold a special bond with Ms. Reese, one that should give you feelings the same ones as her." Sirius thought about this for a moment. He had had that dream of when Reese was taken away. He was seeing it as she was seeing it. He tried to focus on Reese. After a moment he knew exactly where she was.

"We have to go there." He pointed to the house where the Reese family was and where they had just been.

"But we are here." James replied looking confused.

"No, not in a memory. In reality, we have to go there. That's where she is."

"But why there?"

"To show her, to show her why she's not wanted."

With those last words they were all sucked back out of the pensieve to go find Reese before something terrible happened. Before Voldemort killed her.

Chapter 19: Army of Sixth Years
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"You'll never be wanted."
'Yes I will, Sirius does!
"That pathetic traitor?"

A sharp pain erupted in my forhead, sending me to wrench my head backwards. After the pain subsided I forcefully opened my tired eyes. I was in a house. An abandoned house, no one's seemed to have lived in it for about a hundred years by the looks of it. I darted my eyes back and forth about the room, feeling as if I had been here before.

"Yes Reese, you have." That cold, murderous voice floated to my ears and my hatred filled eyes snapped to his. He was the one who had killed my father and my brother. And now, possibly, he was going to kill me.

"My nightmares." I whispered, shivers running through me. I had been here, in this house, oh so many times. I had nightmares about this house almost every week. Nightmares that made me wake up with a jerk and a cold sweat covering my frightened body. Voldemort smirked from where he was standing.

"Terrible nightmares, weren't they?" A scowl formed on my face. How could he talk about my nightmares. He was the one who haunted them. I couldn't believe him.

"Why'd you bring me here to my- my..."

"Worst nightmare?" Voldemort interrupted. I narrowed my blue eyes at him and tried to throw the middle one but pain shot through my arm as I tried to raise it. I dropped it back down to my side where I was laying, cold, on the stone floor.

"Yes, why?" I snapped, hating how he was stalling and toying with me.

"Oh I don't know. I supposed that you would want to know where your Mother grew up." Voldemort let out a anger filled chuckle. "Wretched place." He mumbled.

"My-my mother?" I asked, it couldn't be possible. My mother, growing up in this- this terrible place?

"Yes your mother and why did I bring you here you ask?" I nodded solemnly. "Because, this is where your mother grew up, this is where she got pregnent with you and this is where I told her..." Voldemort trailed off a taunting smile hanging from his lips.

"Told her what!" I yelled, wishing that I could knock that irritating smile off his snake like face.

"Oh nothing." I closed my eyes tightly in a hope to calm myself and before opening them again I wished that this was all a nightmare but when I slowly opened them again I was still sitting before Voldemort.

"What do you want with me?" I asked slowly, feeling every word would bring me closer to death. It would be better than suffering like this.

"To show you why you're not wanted. Crucio." I felt the pain bear down on me. I thrashed about on the floor, banging my fists as each shot of pain ran through me. The pain was like a white hot iron being pressed into my skin. My bones breaking, every single one of them, my body twitching and the worst part, I couldn't do anything about it.

"STOP! Get away from her!" The pain ceased and I tried to open my watering eyes. Through my veil of tears I noticed six people had stepped into the house. One who had messy brown hair and eyes that I had fallen in love with. Sirius had his wand pointed at Voldemort and so did the other Marauders plus Evans and Professor Turtle. Voldemort's wand was pointing straight at me.

"Brought a little army of sixth years, have we Turtle." Voldemort said snickering. I hung my head back on the floor trying to stop the throbbing that was piercing my head. "I thought you could do better than that."

"But as you may have not noticed Voldemort, there are one of you and six of us, unless you include Ms. Reese, but seeing as what you've done to her, she may not be in the right state." My mind was reeling. How had they found me, out of all the places, how?

"Oh sure, Turtle, there are. But out of all of us, I'm the only one capable of using the killing curse." An evil sneer played along Voldemort's lips, I shuddered.

"That may be so, but I don't think any of the Ministry might be upset to find you dead."

"Let her go." James voice had interrupted the spat going between Voldemort and Professor Turtle. He had come to stand beside Sirius, his wand pointing straight at Voldemort. I noticed that his hand was not shaking, not even a tiny movement.

"Why, so she can go and marry a half-blood like her Mother, or worse, a blood traitor." Voldemort snapped looking from me to Sirius, never moving his wand.

"Why would anyone want to be with someone so foul as you?" Evans piped up for the first time, her eyes showing her fright even though her words were like venom, stinging in just the right spot as I could tell from the look on Voldemort's face.

"What would you know, litle girl?" Voldemort let out a vicious laugh. All eyes turned to Professor Turtle, wondering what to do next.

"I think it would be a wise decision to let the girl go." Professor Turtle's eyes beamed with something that I had never seen there before, fierceness.

"You want her, have her! CRUCIO!" Again, terrible pain shot through my whole body, my body felt like it was on fire and that my bones were breaking. "CRUCIO!" The pain started all over again and all I could do was to wish for it to stop.

I could hear fighting going on while my eyes remained closed as my body tried to fight over the terrible pain. I could see flashes of light behind my eyelids. None of them green..yet. A loud thump came from next to me but I didn't dare open my eyes afraid of who might be laying next to me.

"Reese, Reese? It's all over, you can open your eyes." I opened my still watering eyes and noticed Remus sitting next to me as he rubbed his head. He must have been the one to land next to me, probably from a stunning spell. I noticed that Voldemort was no longer in the house and I wondered if he had escaped. I looked up into the face of Sirius who was kneeling in front of me. His hair was sticking out in odd places and his brown eyes with flecks of gold were filled with concern. His lips were in a slight pout of worry.

One word fled from my tired mouth before I fainted from exhaustion, "Sirius..."

Chapter 20: Not Over For Me
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A pounding was rising in my ears and in my head. Oh how it hurt. I slowly lifted my eyelids open, practically forced them open through the pain.


"Guys, she's awake!" A boys voice rang out and I clamped my hands over my ears.

"Please don't yell." I wailed, directing my eyes at the owner of the voice. "Oh Sirius..."

"Shh, Reese. Just relax." My body relaxed and Sirius laced his fingers with mine.

"Oh Reese, we were so worried!" Evans' concerned face peered over my own. Then came the others, all peering down at me with love and concern on their faces.

"Guys, how did you find me?" I asked, trying not to let the tears slip past my eyelids. The Marauders looked at each other, wondering whether they should tell me about the awful memory. "What?"

"Reese, we..." Now I was getting confused. What weren't they telling me.

"Professor Turtle, he took us to one of your mother's memories." My heart sank. From the tone of the way James said that it must not have been a good memory.

"What happened?" I whispered, not knowing if I really wanted to hear.

"Sweetie, Professor Turtle told us not to tell you because he wants to talk to you about it privately."

"When?" I was still whispering. I felt to weak to talk, too weak to do anything. Sirius squeezed my arm and gave me a faint smile.

"Whenever you're ready." He said softly kissing the top of my head. I tried to muster a smile but even that hurt to do.

"You should sleep first." I groaned at the suggestion.

"What do you think happens when you pass out Evans. All I've been doing is sleeping. I should go." I slowly rose to my feet and surprisingly I wasn't dizzy like I expected to be.

"Do you want me to walk you?" Sirius asked, getting to his feet. I shook my head.

"No, I need to do this on my own."


It was when I reached the statue that I realized I didn't know the password.

"Great, how am I supposed to get in?" The gargoyle began to turn, though as if on voice command. "Weird." I muttered before stepping onto the spiraling staircase.

I rose my hand to knock on the door when a voice called out from inside the office. "Come in." I pushed the door open and found Professor Turtle sitting at his desk expectantly, resting his hands,clasped, on top.

"How did you know."

"Ms. Reese," He chuckled, his eyes twinkling, "I have many years behind my wisdom. And often I take a guess and often am right." I smiled at sat down at where he was pointing.

"Then you must know why I am here." He nodded his head.

"Yes, I'm sure the Marauders told you about the memory."

"Yeah, they mentioned it." I said bitterly.

"And then Ms. Evans told you to sleep. And you refused which is why you are here now." I shook my head in amazement. He really did know everything.

"Yeah, so about the memory."

"Yes the memory. Here, have some treacle tarts." I took one and sat back, waiting. "I took your friends to one of your mother's memories."

"But why?" I asked, through a mouth of treacle tart.

"So Sirius could find you."

"What does that have to do with the memory."

"I took them to your mother's house where you were being held in real life. I knew you would be there but I wanted Sirius to be the one to figure it out." He said simply as if it was common knowledge.

"You- you knew where I was all along?" I sputtered, not believing my ears.

"Yes but you see Ms. Reese. I had to have Mr. Black to find you."


"To prove his love to you and Voldemort." I sat quiet, absorbing this information. Voldemort had told me that I was not wanted, not even by Sirius because he was a blood traitor. But he had found me and rescued me. He loved me truly and I believed it, even if Voldmort didn't.

"I have a question Professor." He nodded his head, waiting for me to ask. "Why did Voldemort want me?"

"A good question. That too was also answered in the memory."

"What happened in this memory?"

"We watched a dinner being taken place at your mother's old house. Voldemort was there, invited by your Grandfather."

"My- my Grandfather."

"Yes, your Grandfather was very close friends with Voldemort." My jaw dropped. I couldn't believe it. "Your mother was also pregnant at the time with you."

"But what does that have to do with taking me."

"Voldemort had told your mother to stay away from your father because was a half-blood. Your mother didn't listen and Voldemort was angry because she had gotten pregnant."

"But why would he care, unless..."

"Yes. Voldemort was in love with your mother. He told her that that baby was his and he would come back for it when you were older."

"And he did. That's why he took me because he was in love with my mother."

"Yes. Indeed it is." I put my face in my hands and squeezed my eyes shut trying to process this information.

"I think- I think I need to sleep."

"Yes, that may be a good idea. Don't think of it too much, it's all over and done with." I stood up and left the office without a word.

Professor Turtle's words rang in my ears as I walked up the steps to the common room. I mumbled the password and stepped through the entryway.

It's all over and done with.

I stopped in the middle of the common room and played those words over again.

It's all over and done with.

"No it isn't!" I screamed. "It's not over, he killed my father and my brother!!" I picked up the first book I could find and threw it across the room in my rage. "It'll never be over!" I started flinging things, anything at the walls.

A pair of hands grabbed my arms but I kept thrashing and screaming.

"Reese, stop!" Sirius' voice yelled.

"No, he killed them!! He's wrong! It's not over!" I wrestled myself away and threw another book, missing James' face by a mere inch or two.

"Sirius, what's wrong with her?"

"I don't know!"

"Shut up! You'll never understand! No one does! It's over for you! Oh aren't you the lucky ones, not me, never going to be over!!" I mocked, turning on James and Sirius.

"Reese, think about what you're saying."

As soon as my rage started it faded, leaving me with an emotional drain. I slumped against the couch, the two Marauders running over to me.

"I'm sorry, so sorry."

"It's okay."

"Why can't it just be over for me?" I asked, falling once again into a heap of exhaustion.

Chapter 21: The Marauder's Map
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"Reese?" My eyes tried to open, but my mind was telling them to stay shut for a little longer. I forced them open.

"Sirius?" I looked around and noticed I was in the Hospital Wing again. "Why am I here again?" I asked stressing the again part.

"You fainted again. Madame Pomfrey wants to keep you here for a couple of days. Observation." He said smiling and stroking my hair. I groaned and pulled at the ends of my brown hair.

"This is so annoying!" I exclaimed. At my outburst, Madame Pomfrey came running out of her office.

"Mr. Black, you should go. She needs to rest." Sirius nodded and looked at me sadly.

"No, please Madame Pomfrey, let him stay." I replied, not wanting him to leave like last time. Who knows what could happen, it had already happened once.

"Don't worry, Hagrid's going to stand guard." She said motioning for Sirius to head out.

"You really need to rest." He said, taking my hand and kissing it. "I'll be back in the morning, I promise." He smiled and made his way out the door. 

"Now, you take this." Madame Pomfrey handed me a lavander colored potion. "Help you sleep, no nightmares." I obediantly downed the potion that actually tasted like butterbeer. "Sweet no dreams!" She replied and sauntered back into her office. Before drifting off to sleep Sirius' eyes filled my mind. Thank god for him.


A few days later, the day Gryffindor was playing Slytherin in Quidditch, Madame Pomfrey released me from the hospital wing. I stepped through the doors to an empty corridor. Everyone was probably on their way down to the Quidditch Pitch at the moment. It felt good to be alone for a few minutes. I wandered down the corridor, contemplating the past days events.

I stepped outside and started heading towards the Quidditch Pitch. It was a calm day. Still a bit chilly, but it was still winter. I found Evans sitting right in front of the rail where the Pitch began.

"Hey Reese." She smiled at me. Her hair was in a loose ponytail and I had noticed that she had been looking much happier since her and James had gotten together.

"Hey." I sat down next to her and began to scope the field. The Gryffindor team was flying around, warming up. James flashed Evans a smile and warmed up his dives. I found Sirius circling the pitch. He caught my eye and winked playfully. I blushed and gave a smile back.

"It's so weird."

"What's weird?" I asked, turning my head to look at Evans.

"After everything that's happened these past couple of days, everything seems so perfect now, at this moment."

"That does seem odd." I inhaled the crisp winter air and believed that Evans had a point. At this moment, everything does seem just perfect.

Once again Gryffindor came out on top beating Slytherin by 150 points. Evans and I followed behind the students who were piling onto the pitch to congratulate the team. We pushed through the throng to find Sirius and James. We found them in the middle of it all whooping and a hollering. Sirius' eyes landed on me and he ran over. He picked me up by the waist and twirled me around.

"Sirius!" I squealed. Finally he set my feet back on solid ground and kissed me. "Wow, someone's happy."

"Why not! We have a chance to win the cup if we beat Ravenclaw next week!" He threw his fist in the air and let out a great whoop. I chuckled at his enthusiasm.

"Hey Padfoot, party in the common room!" James yelled through the yelling of the crowd. Evans was at his side smiling broadly at the rest of us. Remus found his way through the crowd to us.

"Prongs, remember last time. The party has to end at a decent hour!" James waved a hand in Remus' direction and pulled Evans through the crowd. Sirius's fingers found mine and he began to pull me through the crowd back up to the castle.


Of course Sirius was in no mood to listen to Remus' warning and was still yelling in elation at one am.

"Sirius, please!" I pleaded, pushing him away from me. It was the millionth time we had danced and I was tired. "Can we just end the party please." My eyes were drooping shut at the thought of my warm bed only a mere feet away from me.

"Aww, come on Reese. Don't be a party pooper."

"Fine, stay up and get in trouble. I'm going to bed." I turned on my heel and deserted him by going up the girls stairs. As the party nosie below grew steadily quieter as I climbed, I felt a sense of relief. It had been a long day and I had been through a lot and a party just wasn't on my to do list at the moment.

I sank down onto my bed and exhaled. It was so comfortable. Within moments I was sound asleep.


"Shh, Padfoot! Watch out for that--"



"Wasss goinnnn onnnn???" I grumbled, rubbing my eyes while sitting up. As my eyes adjusted to the darkness, I found Sirius sitting on my trunk at the end of my bed, rubbing his foot with a pained expression resting on his face. James was sitting on Evans' trunk, trying to stifle his laughter. Sirius looked up at me and smiled sheepishly.

"Want to speak English Reese?" I glared at him and pulled the covers up to my chin.

"You're the one who comes to our dorm at four in the morning and wakes us up!" I watched as Evans sat up and rubbed her eyes in disgust.

"Potter! What is the meaning of this?!" James looked at her with a sheepish look on his face. I smirked in the boy's direction.

"Well, you both left the party so early, we just had to--" I shoved my hand in Sirius' face to stop him.

"Had to nothing, it was one in the morning. Some of us care about how much sleep we get especially with tomorrow being Monday and classes starting again." Sirius pouted at me in the dark and I rolled my eyes. "Nice try Black."

"Come on Lil, let's go down to the common room?" James gave Evans his puppy dog look, the one where he pouts his lips and raises his eyebrows in sorrow. The one he mastered from the one and only Sirius Black. I shook my head as Sirius' eyebrows started to raise. Evans shrugged her shoulders at me and took James' hand. They disappeared down the stairs.

"Come on Reese. After these past few days, I want to spend some time with you." I gave him a withering look and he pulled a piece of parchment out of his pocket.

"Do you always carry a bit of spare parchment around with you?" I rose an eyebrow at him and he gave me a weary look. I stuck my tongue out at him.

"Don't tempt me Reese." He waggled his eyebrows in my direction and smirked as he saw my blue eyes roll at him. "I solemly swear I am up to no good." He tapped the parchment with the tip of his wand.

"Are you ever up to any good?" I asked, crawling my hand over to where his other hand was resting on my foot. He laced his fingers with mine.

"Bloody hell, Prongs!" He sighed in defeat and I crawled over to him. I looked down at the piece of parchment and noticed that it was now a map of the school.

"Oh so this is the infamous Marauder's map you've been bragging about?" He smirked and pointed to a room on the third floor. "Ahh, I see Mr. Potter and Ms. Evans have already occupied the Room of Requirement."

"Yeah, ruined my plans for tonight. Mischief Managed." I playfully punched Sirius and layed back down. Sirius bent down and kissed me sweetly before winking playfully and retreating back out of my dorm.

I sighed in content and found that sweet place where dreams of Sirius occupied my mind and fell back into a delightful slumber.

Chapter 22: Project Cheater
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I awoke the next day to an empty dorm room. Everyone must have been at breakfast. I pulled on my robes and trotted down the staircase to the empty common room. Either the boys got up early or their lazy arses were still in bed.

I made my way down to the Great Hall and heard the usual sounds of silverware scraping plates. I smiled and pushed the doors open. As I predicted all of the Marauders and Evans were already seated at the Gryffindor table. I plopped myself down next to Sirius.

"Well, we seem to be much happier this morning." Sirius chuckled, kissing my forehead.

"Well, if you haven't noticed Black, it's not one in the morning." I shot back, giving him a smirk. He just smiled and shook his head.

"I did notice Reese since it's light outside." I tilted my head to the side and Sirius kissed me right on the lips.

The rest of breakfast was full of making fun of one another while the Marauders and I planned a prank to pull on the Slytherins before their next Quidditch game.

Our first class of the day was Charms with the Hufflepuff's. Lily rambled on the whole way to the classroom and Sirius and James rolled their eyes in annoyance.

"We'll probably be learning how to counteract dark spells today. I really hope we do because as a sixth year I feel that we should be learning useful things."

"I wish I could learn how to counteract her speech." Sirius mumbled so only James and I could hear. Evans was very interested when James burst out laughing.

"Nothing Lils." She gave him the evil eye and wrenched the classroom door open and entered. We all followed behind her for a long hour of Charms.


Charms was exactly as we suspected, long. Evans kept scolding us on how we weren't paying enough attention on the lesson. We were supposed to be shielding off each other's spells. I had managed to stupefy Sirius nearly three times and he was very frustrated that he couldn't protect himself from a girl. I had managed to shield myself on the first try and Evans was impressed. I had never told them that Charms was my best subject. James had knocked Lily's wand out of her grasp only once and that was because he had distracted her first by saying how pretty she looked today. Remus had shielded himself everytime from Peter's spells and they kept coming back and hitting him.

After Charms we had a free period before Lunch so we all went back up to the Gryffindor Common Room for a round of Exploding Snap.

James was successful in wiping us all out of ten galleons. "I can't believe you beat each of us!" Evans exclaimed, landing on the couch with an exasperated sigh. I chuckled and noticed Sirius smirking at particularly nothing.

"What's wrong with you Sirius? You have a smirk on your face, but nothing amusing has been said." I raised an eyebrow and Sirius just shook his head.

"Nothing, nothing at all." He smiled and pulled me towards him. He nuzzled his face in my hair and my stomach twisted in knots. He wasn't being his usual self. I looked up at him and tried to read his face, but he was staring blankly ahead.

"Black what is going on!?" I whisper-hissed. He looked down at me and gave me a small smile.

"Nothing to worry about my dear. You'll find out soon enough."

"About what?!" He chuckled, patted me on the head, and took running up the stairs to the boys dorm with James at his heels. I turned to Evans, who was still laying on the couch and let out a frustrated sigh.

"What was all that about?" She shrugged and slowly sat up again.

"Better go get our stuff for Double Potions." I grunted.

"Yeah so you can suck up to Slughorn." I mumbled.

"What was that Reese?"

"Nothing Evans!" I replied cheerfully, rolling my eyes as she made her way up the girl's dorm stairs. "Over-achiever."

As I predicted Lily tried to please Professor Slughorn as much as possible. This cause James, Sirius and I to make gagging motions behind her back and whenever she would turn around sharply we would try to force a straight face. It was the third time Lily had angrily turned around when James knocked over his cauldron trying to suppress his laughter. Green, gooey potion trickled out of his cauldron and oozed onto the floor.

“No worries everyone!” Professor Slughorn waved his wand and the potion disappeared. James gave Lily a sheepish look and she gave him a dirty look. Sirius and I couldn’t hold in our laughter any longer.

“You are-”

“so pathetic!” I glared at Sirius because that was not what I was going to say. Sirius wiggled his eyebrows up and down at me.

“You two really are a bad influence on me.” James said with mock concern.

Us?” I raised an eyebrow at James and he smirked. His smirk fell and Sirius and I straightened up when Lily came stomping over.

How could you embarrass me like that?” She hissed at James.

“Yeah Prongs, how could you be so embarrassing?” Lily shot Sirius a death glare.

“And you two,” She turned on us, “how could you go along with his childish games?” We shrugged our shoulders. “I-” The bell rang before she could rant on.

“See you Lils!” The three of us took off out of the classroom and didn’t stop until we reached the Great Hall. We sat down at the Gryffindor table and I hungrily pulled a plate towards me.

Whoa, slow down there.” Sirius brushed a lock of hair away from my face. I paused with my fork halfway to my mouth, my cheeks already stuffed with food.

“Whas ye gonn dooo so fily?” James and Sirius stared at me dumbly.

“Come again chipmunk.” I scowled and swallowed.

I said, what are you going to do about Lily?” James laughed and rolled his eyes.

“She’ll get over her embarrassment.” I rolled my eyes. The Great Hall doors banged open and we looked up to see Evans approaching with a glare on her face.

Uh oh, here she comes.” I nuzzled my head into Sirius’ shoulder and he wrapped an arm around my waist.

“Hello.” She greeted us icily and sat down next to James. James leaned over and whispered something in her ear. She looked away and I saw her try to suppress a smile. James smirked.

“Secrets don’t make friends.” I yawned, caressing my cheek on Sirius’ shoulder. Sirius looked at me and smiled.

“Tired much?” I smiled and shrug a shoulder.

“I’m just telling Lily that she loves her embarrassing boyfriend too much to be mad at him.” She made a scoffing sound and rolled her emerald green eyes.

Sure Potter, that’s it.”

“Hey guys.” We all looked up at the sound of a girl’s voice. Taylor Pearson was standing behind Sirius and I. I felt Sirius’ arm leave my waist and he bent over to the left quickly. I, being the clumsy one, wasn’t prepared for this since my head was still on his shoulder. The quick movement sent me falling over. I tried to catch myself before my head hit the bench and this caused me to slide off the bench sideways. My hand hit the floor and a cracking sound filled the air around us. A sharp pain shot up from my wrist into my arm. Remus who had been sitting next to me who hadn’t said anything the whole time we had been there quickly jumped up and pulled into a sitting position.

“Oh Reese! I’m so sorry!  I didn't realize you were still there!” Sirius was standing next to me with his bag over his shoulder. Taylor was standing next to him with a concerned look on her face. My stomach dropped at the weird look in her eyes. My eyes were swimming with tears so the sight of them was going blurry and the pain in my wrist was causing my head to pound.

“S’a- I- wh-” I couldn’t seem to string any coherent words together; the pain was too strong. Remus and James were giving Sirius a strange look.

“We have to get her to the hospital wing!” Lily was on her feet now. She was looking right at Sirius. He had a guilty look on his face.

“I wish I could, but I can’t take her!”

What?!” James was on his feet now. I was barely registering any of this. I just wished someone would get a move on. The pain was getting to hard to handle.

“Taylor and I have an, uh, important project to work on.” James and Remus were glaring at Sirius. I swallowed hard and tried to get the words out at a slower pace.

“You. Know. What. I. Don’t. Care. Who. Takes. Me. Just. Can. Someone. Take. Me. Now?!” As if a bomb had exploded James, Lily, and Remus jumped into action. I vaguely saw Taylor drag Sirius away as the others carried me to the Hospital wing.

“Can’t you ever stay out of trouble Ms. Reese?” Madame Poppy exclaimed as she saw me being carried in. I gave her a weak smile.

“Not. My. Fault.” Remus set me down on one of the beds and James told Madame Poppy what had happened.

“I see, so it was Mr. Black’s fault?” They nodded and she took my wrist in her hand. I winced as she pointed her wand at it. She said a spell that was not coherent to my pounding head. The pain ceased instantly. My head cleared and the whole situation came crashing over me like a tidal wave.

“Evans,” she stood before me sadly, “did he, did he-”

“We’re sorry Reese.” James and Remus smiled sadly. A sob escaped my lips.

“How could he just leave?” Remus sat down next to my bed and took my hand in his.

“Reese, there must have been a good reason to why he didn’t take you.” I glared angrily at Remus.

He’s the reason why I’m here in the first place!” The doors to the Hospital Wing banged open and a panting Sirius stood in the doorway. My eyes narrowed at the sight of him. Remus and James approached him slowly. Lily stood next to my bed protectively.

“Is she okay? I came as soon as I could.”

“As soon as you could mate? Don’t you think it would have been better if her boyfriend had taken her here?” Sirius narrowed his eyes in confusion.

I told you Taylor and I had a project we had to finish.” James hit Sirius on the back of the head. “What was that for?!”

“For ditching your girlfriend to be with another girl!”

“I have a perfectly good reason for that?!”

Yeah and what’s that?” I had gotten up angrily and surprisingly felt much better.

“Claire…” Sirius tried to take my hand, but I shook him away.

Tell me your reason.” I demanded, coldly.

“I-I can’t.” I let out a scoffing noise.

“Fine then. You can just go date Taylor then since you obviously care about her more than me. I pushed past him and took off running down the hall. No one came after me.

“Good going mate.”




Chapter 23: Surprise Surprise
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I had ran all the way down to the lake and sat by the oak tree next to it.  This tree brought back memories.  It was the same tree where Sirius and I had sat months before and he had told me that he wanted to be with me.  Tears pricked the sides of my eyes, but I wouldn't let them fall.  I wasn't going to cry over stupid Sirius Black.  After an hour I couldn't stand the February air anymore.  I stood up shaking out the stiffness in my arms and legs.  I trudged up to the castle not really wanting to go back to the common room, but knowing that I would have to face them all sooner or later.

"Cupid." I mumbled and my heart twinged at the stupid password made for the holiday that resided in February.  The Fat Lady swung open and I stepped through the portrait hole.

"SURPRISE!" I stopped and looked at the entire Gryffindor House standing in the common room.  I was in shock.  I still had half my body in the portrait hole while only one foot was in the common room.  Sirius stood in front of me with a guilty and sheepish smile on his face.  I pulled myself together and stepped fully into the common room.  James stood a few feet behind Sirius with a smug look on his face.  Evans was looking at me guiltily for playing along with the rest of the Marauders.  Remus was waving his wand around while sparks came shooting out to spell out Happy Birthday.  A Happy Birthday banner was draped across the fireplace.  I stared at Sirius wondering if this was a joke or if his latest mistake had been a dream.  He looked at me trying to decipher my reaction.

"I-I," I shook my head trying to clear it and figure my thoughts out, "Is this what you and Taylor had been working on?" Sirius nodded his head and shame flooded my body and heat rose to my cheeks.  I had been so jealous that I hadn't given Sirius time to explain anything.  Was it really February 24th already?  I hadn't even remembered that it was my own birthday!  How stupid could I get?  I collapsed into Sirius' open arms and sobbed against his chest.

"She's fine everybody!  Reese is back to normal!" His laughter vibrated through his whole body and he nuzzled his nose against my wet cheeks.  I looked up at him and kissed him.  "Claire, you have to realize that I love you and only you.  I would never do what you thought I was doing to you!" I bit my lip and stared up at his gorgeous face.  His brown eyes looked down into my blue ones earnestly.

"I love you too, but if you ever pull a stunt like this again..." Sirius shook his head laughing.  He held up two fingers and smiled down at me. 

"Wizard's honor." I giggled and wrapped my hand around his and our fingers intertwined.  "C'mon, let's go enjoy your birthday!  Wait till you see what I got you!" His eyes sparkled like a little kid's when he has a birthday himself and pulled me towards the center of the party.

Hours later when the party had finally winded down it was just the Marauders, Lily, and I still in the common room.  We had saved presents for last and a pile sat in front of me.  I rubbed my hands together and watched each of my friends faces in front of me.  They were so eager for me to open their presents.  I shut my eyes and grabbed one of the boxes in front of me.  It was from Lily.  I tore off the wrapping paper and pulled out a book.

"Helpful Hints on a Young Wizard's Mind." I snickered and looked at Sirius, James, and Remus shocked faces.  Peter once again was missing from the group.

"There's a book on our-our minds!" James spluttered looking at Lily shocked.  She shrugged aimlessly, a smirk on her lips.

"Next." Sirius replied, dumbly still shell shocked.  I giggled and grabbed for another box.  This one was from Remus.  I pulled open the box and pulled out a really soft blanket.  It was the night sky with stars and a full moon on it.  I looked up at him with questioning eyes.  Remus gave me a small smile.

"You'll figure it out soon enough." I shrugged and picked up another present.  This one was from James.  I tore off the wrapping paper and smiled as I took out the stash from Zonkos. 

"Thanks James!" I smiled wide since my last bag of tricks was running low.  The last present was the largest and it was from Sirius.  I pulled it towards me my heart throbbing loudly in my chest.  I took off the top of the box and found a slightly smaller box inside of that one.  I looked up at Sirius annoyed and he chuckled lightly.  I took that one out and the pattern continued for five or six more boxes.  Finally a small velvet box was laying in my hand.  My stomach was twisting itself up and my heart was in my throat.  I swallowed and my fingers grazed the top of the box.  My fingers were shaking.

"C'mon Reese, open it!" Sirius was bouncing up and down on his knees and I chuckled.

"All right!  Calm down Black don't throw a fit!" I snapped the top open and my eyes widened in shock.  A ring sat in the middle of the case, a beautiful ring might I add.  It had a silver band and tiny diamonds leading up to two hearts overlapping with a diamond in the middle of each heart.  It was a promise ring.  Sirius leaned over and slipped the ring onto my left hand ring finger.  It fit perfectly.

"I had it engraved.  Look inside." I pulled it off and looked inside the ring.  Forever Love.  I pursed my lips willing myself not to cry, but the tears betrayed me.  He slipped the ring back onto my finger and pulled me into his embrace.  "I want to marry you someday Reese.  This is my promise to you that we will spend the rest of our lives together." I pulled his face down to mine and kissed him sweetly.  James made a disgusted choking sound and Lily and Remus burst out laughing.  I looked at them and stuck my tongue out at them.  It didn't matter what they thought, I had gotten my prince.