You are viewing a story from harrypotterfanfiction.com View Online | Printer Friendly Version of Entire Story Chapter 1: Numb [View Online] Disclaimer:If you think that I own any of this, then perhaps I should offer you some of my nice white pills... I’m tired of being what you want me to be Feeling so faithless Lost under the surface Of walking in your shoes Sirius was mad. Really mad. His father had just sent him letter lecturing about what was expected from him as a Black. He hated his life. All of his life had been planned out by his mother and father. He would become the famous pureblood supporter, his father would arrange his marriage with a wealthy pureblood witch and he would become a death eater. [Caught in the undertow/ Just caught in the undertow] Every step that I take is Another mistake to you When Sirius arrived at Hogwarts he was sorted into Gryffindor. All of his family (or at least those which he was told about) were sorted into Slytherin. His father was fuming. I’ve Become so numb I can’t feel you there Become so tired So much more aware I’m becoming this All I want to do Is be more like me And be less like you His father wanted him to follow in the footsteps of every Black that ever lived. He wanted to be himself and didn’t want to be a Black. He wanted to be a regular person and not a Pure Blood. He wanted to be normal. Can’t you see that you’re smothering me Holding too tightly Afraid to lose control ‘Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart right in front of you *flashback* Sirius sat at the Gryffindor table only half-watching the sorting ceremony. He was worried about what his father would say about his being sorted into Gryffindor. It was utterly annoying to listen to, pureblood, disgrace and ashamed were normally associated with these types of lectures. Then he saw a boy with jet black hair coming towards his table and everyone around him cheered. Something was different about this boy. But what, Sirius couldn’t grasp. *End flashback* [Caught in the undertow / Just caught in the undertow] Every step that I take is Another mistake to you [Caught in the undertow/ Just caught in the undertow] And every second I waste Is more than I can take that night Sirius had met the person who would change his life forever. He didn’t have to be a shell of a person who tried to be a perfect pureblood, from now on he would be himself. No longer “perfect”, a regular child who did regular things. He was so tired he couldn’t even feel the verbal blows his father threw at him. From that day on he would no longer try and live up to his last name, he would be Sirius, not a Black. But I know I may end up failing too But I know You were just like me with Someone disappointed in you Okay then, now that you have read my story will you pwease (spelled wrong on purpose) review? http://www.harrypotterfanfiction.com |