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The Madness That is My Life by frini19

Format: Novella
Chapters: 30
Word Count: 173,754

Rating: Mature
Warnings: Mild violence, Scenes of a mild sexual nature, Substance abuse, Spoilers

Genres: Drama, Humor, Romance
Characters: Harry, Ron, Hermione, Draco, Ginny, Albus, James (II), Rose, Scorpius, OC
Pairings: Other Pairing, Harry/Ginny, Ron/Hermione, Rose/Scorpius, OC/OC

First Published: 05/30/2011
Last Chapter: 09/04/2016
Last Updated: 09/04/2016


 Addie Malfoy's To Do List:

1) Get Scorp and Rose together.
2) Don't argue with Albus Potter. (No matter how much of a jerk he is)
3) Stop failing Defense. (This might be the biggest challenge)
4) Stop finding Albus attractive, stop staring into his beautiful eyes, and stop getting butterflies around him.
5) Somehow survive this school year without ending up in Mungo's. (Not sure I can do this one)

Chapter 23: The Madness of The Pitch

"Alice, is that a spider?!"

"Yeah, Ads, there are about 40 of them in this tunnel. Just keep walking."

"You're so sympathetic to my slight phobia of spiders."

"What can I say? I'm just a wonderful person."

"Yeah. Sure."

"Shut up or I'm leaving you here in this tunnel and going to the new pub on my own."

I groaned, but shut up, not wanting to be left behind.

Alice and I were currently in the tunnel, connecting Hogwarts to Hogsmeade. You would enter through the one-eyed witch statue and end up in Honeydukes and then go wherever you pleased.

Where Alice and I pleased was a pub that we had never been to, called The Pitch. Since we were both of age (the only two besides Scorpius) and hadn't been able to hang out much, due to the fact that she hung out with most of the people who hated me, we decided to have a girls night, just the two of us, and go to the pub. It was supposed to be a sports pub, I guess and they have Quidditch games playing live on the magical screens. It was also rumored that they played Muggle sports too, which would be interesting to see, since I had never seen a football match.

Another thing Alice wanted to do was pick up guys. She said that a few seventh years said there were always cute boys in there and that it would be great to meet some new prospects.

But I didn't want new prospects.

I only had my eyes on one.

And even though he currently wasn't speaking to me, he was really all I needed.

I knew how pathetic I sounded. I really did. Especially when he made is so blatantly obvious that he wanted nothing to do to me. I would try saying something to him and would get short replies back. Even though logically, he had nothing to be mad about, he was still mad at me and wouldn't speak to me.

Any other girl would have said, "Fuck it" and move on.

But I wasn't another girl. And he wasn't just some random guy.

I was Addison Elizabeth Malfoy. And he was Albus Severus Potter. We had never been normal. We had never been functional.

But we were always us.

And I couldn't, no, wouldn't, give up on him.

Not until I had too.

We reached Honeydukes and snuck out the back door into the cold early February night. We chatted about classes on the way to the pub and sat down at one of the tables once we got inside.

"You want anything?" I asked, removing my scarf and setting it on the chair.

"Just a beer, if they have it," Alice said, sitting down.

"It's a pub, Alice," I said. "I'm sure they have beers."

I walked over to the bar and couldn't help but noticed that this place was packed with guys. Attractive ones too. And that most of them were currently checking out Alice as she watched the Quidditch game on the large screen above her.

"Two beers please," I said, when I reached the bar.

"Two beers?" I heard a male voice say from behind me. "That's a little much for someone as small as you, don't you think Blondie?"

I looked over and saw a very, very attractive guy leaning against the bar and looking at me, a crooked smile on his face. He didn't look much older than me, maybe 19, and had strawberry blonde hair, and slight stubble on his chin.

"I'm only having one," I said. "The other one is for someone else."

"Your boyfriend here?" He asked, causing me to flinch slightly.

"No," I said, rather reluctantly. "No, it's just for a friend."

"Don't sound to happy for that," he said. I've decided to call him Scruffy. "What did the special guy reject you?"

The bartender came and handed me my beers, sending a glance Scruffy's direction. "This guy bothering you?" he asked. And though I could see that there was probably no way this old guy could do any harm to someone Scruffy's side, my heart warmed at the offer.

Before I could say anything, Scruffy spoke. "Nah, me and Blondie are just having a bit of small talk, Joe, you know how it is. Nothing to terrible."

The bartender was hesitant to leave, I could tell, and sent me look telling him to let him know if Scruffy needed to be taken care of. I sent a small smile back before grabbing the two beers.

"I have to go," I said. "It was nice talking to you."

"Oh, you're going to leave now?" Scruffy said and I heard his voice behind me. "I thought you didn't have a boyfriend to get back to."

"I don't," I said, getting closer to the table. "But I do have a friend to get back to."

I saw that a guy had taken my seat and was now flirting easily with Alice.

"I don't think she'll mind being left alone," Scruffy said, pulling on my elbow.

"Yeah, well I don't feel like talking to you anymore," I said. "Now goodbye."

Alice must have heard my voice because she looked around, her eyes narrowing when she saw me, my elbow being held by some guy. She instantly shot up, leaving her flirting session and came over to me.

"Hey," she said, her eyes stuck on Scruffy. "Thanks for the beer. Let's go back to the table."

"Come on, Blondie," Scruffy said. "Just talk to me a bit more."

Alice set her beer down on the table behind her and pulled my elbow out of his grasp, putting herself in between Scruffy and me.

"Blondie said no," she said harshly, glaring up at Scruffy even though he was a good head taller than her. "Now back the fuck off."

"Feisty," Scruffy said, a smile coming over his face. "I like it."

"You won't like it so much when you can't have children," Alice said, smiling sweetly at Scruffy as he backed away slightly. "Now stay the hell away from my friend and your future children will still be able to born. Understand?"

Scruffy nodded and Alice grabbed her beer off the table and grabbed my arm, pulling me back to the table that her flirting buddy was still at.

"Sorry about that," Alice said, pulling up another seat for me. "Some guys just don't get that no means no."

"I see it in here all the time," the guy said and I was a little shocked at his American accent. He stuck a hand out to me. "Will Anderson."

"Addie Malfoy," I said, noticing that he had piercing blue eyes that went against his dark hair perfectly. "Nice to meet you."

"You too," he said. "So you guys go to Hogwarts?"

"Um, well," I said, trying to think of an alibi.

Because really, how lame is it to say that you're still in school to an attractive guy. An attractive guy who is out of school (most likely since he's here, in a pub, rather than at school, though he looks like he's our age).

"Yeah," Alice said and I widened my eyes at her. She clearly didn't know that you don't tell attractive guys in pubs that you're still in school! "We're in our sixth year. You would be in your seventh year, if you went to school."

"I want to go to school, trust me," Will said. "But dear old mom thought that after my little bad boy phase at fourteen that I wasn't fit to go to school at Salem's anymore. She said doing drugs, failing all my classes and getting into fights every week wasn't good for my education. So she shipped me here and said that I would learn magic and how to run a business better from my uncle, here." He nodded to the bartender. "And that If I still managed to get into trouble that I would have to deal with him. Which isn't something you want to deal with, trust me."

"You're homeschooled?" I asked.

"Done, actually," Will said. "You'd be surprised how much time you end up having on your hands once you stop talking to all your friends and getting into fights every week. I managed to finish schooling last year. Now I'm just working to make sure that Joe doesn't go to hard on himself. Mom's worried about his health."

"Oi!" We heard, causing all of us to look over in the direction of the bartender, Joe, who was looking over at Will with an annoyed glance. "I'm doin' you a favor by lettin' you have this job! So stop flirtin' with the pretty girls and get to work!"

"And there's my cue," Will said, standing up. "It was nice talking to you guys."

"See you around?" Alice asked and I noticed that she was biting her lip, something she only ever does when she's nervous.

"Yeah," Will said, smiling at her. "See you around, Alice. Nice to meet you Addie."

He walked away and I saw Alice smile down at her beer. When she looked up she instantly started blushing.

"Stop looking at me like that," she said.

"Like what?" I asked.

"Like I'm keeping something from you."

"Oh, no, I'm just wondering how long you've known Will, that's all," I said, raising my eyebrows at her. "Because you seemed pretty friendly with him."

"I was not," she said, sighing. "I ran into him on the last Hogsmeade day. He was taking out the trash and I was running back down to the Leaky Cauldron to get my scarf before heading up to school."

"So that's why you were late," I said, remembering how Rose was freaking out in the Common Room because Alice hadn't come back yet.

"It's not like we did anything," she said, quickly. "We just ended up talking. I asked him why he was here if he was only 17 and he told me that his mom sent him here when he was eleven to be homeschooled and learn how to run a business. He then asked me if I went to Hogwarts and we just started talking about a lot of things and then I realized I needed to get back to the castle so I left."

I took in the blush on her cheeks, the way she kept glancing up to look at him, and the small smile on her face and slowly put all the pieces together.

"Alice," I asked, "Is he the reason you wanted to come tonight?"

"No!" she said quickly. Too quickly. "I mean, yeah, I guess. But I really did want to spend time with you and hang out with you. Getting to see him was added bonus."

I smiled at her before realizing what this must mean. "But...what about Louis?"

"I talked about it with him," Alice said softly. "Not about Will, since this was before that, but about our relationship. And we both agreed that we were better off friends. I could tell that it was hard for him and it was hard for me too, but we both knew that there were so many things that didn't work with us."

"So you guys just gave up on each other?" I asked softly, letting this wash over me.

They couldn't be over. They were Louice. They were perfect for each other.

"Not fully," Alice said. "We said that who we are now don't work together in a relationship. I'm way too paranoid about him to the point of where I don't trust him and he is not exactly a one-woman guy right now. I realized that I couldn't be with him if I didn't trust him. He deserves more than that." She took a deep breath. "He told me that I deserved more too. He said that while he fancied me, he couldn't promise that he would never cheat on me again. He's never been in a relationship, you know? So he said that he doesn't know if he can deal with that change from randomly snogging girls and flirting and pursuing them to only one girl. And I understood that. I mean, that's the guy I fell for anyway. The charismatic guy who flirted his way into my life and caused a huge wreckage before we realized we were better off friends."

"So you're never getting back together?" I asked. "Like you're never, ever, ever, getting back together?"

"I'm not going to say never," she said shrugging. "But we talked a few weeks after New Years and agreed that while probably for the rest of the year and maybe even next year we wouldn't give it a shot, if one day in the future we found ourselves having mutual feelings for one another, we'd give it another go."

"That's very mature for both of you," I said.

Alice nodded and took a sip of beer. "Yeah, I know. We couldn't believe it either."

"So he doesn't know about Will?" I asked, twisting my full beer in my hands.

"Yeah," Alice said, nodding. "I mean, there really isn't much to tell. But after I got back from Hogsmeade, Lou saw the smile on my face and knew that it had something to do with a guy." Her eyes found Will behind the bar, pouring some drinks to the guys in front of him. "He said that he was happy I found someone else."

"Do you believe him?"

"I have no idea," Alice said sighing. "It's just a little weird between us right now."

I nodded understandingly, taking a sip of my beer.

"Have you and Rose talked lately?" Alice asked suddenly.

"No," I said. "She can barely look at me or Scorp, let alone talk to one of us."

"She's hurt," Alice said. "She wants to talk to you, I know she does. She misses you, though she may not act like it. But she doesn't know how to get through this without you."

"If it weren't for me she wouldn't have been in this situation anyway," I said simply.

"That's not true," Alice said. "Rose is a smart girl. She would have found out at some point."

I put my face in my hands. "When did our lives become so complicated?"

"Well, all these new complications are mainly because of New Years Eve," Alice said. "But I think this whole year has been very complicated."

"Just a bit," I said. "This year has been more than complicated. It's been madness."

"Only when it comes to your love life," Alice said cheekily.

"Don't remind me of how much I fucked that up, please," I said, groaning.

"I think I helped in that process," Alice said quietly. "Don't forget that I'm the one who told Al that I thought I saw you and Lou hooking up in the first place, which caused him to break up with you."

"You didn't force me to start spending every minute with Caleb though," I said.

"Don't even get me started on how stupid Al is being about that whole issue," Alice said, shaking her head. "He's being a complete moron. Everyone in our friend group, including your own cousin and the bloke you're basically in love with, ditched you and the only person in this entire school who didn't make you feel like a complete and utter shit was Caleb. He accepted you and held you while you cried and forced you not to wallow in your pities. He did nothing wrong. I know that from Al's point of view it looks like you've chosen Caleb again, but it's not even like that! Al won't give you the time of day to explain what the bloody hell is going on in your brain."

I was about to respond, come to Al's defense, when a large body mass slammed into me before falling into the chair that Will had sat in earlier.

Oh look. My old friend Scruffy is back.

And he's totally piss drunk.


"Blondie," He slurred. "Lemme buy you a drink."

I saw Alice look over in Will's direction, knowing that now, she wouldn't be able to do this on her own. Behind the bar I saw Will frown, still pouring drinks while he watched Scruffy.

"No," I said. "I have a drink already."

"C'mon," Scruffy said. "You can have another one. And then I can walk you home."

"Walk her home, yeah right," Alice said. "More like try to get in her pants."

"Jealous, Feisty?" Scruffy asked. "You know, you two are very would be fun-"

"Get that idea out of your mind right now," Alice said, standing up and grabbing my elbow to pull me up. "We're leaving."

"Now just wait a minute," Scruffy said, grabbing my elbow and pulling me out of Alice's grasp and closer to him. In the corner of my eye, I saw Will stop pouring his drinks and walk to the end of the bar, pushing his way to Scruffy and me.

I fought against the tight grip on my arm. "Let go of me!"

"C'mon," Scruffy said, a sly smile on his face. "We could have a good time."

"I believe she said to get the fuck off her," a male voice said and Scruffy was suddenly met with a fist in his face. I looked up, grateful that Will made it over in time-

Only to see that it wasn't Will at all.

"What the fuck?!" Scruffy said, letting go of my arm to hold the nose that James had just broken.

"You heard me, arse," James said, his voice low and threatening. "Lay one more hand on her and you will regret it."

"And who are you?" Scruffy asked. "She said she didn't have a boyfriend."

"She doesn't," James said, his words so sharp that I actually felt like he was saying that more to hurt me than anything else. "But I'm her brother. So you better back the fuck off."

Scruffy laughed. "Or what?"

"Or you'll be two against one," Will said, stepping next to James, who looked at him, confused. "And trust me, you don't want that."

Scruffy smirked, a smirk so disgusting that I wouldn't have even said that Al did that in the days that I hated him most. "Oh really?"

"Yeah," Will said before stepping forward and punching him straight in the gut, causing him to double over. "Really."

"Oi! William! No fightin'!" Joe yelled. "Get 'em out, Will! And you can bet your mum is goin' to be hearin' about this one!"

"Great," Will said under his breathe before grabbing Alice's hand and pulling her toward the door. "You better come too." He nodded at James and me.

James and I awkwardly followed Will and Alice out (they were still holding hands. I'm pretty sure that Alice was blushing like crazy).

"You okay?" James asked.

"Yeah," I said. "He didn't hurt me."

A moment of silence came over us.

"Thanks for that," I said. "You didn't have to do that."

"Yeah I did," James said. "No one touches my sister. Not unless it's someone I approve of."

"I just meant, thanks for doing it even though we weren't speaking," I said. "Since, you know, you hate me and all."

"I don't hate you, Ads," James said softly. "I don't really agree with what you have been doing, but I don't hate you." James took a deep breath as we walked out the door. "I shouldn't have been mad in the first place. It wasn't my place to be mad."

"Al's your brother, it's understandable-"

"No it's not," James said. "Al told me not to be mad at you. He told me it was none of my business and that I shouldn't ignore you."

"But you did," I said softly, the A necklace hot against my skin at the mention of Al.

"Yeah and I put my relationship on the line over and over again," James said, running a hand through his hair. "I'm sorry Ads."

I smiled and wrapped my arm around his waist. "It's fine. Just don't do it again."

His arms came around me and squeezed me tightly. "No problem."

"You're sure your hand isn't broken?" Alice asked once Will lead us a few stores down from the pub.

"It's fine," he said, waving his hand that wasn't holding hers in her face. "See, I can move my fingers and everything."

"I'm sorry that you had to do that," she said. "I thought I had it handled-"

"Alice, it really isn’t that big of a deal," he said, turning towards James and me. "James already punched him. I just punched him because I needed to make sure I could still punch someone."

"And that was worth having Joe tell your mum?" Alice asked, her eyes wide. "But what if you get sent back to America?"

"Let me guess," James whispered in my ear. "Alice has moved on from Louis and now fancies this guy."

"Bingo," I said.

"I won't," Will said. "Mom doesn't want to deal with me. She'll just tell Joe to give me more hours or make me do dirty work for a few weeks and that'll be it. I'm not going to go anywhere."

Alice smiled. "Oh. Good."

"Yeah," Will said, smiling down at her. "Good."

And cue the awkward moment where they just smile at each other and I'm left standing there feeling like an awkward potato who will never be loved because she screwed up the only chance she had.

James coughed.

Oh, right, he's here too.

"You should probably get back to the castle," Will said.

"Yeah, I guess we should," Alice said, though I noted that her voice sounded like she had to go walking into prison.

Come on Alice. It's Hogwarts. It's awesome. I know Will is nice to look at, but Hogwarts has never ending food.

And really, who needs boys when you have a constant source of food?

Not this girl.

...ignoring the fact that I am currently pining over a boy that won't speak to me and filling that void in my heart with food.

"So I'm James," James said, offering his hand out to shake Will's and breaking the awkward silence that had fallen over us. Will let go of Alice's hand in order to shake James's. "I'm a friend of Alice and Addie's and fake big brother to Addie."

"Will Anderson," Will said.

"How do you know these two lovely ladies?" James asked.

"I met Alice a few weeks ago when you guys had a weekend down here," Will said. "Met Addie tonight. You?"

"My brother is friends with them," James said. "Well, not Addie so much anymore. Since they had six years of sexual tension and then she started showing interest by dating some other guy while leading my brother on, his name is Al, and they even kissed on Halloween which caused A LOT of awkwardness and sexual tension and then when she finally broke up with that other guy and got together with Al, well it actually took them a couple of weeks to get together since he told a bunch of fangirls they weren't dating and then Addie got all mad at him and didn't speak to him for a week and then on Christmas Eve at like 1 in the morning she came and visited him since her cousin kicked her out of her friend's house in order to sleep with my cousin, though I doubt that was his intention in the first place, and then Al blew up at her for not speaking to her and tells her that he told the fangirls they weren't dating because he had this huge elaborate plan to ask her out with a necklace and then Addie kissed him and they got together only to break up a week later because Alice here caught her boyfriend with Addie and thought they were cheating, which they weren't, and ending up telling Al who broke up with Addie but then once the whole cheating thing was cleared up and Al was ready to forgive Addie, she started spending a bunch of time with her ex boyfriend, causing Al to get all hurt and broody and emotional and now he doesn’t let her tell her side of the story and instead just stomps around and glares at everything while Addie cries about it and wears the necklace he gave her everyday even though he appears to want nothing to do with her though everyone with a pair of eyes can see that their both just madly in love with one another and really need to just admit it to themselves and each other and solve this whole fucking mess."

Thanks James. I had forgotten why I was currently my heart hurt every time I saw your brother.

Really, thanks for reminding me of all the stupid things I had done concerning Albus Potter.

"Oh," Will said, not sure of what to say. "How...nice."

"Yeah, I guess," James said. "I mean, besides the fact that my brother is a current emotional mess, my cousin had sex with Addie's cousin, and my other cousin and Alice are...well actually I have no idea what the fuck they are."

I smacked James upside the head for mentioning that Alice was something with someone, even though she wasn't.

"Oh," Will said, turning back towards Alice. "You're dating his cousin?"

"No!" Alice said, doing damage control. "No, I was dating his cousin. But then we decided that we were better off friends, so now I'm single. I'm super single. Like, totally, one hundred percent single."

"Okay," Will said, smiling at Alice, who was now fighting. "Maybe I'll see you next time you come down here?"

"Yeah," Alice said, trying to play cool, though I could see that she was about to burst with glee. "Yeah, that sounds great. Our next weekend is in two weeks, actually."

"I'll keep that in mind," Will said, smiling at her. "See you then."

"You know, you could always write her," I said, figuring I could help a sister out. "It may seem silly to write when you guys aren't that far from each other, but since you aren't allowed on Hogwarts grounds and Alice isn't going to be able to come out here all that often, you could write her. I mean, you do have a post office. I know that for a fact since my cousin took James's cousin there on a date."

Will looked like he was about to comment on how strange that date was, but decided against it. "That sounds like a good idea." He turned toward Alice. "Would it be alright if I wrote you?"

"Yes!" Alice said, a huge smile on her face. "That'd be fine."

"Alright," Will said. "Then I guess I better walk you back to the castle so I can get started on that letter."

"I can take them," James said. "I mean, that is where I'm heading too."

"I guess that works," Will said, who now smirked slightly at the glare Alice was throwing James. "That'll give me more time to write my letter."

"Yeah, I'll be waiting for your letter," Alice said. "It better be a work of art. I will accept nothing less than two pages."

"I'll remember that," Will said. "Bye Alice."

"Bye Will," she said smiling.

"Nice to meet you Addie, James," Will said, still not taking his eyes off of Alice.

They got into another one of their "stare deeply into the others eyes and never look away" despite the fact that Will was now walking backwards back towards The Pitch. He ended up getting hit by the door and turning around before entering.

And you know what? Even though I was totally upset about Louice being over, I found that I could totally ship Walice

"Man," James said when he was finally inside. "And I thought the eye sex between Addie and Al were bad."

Alice hit him.

"Ow!" He said, holding his arm. "What was that for? And when did you learn to hit so hard?!

"That was for saying that I had something going on with your cousin!" Alice said. "I know that you're a bit slow sometimes James, but honestly, even Addie picked up that I liked the bloke and we all know that she is easily the most oblivious person on the planet!"

"Hey!" I said, only to earn a hit on the arm myself. "What the bloody hell was that for?!"

"That was for not telling me that you and Albus kissed on Halloween!" Alice said. "I mean, seriously Ads, how could you not see that the bloke was crazy about you after you kissed him?!"

"I'm sorry!" I said. "But what was I supposed to do, go, 'You know, Louis really is a jerk for cheating on you. By the way, I totally made out with Al on Halloween even though I'm still with Caleb' and just move on?"

"Still you should have told me after!" Alice said. "Maybe then, you would have believed me when I told you that he was mad about you!"

"I'm completely oblivious remember!" I said, something dawning on me.

I turned and hit James.

"Ow! Will people please stop hitting me?"

"How did you know about the kiss?"

"What kiss?"


"Shit! Ow! Woman, you can stop hitting me."

"How did you know about the kiss?"

"Al told me!"


"When what?"

"When did he tell you?!"

"A couple of weeks ago when he was being all moody," James said. "Now can people please stop hitting me?"

"I suppose," Alice said. "Just as long as you get us back to the castle safely."

"Don't want to miss a letter from Will?" I teased.

"Shut up Addie," Alice said, her face turning red.

"Merlin," James said, walking ahead of us. "Go out for a nice night at a pub, by myself, hoping to escape all the gossiping that Annalise and Dom have been doing, since apparently they are best friends now, and I end up babysitting two girls and listening to them gossip. Awesome."

"And how is the lovely Annalise?" Alice asked. "Still as wonderful as always? You're still madly in love with her?"

"Shut up," James said, walking towards Honeydukes, his ears pink and Alice and I giggling behind him.


The next day, I sat at breakfast by myself, since it was a Sunday and 9 was apparently some ungodly hour that no one got up for.

There were a few people scattered throughout the room, not too many though. Hufflepuff had the most people, and I saw Mary and Anna sitting there happily chatting away. They had invited me to join them, as they always did, but I declined, saying that I had reading to be done.

Which was true, though I was currently avoiding my reading.

It's not that I didn't like Mary and Anna. I did. In fact, the sleepover they threw me a few weeks ago was a lot of fun. I stayed in their dorm and we stayed up all night, talking and eating. We were so loud that even their roommates joined us when we invited them. I found out that Mary liked Oliver and that Madge, another girl in their dorm, liked a Slytherin named Gale. I gave them the full rundown on what happened between Albus and me and got their advice.

They all basically said that I should try talking to him.

And when I pointed out that I already did that, they told me I needed to make him listen, one way or another.

I still haven't figured out how to do that.

I looked up at the flapping of wings and was surprised to see one owl heading towards me. It landed and I grabbed the letter of its leg, giving the owl a piece of bread before it took off again. I looked down to see whom the letter was from and hoping that it wasn't from another Witch Weekly reader, yelling at me for ruining my relationships. Though the number of those letters had decreased, I still got one every once in a while.

I nearly sighed a sigh of joy when I saw that the letter was from Matilda.

I hadn't spoken to her since our meeting last week, but getting a letter from her was much better than getting a letter from anyone else, especially lately.

Dear Addison,

How are you lately? I hope you are well. I noticed that this week you weren't mentioned in Witch Weekly, which made me feel a lot better. I'm sure you felt the same.

Any improvement with Albus? You don't have to tell me, but I was just curious.

I realized that I never really answered your question you asked the other day. You asked me why I left and I never really told you.

I'm going to do that now.

I went off to find your father. Despite everything I told you, despite how badly matched we were, I felt the need to find him. I felt the need to find him and make us be a family again.

That doesn't explain why I Ieft for good, in fact, especially since it has not taken me eleven years to find him.

I found him. I found him the first day I looked. He wasn't hard to find, not for me. I knew him better than anyone so I knew where he would be. And when I found him, I found him with his new wife and child, happy as can be, the picture perfect family. I couldn't take it. I couldn't believe that he was able to be in love with someone else, marry someone else, and move on like he didn't have a child already. Like he didn't have a family already.

I'm not proud of what I did. I was just so distraught over your father, I was young and in love and knowing that I had lost my chance with him, broke my heart. I couldn't stand to be here anymore, to be in England. So I left. I packed my things in the night and left the country, leaving my entire life behind me.

Left you behind me.

I'm a terrible person for it. I know that I am. And you have every right to hate me.

I went after your father for selfish reasons. I though that he could make our life better. I thought that he would be able to save us from the problems that kept surrounding us everywhere we went.

I was wrong though.

Looking back, I realize that he wouldn't have made our problems better. I had the power to do that all along, I just didn't see it.

When I decided to try and come back for you, I made sure it was for different reasons than why I left. I made sure that I was ready for the worst. I wasn't expecting anything from you, I really wasn't. In all honesty, I expected you to throw me out of the house. My timing wasn't great, I know, but after seeing you in that Witch Weekly article...I realized how much I missed. And I realized how much I didn't want to miss anything else.

So I took the chance. I put everything, my heart, my soul, on the line because you were worth it, Addison. You were completely worth losing everything for. Risking heartbreak for.

And if you ever take anything from me, I want it to be that.

If you want something, go for it. Use some of that Gryffindor courage and just do it. I saw a muggle movie a few years ago that said it best:

"You know, sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it."

That was what I used to convince myself to see you. And I want you to always remember that.

It only takes twenty seconds, Addison. Just be brave with your heart and in everything you do.

All my love,


I read the quote over and over again, the words cementing themselves in my head.

"You know, sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it."

I needed to be embarrassingly brave. I needed to put everything that I had on the line.

And as I recalled, there was an outstanding bet that needed to be finished.

I knew exactly what I needed to do in order to get Al to listen to me.


A/N: Yay new chapter! I'm not going to lie, I really do enjoy this chapter.

So much has been happening lately. This story was nominated for a Dobby! It was nominated for the Best Romance category. I really can't believe it. I already overwhelming expressed my gratitude, but I'm going to do it again. Thank you so much. You really have no idea how much that means to me. I'm just a huge dork who happened to have a story idea pop into her head. I never thought that it would become this and I never thought that my baby, the first story I ever read, would be so well received. I was already so happy with this story and all that you readers have done for it, and that really just pushed it over the edge. I'm so happy.

However, once voting is open, I will be unable to add new chapters. I'm trying to put as many chapters up as I can before, but who knows what is going to happen.

I've been really stressed out with school, cheer, and college applications lately, so even though I know you want an update ASAP, I cannot promise that. I will try my hardest to update, but I will not put writing ANY of my stories, not just this one, before my real life.

Alright, now onto this chapter: I loved it. I'm not going to lie, I really did. What did you guys think? Do you agree? Do you hate me for the fact that Louice is over? Do you like Walice (I do!)? What about Matilda's letter? And James! He finally came around. Thank Merlin. What do you think Addie is going to do to make Al listen?

I miss Al :( Does anyone else?

The quote mentioned at the end of this chapter is from the movie We Bought a Zoo and is not in anyway owned by me. (Though it is an awesome quote)

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