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Secrets of Lovers and Friends by Spaz
Chapter 5: Fighting
"You're kidding right, Draco?! You have to be kidding me!" I shouted.
Draco and I were fighting...again. It's basically all we do lately. He said he was going to treat me better, but he wasn't.
"I don't understand why you're mad!" Draco yelled.
"I'm mad because this is the third time you've ditched me this week! If you don't want to be around me, can you just tell me? I'm tired of making plans for us and then not have you showing up. It's wasting my time." I said.
"Jolina, you're blowing things way out of proportion." He said.
"No I'm not. You don't ever spend time with me anymore." I said quietly. "You know I'm not the clingy type. I'm not being crazy. You don't want to spend time with me, I'm not stupid, I can tell you don't."
Draco let out a frustrated sigh. "Well I'm sorry my life doesn't revolve around you!" He exclaimed.
"It used to." I replied in a hurt voice. "But you know what? Things have changed."
He sighed. "Yeah things have changed but it's not as bad as you're making it out to be."
"Draco, you spend all of your time with her. It's like I don't exist anymore. Like I'm invisible to you."
"This is about Tara." He stated.
"I didn't even say her name. You know you've been spending your time with her." I said.
He ran his fingers through his hair. "Jolina, are you jealous of my friendship with Tara? Is that what this is about?" He asked.
I shook my head. "No, I'm not jealous. I'm just upset that you spend more time with her than you do with me." I said truthfully.
"Look, I know I'm spending a lot of time with Tara, but it's just so hard to make time for you lately." He said.
I just stared at him, more hurt than I had been before. Then I became angry. "Well if you only have time for Tara and would rather spend time with her than me, then why don't you just go be with her instead?!" I didn't mean it at all. I was just so hurt and angry.
"You know what, maybe I will!" Draco said after pausing for a moment.
"Good, this isn't working out anyways." I said quickly wiping away a tear.
Draco's face softened and he no longer looked angry. "What are you trying to say Jo?"
"That maybe we should break up. Things aren't the same anymore. You said you'd go be with her anyways."
"Come on, babe you know I didn't mean that. I was just angry is all. I don't want to break up." He said quietly.
"But maybe that's what's for the best. We had a good run, maybe that's all it's meant to be." I said, not really meaning it.
"No!" He exclaimed. "That's not all this is! I love you no matter how much we argue. It's you and me forever. We're supposed to be happy together forever."
"But, Draco, I'm not happy!" I said. "I'm not. I spend half my time crying and the other half arguing with you. That is not how I want to spend forever!"
He just stared at me for a moment, lost for words. "Jo, I'm sorry okay? I'll be better, I promise." He whispered.
I shook my head. "That's what you said last time and it didn't happen. I just don't know if I believe you."
"Please, Jo. We're just going through a rough patch. Every couple goes through it. Once it's over things will be back to the way they were. I'll make you happy again." He insisted.
"I think our rough patch was two years ago when Pansy broke us up. This...I don't know what this is, but I hate it."
"I know, I know you do and so do I, but things will get better. I swear."
"I don't know, Draco. I just don't know." I said turning away from him and walking towards the door.
He grabbed my arm. "Where are you going?" He asked in a slightly panicked voice.
"To my own bed." I answered trying to pull my arm out of his grip.
"No, stay with me tonight, please." Draco said desperately.
"I don't think that's a good idea." I said pulling harder, but his grip was so tight.
"Babe, come on, just stay with me." He said.
"No!" I said. "I'm tired of this Draco. You seem to only want me when you've fucked up and you think I'm not going to forgive you. I'm sick of this."
"That's not true!" He exclaimed. "Just stay." His grip was getting tighter.
"Let go!" I said.
"No." He said. "You're not leaving me. You're not breaking up with me."
"You don't get to decide what I do!" I said heatedly. "Now let go!"
"Yes I do." He growled. "You're mine. You belong to me and I belong to you. You're not walking away from me."
"Really? You belong to me?" I asked. "Because it feels more like you own me and you only belong to me when it suits you." I spat at him.
"Stop saying things like that." He whispered dangerously.
"Saying things like what? Like you don't want to be with me anymore? That this relationship is all wrong? What would you like me to stop saying? Because I just live to serve you." I said sarcastically.
He pushed me against the wall. "Jo, you're pushing it." He warned.
"I don't care Draco. I honestly do not give a flying fuck that I'm pushing it with you. You've been pushing it with me for the last few weeks and I'm just done. Completely done." I said. All sarcasm had left my tone.
Draco laughed angrily. "If you think trying to push me away will make me want to break up with you you're wrong. And I think it's funny you're even trying."
"No, what's funny is that tonight you're begging me for another chance and tomorrow you'll probably be back to fucking Tara behind my back." I said. I knew I had stuck a nerve. The expression on his face changed so fast.
He slammed his fist on the wall near my head. "Get something through your head: I'm not fucking anyone other than you. I don't love anyone other than you! Why don't you believe me?!" He yelled.
"Because you don't act you love me!" I screamed. "You say you do but you don't act like it! Actions speak louder than words, Draco."
"Don't start quoting shit at me!" He hissed.
"Well it's true." I said.
"You don't want me to love you, do you?" He asked. "You want to keep fighting so we'll break up and you can be with someone else. That's what it is, isn't it? I'm not stupid."
"You could have fooled me." I said harshly.
His eyes narrowed. "Answer the damn question, Jolina. Is that what this is?!"
"No." I said firmly. "I don't want to be with anyone else, you prick. I know your world doesn't revolve around me, but mine revolves around you! Not that you care!"
"I do care!" He protested.
"Bullshit!" I said. "That's complete and utter bullshit and you know it! Just go be with Tara, I'm done with this shit." I said as I shoved him away from me. I walked past him, but again he grabbed my arm.
"What part of you are not leaving me don't you understand?!" He asked through gritted teeth.
"The 'not' part." I answered. "Because I am leaving you. I don't deserve to be treated like this." I said shaking my head and yanking my arm away.
Draco was much too fast for me, and before I knew it, my arm was back in his grip. "No you are not leaving me!" He said. "Don't you get it?! You're not leaving because I don't want you to. Because I do care!"
"Not enough!" I said.
"What else can I say?!" Draco asked. "What can I say to make you see that I care about you more than anything?!"
"Nothing!" I screamed. "There is nothing you can say to make me believe you. Right now your words mean shit to me!"
He roughly pulled me to him, his face inches from mine. "Then I won't say anything." He whispered
Then he kissed me hard on the mouth. I tried to wriggle out of his tight grip or push him away, but he was much too strong for me. I still tried to fight the kiss as much as I could. But Draco's determination outweighed my anger and soon enough I had given into the kiss and kissed back with as much anger and force as he was.
He shoved me into the wall hard and then kissed me harder. If this was his way for proving to me he cared, so far it's working. His lips moved down, kissing me so hard, I was afraid it would bruise. I closed my eyes and just let him do whatever he wanted.
Minutes later, he has me pinned down on the bed. He still hasn't said a word the whole time. He's breathing heavily and so am I.
Soon he's tearing at my clothes and I'm tearing at his. It's been awhile since we've really made love and I know it's about to happen right now. Without saying a single word the entire time (other than my name) Draco makes love to me. All focus on me, making me feel like his world does revolve around me again.
Afterwards we lay in silence for a few moments. "Do you believe me now?" He breathed. "Have I proven myself?"
I nodded. "Yes. Yes you have. But just so you know, you can't just make amazing love to me and expect me to stay with you everytime I'm about to leave you."
"We'll see about that." He smirked.
"Don't push it Malfoy." I said smiling slightly.
"I really am sorry babe. I swear things will get better. I will get better. You're right, you don't deserve to be treated like this."
"I'm sorry too." I said. "I said some really low things that I didn't mean. I was just trying to make you care."
"I already do." He said kissing me gently. I smiled into the kiss as I kissed him back. Things were heating up again and it seemed like there might be a round two when there was a knock on the door of the Room of Requirement and someone walked in.
"Draco? Are you in here?!" Tara's voice called.
I pulled away from Draco. "Why is she here?" I asked.
He looked at me guiltily. He had told her about this place. Our place. I shook my head as I ripped the covers off of me and started getting dressed.
"You are an arse!" I screamed as I quickly buttoned up my shirt. "I can't believe I actually forgave you. You're such a prick!"
"Jo, it's not like that I swear, just listen to me!" He pleaded, pulling on his pants.
"No!" I said. "Your words are shit to me again. Congratulations, Draco, you gained back my trust for about five minutes before you fucked up again!"
"Please Jo!" He yelled.
"Draco is that you?" Tara asked entering the bedroom. She saw I was getting dressed and Draco was only half clothed. She put two and two together.
"Oh, sorry, I was interrupting something." She said, red in the face. From anger no doubt.
"No, you weren't actually." I said coldly. "Because there is nothing going on between us anymore. I'm done Draco. You can have your stupid slut."
"No, you can't leave me!" He begged.
"Just watch me." I said turning on my heel and walking away.
"You win." I whispered to Tara. I exited the Room of Requirement and went to my own bed where I cried all night.
"Tell us what happened now." Pansy demanded the next day. We sat in the empty common room with Blaise and Ron.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"I mean Draco is huge mess and so are you. Why did you break up with him?!"
"I was done!" I exclaimed. "I just couldn't do it anymore." I said as I started crying.
"Tell us what happened." Blaise said softly. I told them events of last night.
I was sobbing so hard, it took awhile to tell.
"So you just let her win?" Pansy asked.
"She was already winning!" I cried. "There was nothing more I could do! I lost okay?"
"No, you didn't." Ron said. "For the first time ever I saw Draco cry today. Because you broke up with him. He didn't even mention Tara once. He was crying about how he wanted you back and he couldn't live without you."
"Really?" I asked.
"Yes." Blaise answered. "Draco really doesn't want Tara right now, he wants you. And I know for a fact that just like us he skived off class because he's so messed up."
I looked down. Just because Draco misses me, is that a reason to let him back in? Had I just been over reacting last night?
I had decided to go up to my room and sleep after talking to them. I got no sleep last night and I was exhausted. I fell into a dreamless sleep and woke up, feeling refreshed. I opened my eyes to see grey eyes looking back into my green eyes.
"Draco, what are you doing here?" I asked sitting up. Draco also sat up. I looked at him properly. Clothes a mess, hair dishelved, dark circles under his eyes as though he also got no sleep last night and fresh tears spilling out of his eyes.
"Jo." He choked out. "Please, please come back to me. I'm so sorry. I love you so much and I just can't live without you. Please. I need you."
I started crying. "I'm sorry." I sobbed. "I over reacted last night. I was just so angry you showed her our special place. I thought I wasn't important to you."
"You are Jo, you really are. The most important thing. I haven't been able to get you out of my mind. I've been trying to think of the right words to say to make you come back." He said.
"You've said them." I sniffled. "Truth is, I can't get my mind off of you. Breaking up with you is the stupidest thing I've ever done in my life. It won't happen again."
"Thank you, babe. Thank you so much. I won't hurt you anymore. That's over and done with. My life will go back to revolving around you." He promised.
I hugged him tightly, afraid to ever let go, but eventually I did and we spent the rest of the day in my bed, just smuggling together among other things. Tara's name was not brought up once. We were just focused on eachother, the way we were supposed to be.
Two weeks later, things between me and Draco were fantastic, his focus was mainly on me and he didn't hang around with Tara as much. I was happy.
I walked quickly to the room. I heard noises, I didn't like the sound of it. I walked into the room the noises I had heard were confirmed. "Draco! How could you?!"
Cliff hanger!!! Millions of SORRYS!!! to you guys. I should have updated a long time ago, but I was so distracted. So so sorry, but I promise this will be updated very very soon. So what do you think Draco is doing?? What did Jo walk in on?? You'll find out in the next chapter. :)