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'Til Death Do Us Part: The 3rd Installment by LucyintheSkywithDiamonds

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Format: Novel
Chapters: 30
Word Count: 85,963
Status: WIP

Rating: Mature
Warnings: Strong Language, Strong Violence, Scenes of a Sexual Nature, Substance Use or Abuse, Sensitive Topic/Issue/Theme, Contains Spoilers

Genres: Drama, Humor, Romance
Characters: Lupin, Snape, Sirius, Lily, James, Pettigrew, OC
Pairings: James/Lily, Remus/OC, Sirius/OC, Other Pairing

First Published: 03/29/2009
Last Chapter: 10/16/2012
Last Updated: 10/16/2012

Summary:







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After years of fighting to stay alive, everything comes down to one event. October 31st, 1981 is the night that changes it all. Some die, some are convicted and others never look back. What will bring them back together?** Read the 1st and 2nd installment.


Chapter 28: A Bottle of Wine Later...
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*the plot and OC's are mine, the rest belongs to J.K.

 

 

Sirius and Remus entered the Borchardt resident as inconspicuously as possible. It was a subtle affair. Jayme had her friends over earlier in the day and Jude’s parents, brother and his brother’s family were not in attendance because of Sirius. Shay had the joy of entertaining the in-laws the day before. Tonks and Emmeline were there. Emmeline was at all of Jayme’s events. She was her godmother and Remus was her godfather. Mad-Eye was there as well. He had quite the affection for Jayme. He practically watched the girl grow up.

“Remus, Sirius. It’s great to see the both of you,” Shay said with a genuine smile as she walked towards them from the living room.

“Remus!” Jayme exclaimed and ran towards the aging werewolf.

She wrapped his arms around him and Remus returned the gesture.

“Happy birthday, kiddo. I hope you’ve gotten excellent gifts so far,” Remus said with an enduring smile.

Jayme nodded her head excitedly and turned to Sirius.

“Sirius! Mum just told me this morning that you were actually coming,” Jayme said and hugged Sirius as well.

He hesitated, overcome with shock, for a moment then gently wrapped his arms around his little girl.

It was the first time he hugged his daughter. It took all his willpower and more not to succumb to the hot tears that threatened to spill over. Shay recognized this moment and smiled to herself.

“Jayme,” Shay said and petted her daughter’s long blonde hair, “why don’t we let them take a seat and get comfortable. You can show them what you’ve gotten so far.”

Jayme agreed and grabbed Sirius’s hand and tugged him forward.

“Come on. You can sit by me.”

Jayme and Sirius whisked past Shay and Remus. She looked at Remus and gave him the best smile she could however he could see certain sadness behind it. He wrapped his arm around her shoulders and pulled her close to him. He gave Shay a kiss on the side of her head and spoke softly into her hair.

“Are you ok?”

Shay brought her hand up to his that he placed on her shoulder and gave it a light squeeze.

“Of course I am. My baby is 13 today. Plus that was a really nice moment he just had,” Shay spoke quietly and Remus knew that she was talking about Sirius and Jayme’s hug.

“But not a very nice moment for someone else,” Remus alluded to Jude.

Shay’s jaw tightened and she pursed her lips in what seemed to be a brief annoyance.

“This day is not about Jude,” Shay stated and headed towards the rest of the group.

Remus was taken aback by Shay’s sudden coldness towards her husband but figured he could ask her about it later and followed her towards the others.

“Here, this is what Alastor got me,” Jayme said and placed an item in Sirius’s hands.

“A Sneakoscope. Very fitting, Mad-Eye,” Sirius said with a laugh and examined the object.

“It’ll keep all the bad intentions away. If more girls have had these, you would have never have gotten a date,” Mad-Eye said in a grunt and Sirius gave him a hardy laugh and a light slap on the back.

“And I’m glad they didn’t. Keep this close to you, Jayme. It’s the real deal. You need things like this in times like these,” Sirius explained and gave the item back to her.

She smiled and picked up Great Wizarding Events of the Twentieth Century that Emmeline got her.

“You like to read?” Sirius asked.

Jayme hugged the book to her chest and nodded her head.

“You should see the library we have for her. If she adds anymore books, it will soon rival the one at Hogwarts,” Jude said from his chair.

“I honestly don’t know where she gets it from. I was never much of a reader myself,” Shay added and sat next to her daughter.

“You were too busy hanging out with us. It’s not like James or I would have ever let you finish a book, even if you wanted to,” Sirius said, smiling at old memories.

“That’s not much of an excuse. I always made time to read,” Remus interjected.

“You were much more disciplined than I was. However, I made up for the lack of reading with a meaningful social life,” Shay joked.

“Here kid, this one’s from me,” Tonks half shouted, excited for Jayme to open the present.

Jayme ripped open the blue paper and found a small plain-looking box. Jayme seemed confused and looked questioningly up to Tonks.

“Just go on,” Tonks urged.

Jayme opened the box and looked into it. Still puzzled, she reached her hand in and found that, impossibly, she could fit her whole arm in the tiny cardboard cube. She finally felt something fall against her hand and she pulled it out. Jayme was astounded to find that a broom had somehow been hidden in the box.

“I was talking to your mum the other day and she had mentioned that you didn’t have a broom. I just thought that was a bunch of crock. Everyone should have a broom. It’s a Comet 290. A real good broom to perfect your flying skills on. You’ll be a pro in no time,” Tonks gushed.

Jayme smiled brightly and closely examined the handsome broom.

“This is amazing, Tonks! I can’t believe you got me a broom. Dad always says it’s good to have one, even if it’s just to travel with.”

“I was tempted to get you a Firebolt, but I figured your parents would kill me for that one,” Tonks said with a laugh. 

“Thank you, Tonks. You really shouldn’t have,” Shay said with an appreciative smile.

“I knew what Tonks was getting you so I picked up something that might pique your interest, and there is something else as well.”

Remus offered over his present to Jayme. She opened it quickly and found two more books in front of her. The one on top was the Handbook of Do-It-Yourself Broomcare and on the bottom was a book on magical creatures.

“There is a thirty paged section on werewolves in this one. I went through it and outlined the best parts, as per usual,” Remus said as Jayme scanned to the chapter he was talking about.

Jayme had been fascinated by the fact that Remus was a werewolf ever since he had divulged the information to her when she was eight. She wanted to know everything she could about lycanthropy. Jayme had been declaring for a long time that after she graduated from school, she wanted to get a job in law practice so she could change the laws that inhibited her beloved godfather from living the best life he could.

“More ridiculousness as usual?” Jayme asked with a small smirk while she was reading through some of the notes Remus had left.

“As always,” Remus responded with a smile and was happy with her reaction.

“Alright, I think you have one more present,” Shay said after she noticed Sirius holding a small gift in his hand.

He seemed nervous while he was awkwardly fumbling the box from hand to hand.

“Here you go,” Sirius offered anxiously and lightly placed the gift in Jayme’s hand.

Underneath the wrapping paper revealed a jewelry box. Jayme opened it and made a toothy grin.

“It’s beautiful, Sirius!” Jayme said and pulled a necklace out of the box.

It was a fine chain, made out of what seemed to be white gold. At the bottom of the chain, there was a dog that was engraved out of the same material. Jayme opened the chain to put it around her neck.

“Here, I can help you with the clasp,” Sirius said and Jayme turned her back to him so he could take the necklace out of her hands.

“How did you know that dogs are my favorite animal?” Jayme asked.

“They’re my favorite as well,” Sirius replied with a million dollar smile and successfully attached the necklace to itself.

“Thank you,” Jayme said and showed her appreciation with a hug.

Once again a little shocked, Sirius only hesitated a second to hug her back.

“When we have some alone time later on, I have the second half of your present. I can’t give it to you with your parents around,” Sirius whispered.

Jayme pulled away with an eager smile and Sirius gave her a small wink. Shay looked their way and felt a pang of disapproval but hid it, not wanting to ruin the moment.

 

The day had gone well and the gathering was dwindling down. Mad-Eye and Emmeline had left after dinner and cake and it was looking as if the other guest were going to make their exit soon. Sirius had to give the second half of his present before he lost his chance.

He stepped out to use the restroom but instead treaded up the stairs to find Jayme’s room. It was easy to find. It wasn’t too far down the hall and on the door was a poster of some new wizard band that was having their 15 minutes. Sirius softly knocked on the door, not wanting to scare her.

“Come in,” she called and Sirius cracked the door open.

“I’m not disturbing you, am I?” Sirius inquired as he stood in between the door and its frame.

“No. You can step in if you’d like,” Jayme welcomed.

She was sitting on her bed with her new broom in her lap.

“You mind if I take a seat?” Sirius asked and pointed to the spot next to Jayme.

She shook her head and adjusted the broom a little so he could sit.

“That’s a nice broom Tonks got you. Much better than the one I had at school,” Sirius said and felt the wood of the handle between in thumb and index finger.

“Did you play quidditch?”

“Yes I did. With your mum and James Potter. We even won the cup a few times. Those were some great times, beating those sodding Slytherin idiots,” Sirius said with a grin.

“Was my mum good? She never really talks about stuff like that,” Jayme asked and got up from the bed.

“She was great. She and I were beaters together. We took a bad hit when she left the team 7th year,” Sirius admitted.

“Why did she leave the team? She’s always talking about how quitting is the worst thing someone can do,” Jayme questioned and set the broom against the wall.

Sirius eyes grew wide when he realized what he had done. He had forgotten that Jayme knew nothing of her mother’s first pregnancy. He was deemed speechless. He couldn’t believe that he had the possibility of screwing everything up.

“Sirius? Hellooo. Earth to Sirius,” Jayme said, waving a hand in front of Sirius’s face, bringing him back to the moment.

Sirius just stared at her and tried to think of a way to get out of his current predicament.

“I want to give you your gift before Remus and I head out,” Sirius said, deciding to just switch topics completely.

Jayme gave him a skeptical eyebrow raise, something he had seen from Shay many times before. He couldn’t help but chuckle at her.

“Here. Your mum told me that you have a bit of a mischievous streak. This may help you out in that area,” Sirius said and pulled another small box out of his pocket.

This time he set in on the bed and tapped it with his wand. It enlarged to the size of a typical packing box. Jayme’s eye lit up a bit and she placed herself in front of the box.

“What is it?” Jayme asked and placed her hands on the box, ready to see its contents.

“You’re going to have to open it to find out,” Sirius urged, his excitement growing to match her own.

She undid the wrapping and tape on the box and soon found the glory of what the box held. It was a prankster’s paradise. There was a plethora of items that Jayme recognized from Zonko’s and some she had never seen before.

“I found this stuff the other day in my old bedroom. I had completely forgotten that I stashed it away years ago.”

“What’s this?” Jayme asked and held up a small circular plastic object.

“Ah…this was one of our creations. You put this on something like a diary and when somebody who is not supposed to read it decides to do so, it gives them a good zap. They can’t get past the first page,” Sirius explained with a proud smile.

“So you made some of these?”

“The Marauders did,” Sirius answered.

Jayme gave him a puzzling look.

“The who?”

“That was me, James, Remus and Peter’s calling card. The Marauders racked up the most detention hours in Hogwarts history to date,” Sirius said and handed the object back to Jayme.

“Sounds like you had a lot of fun in school,” Jayme said while rummaging around the rest of the contents.

“We made our time very interesting. I was a bit of a prat at times but we were all pretty much harmless.”

“Thank you Sirius. This is all great. My friends are going to love this,” Jayme thanked him.

“Just don’t tell your mum and dad that I gave you this stuff. Your mother knows where I live and she will not hesitate to make me less of a man,” Sirius said in a joking manner but Jayme knew that her parents would not be happy if they found the box.

“You’re secret safe with me,” Jayme said with a crooked smirk.

“And just remember that pranks are to be pulled only on people that deserve it and that Slytherin always deserved to be pranked.”

Jayme thought that Sirius was joking. Little did she know how serious he actually was.

“Thanks again Sirius,” Jayme said and gave Sirius a quick hug, “I probably won’t see you before I go back to school. Are you going to spend Christmas with us?”

“I have to talk to your parents about it, but I’m sure I’ll see you around, kid,” Sirius answered with a reassuring smile.

“I know that my dad doesn’t really like when you come over but I know that mum really does. She smiles a lot when you’re around,” Jayme said warmly.

“You’re dad doesn’t like me?” Sirius asked with a small smirk.

It wasn’t any surprise to him.

“I heard them fighting about you the other night,” Jayme divulged then felt bad for telling Sirius the personal information.

“I can understand where your dad is coming from. If I had a wife, I wouldn’t want her talking to an escaped convict,” Sirius told Jayme and gave her shoulder a reassuring squeeze.

“It’s not like they’re going to get a divorced or anything. All I’m saying is that she likes having you around. You probably make her feel young again.”

Sirius sat in silence. He took a side-glance at his daughter. He was starting to notice that they had similar demeanors. He could tell that she didn’t like to show people any weakness and tried to keep her cool in all situations. Sitting next to her was really starting to mess with his mind.

“Sirius,” Remus called and opened the bedroom door, “You ready to go?”

“Yea,” Sirius responded, startled out of his train of thought.

“What do you have here?” Remus asked and walked over to the box.

Jayme seemed nervous that Remus would disapprove of the contents of the box. Sirius, however, knew better.

“Wow,” Remus muttered while going through the box, “I can’t believe you kept all this stuff.”

“I found it the other day. I still can’t believe that Kreacher never got to it,” Sirius said and got up from the bed.

“Don’t let your mother find this. She’ll kill Sirius, then she’ll kill me for good measure,” Remus joked.

“I know. Sirius already told me,” Jayme said and closed the box up.

“We have to head out. Have fun at school and don’t get into too much trouble,” Remus said and pulled Jayme in for a hug.

“All I’m going to say is don’t get caught,” Sirius said with a mischievous smirk.

“I’ll do my best,” Jayme said with a smirk that matched his own.

Sirius thought he would never get over the fact that at the briefest moments, he saw pieces of himself in the girl that looked so much like the woman he loved. He couldn’t help but be mad at himself for missing the past 13 years.

 

 

“She’s kind of a peculiar child, isn’t she?” Sirius asked Remus as they sat in his kitchen.

The house was rather quiet for how many people inhabited it. The Weasley clan, Harry, Hermione, Sirius and Remus made ten. Twelve if Kreacher and Buckbeak were included.

“What do you mean?” Remus responded.

“It’s just that she looks so much like Shay but the more I get to know her, the more I see that she acts like me. But she’s not either Shay, nor me” Sirius explained while picking at a chip in the table.

“She’s a child. Genetically she’s half you and half Shay. But children eventually turn into their own person. She’s really taking a liking to you though,” Remus said.

“Are you surprised by that?” Sirius asked, feeling somewhat offended.

“Don’t get in a huff. What I’m trying to say is that Jayme has never been one for building relationships. She’s only got a handful of friends at school and she is completely fine with that. She’s an introspective girl that likes to do what she wants. The last thing she will do is conform to something. It took a long time for her and Jude to get to the point that she calls him dad. He had to work very hard on that relationship. That fact that she is so keen to you is a bit surprising. She’s not one to put her trust in just anyone,” Remus clarified.

“Do you think she knows I’m her real dad?” Sirius asked quietly, as if he was asking himself more than Remus.

Remus opened his mouth to answer but was interrupted by a knock. The two looked over to the hall and saw Shay standing at the opening of the kitchen.

“You two feel like hanging out for a bit?” Shay asked and displayed the bottle of wine that was occupying her hand.

Sirius and Remus looked at each other and shrugged.

“As long as you plan on sharing that,” Sirius answered with a smile.

There was no way they were going to turn down a nice bottle of wine and the company of an old friend.

  

 

“You’re an old fool if you don’t ask her out soon,” Shay insisted, stabbing a hole in Remus’s chest with her finger.

Two bottles of wine and a half bottle of fire whiskey later, the three of them were all feeling quite inebriated.

“She deserves better than me,” Remus admitted as he tried to push Shay’s drunken finger away.

“Bullocks. She likes you and you know it. You’re just a big scaredy cat. I mean, come on Remus, you haven’t been with anyone since…well…me!” Shay exclaimed astounded, flourishing her hands about just to get her point across.

“How would you know?” Remus accused, on the defense.

“You would have told me,” Shay said, as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.

“It’s been 14 years,” Shay added, feeling sorry for her closest friend.

“Merlin man. I haven’t had sex in 14 years but I was locked up in bloody Azkaban,” Sirius inserted and gave Remus a shake of his head.

“I have never been one for talking about my sex life and that certainly isn’t going to change now. Let’s drop it,” Remus insisted and crossed his arms over his chest in a huff.

“I’m just saying,” Sirius said and raised his hands in protest, “If you need my permission to date Nymphadora, you have it. I just want you to be happy, mate.”

Sirius had a drunken, sloppy grin on his face that made Remus roll his eyes.

“Who said I needed your permission?” Remus asked angrily.

“She is my cousin. I think I might have some say,” Sirius argued.

Shay laughed at this.

“He doesn’t need your permission for anything. They’re both full-grown adults. Honestly, you barely know Tonks. She couldn’t have been more than nine when you went away,” Shay reasoned.

It was Sirius’s turn to pout.

“She is a 22 year old woman with a great job and a bright future. She’s the last person that needs a werewolf in her life. Let’s not forget the fact that I’m 35, unemployed and dirt poor. Now that I think about it, I can’t understand who wouldn’t want me. I’m a Grade A catch,” Remus explained, sarcasm dripping from his pores.

Shay stared at him intently while Sirius felt bad for his old friend.

“I think I know what it is,” Shay said suddenly and both Sirius and Remus turned their attention towards her.

“You never fully moved on after Niki died. I knew it back then and sitting here, I realize that it’s still the same situation,” Shay revealed.

Sirius looked intrigued while Remus looked a bit ashamed.

“She’d want you to be happy, Remus. She would be so upset if you thought anything else,” Shay said and gently rubbed his arm.

“I miss her a lot,” Sirius said suddenly.

“She was always so honest with me. She let me know when my ego was getting too big for the room. Merlin, she was fun to be around,” Sirius finished with a smile.

Remus seemed to relax a bit at the memory of his first love and Shay smiled in appreciation of Sirius’s words.

“A toast,” Sirius said and raised his glass, “To Niki and all the friends we lost in those terrible times.”

Shay and Remus raised their glasses and they all took a long drink.

“Merlin…remember when we used to be able to finish off one of these bottles in a night?” Shay asked Sirius as she shook the burning taste out of her mouth.

“Yes I do. I don’t always remember the aftermath of those nights,” Sirius said with a small chuckle.

“I was never one for drinking like this. The headache the day after just isn’t worth it,” Remus added.

“We used to have so much fun in school. I don’t think about those times enough,” Shay said with a whimsical smile.

“Remember when we finally got into the prefect’s bathroom?” Sirius asked with a smile that matched Shay’s.

“I remember how pissed Lily was about it. I remember the first detention you and James got me,” Shay said and shook her head in dismay.

“The one with Slughorn? You did that all on your own,” Sirius explained, oblivious to her annoyance.

“I most certainly did not. You two were the ones that were horsing around and knocked over the cauldron,” Shay accused, getting riled up over the event that happened 24 years ago.

“You’re the one that mouthed off to Slughorn. James and I had it handled.”

“Well, Slughorn is a git,” Shay reasoned.

“You sure are good at holding a grudge,” Remus said and took another drink.

Sirius and Shay followed suit.

“Only to people that deserved it. He was always horrible to me.”

There was a silence that over came them as Shay was stewing about all the tiffs between herself and Slughorn over the years. After a few minutes, Sirius started chuckling softly, which then turned into a hysterical laughter. Remus looked concerned while Shay thought Sirius had finally lost his marbles.

“What is it?” Remus asked.

Sirius tried to catch his breath and wiped his eyes before answering.

“I was just thinking about the time that you two started dating and I absolutely hated you for it,” Sirius wheezed out between laughs.

Shay and Remus looked at each other completely confounded. Sirius’s laughter wasn’t letting up and Remus couldn’t help but smile.

“I guess we can laugh at it now,” Remus said and started to laugh at Sirius’s level.

Shay was trying not to join in but the noise was contagious.

“Here, I have one for you. Sirius, remember when you cheated on me with that French seeress?” Shay barely got out before releasing a large guttural laugh.

Sirius tossed his head back and let out his signature bark-like laughter. Remus was covering his face but his whole body was shaking.

“She had no clue what kind of mess she was getting herself into,” Sirius explained, his stomach hurting from the work out.

“Shay, remember when you got completely wasted and decided to tell me that Niki was pregnant when she died?” Remus asked while wiping a tear off of his face.

Shay snorted in response and covered her mouth in surprise. This made Sirius and Remus laugh even harder.

“That’s the worse thing I’ve ever done,” Shay admitted, trying in earnest to compose herself.

“Do you want to know how I paid for that?” Shay asked.

Remus shrugged his shoulders and Sirius looked intrigued.

“I was captured and tortured by Voldemort for half a year.”

This is when all three of them lost it. If anyone were to walk in on them at that moment, they would have sent them straight to the loony bin.

“We shouldn’t be laughing about this stuff,” Remus said as he was trying to get his composure back.

“We were all so angry for the longest time,” Sirius explained and straightened himself out, “I think we have the right to laugh at whatever we want.”

They all seemed to be over their fits of laughter. It was a nice and peaceful silence that fell over the trio. It felt as it did years ago, before all the bad stuff happened.

“Sirius,” Shay said and waited for his attention.

“What?”

“Do you remember when you thought is was a good idea to sleep with my sister?” Shay deadpanned.

And that was it. The hysterics started again.

 

 

It was late. It was so late that the sun would be coming up in an hour or so. So technically it was early morning. Remus had retreated to bed and left Sirius and Shay alone in the living room. It was a sight seeing the two of them lounging together. Sirius was sitting at the end of the couch with his head resting on the arm. Shay was lying on the same couch, with her feet gently perched on Sirius’s lap. It would have matched a picture Shay had of the two of them from when they were in Hogwarts.

“I really needed a night like tonight. Thanks for having me,” Shay admitted and playfully poked his leg with her toe.

“You know that you’re welcome at anytime. I missed you the most, you know,” Sirius mumbled, sleep coating his voice.

“To be honest, I didn’t miss you at all,” Shay said, getting Sirius’s full attention, “Until I realized that you never should have been sent away.”

It looked as if Sirius was blushing; however Shay knew better. Sirius Black never blushed. 

“You’re being unusually nice tonight,” Sirius said and rested his head back on the arm of the couch.

“I’m always nice, Black,” Shay countered and aimed a couch pillow at Sirius’s head.

Amazingly, he caught it. He threw it back at her and she caught it right before it hit her face and she tucked it behind her head.

“Nice catch.”

“Not that I don’t enjoy your company, but isn’t Jude going to worry about you?” Sirius asked quietly.

Shay didn’t answer at first and Sirius was afraid he had crossed some sort of line.

“We had a fight. He’s sleeping in the guest room tonight…again,” Shay revealed.

Sirius didn’t say anything. He wasn’t sure if he was allowed to.

“It’s not just you. We were fighting before you came back. I’m not a very easy person to be married to,” Shay said and sunk further into the couch.

“There’s two sides to everything, Shay,” Sirius offered but Shay played him off.

“Jude’s a good guy. I take advantage of that. I always have. I probably always will. That is until he’s finally fed up with me.”

Sirius left it at that. He couldn’t tell her that he was happy about her marital troubles. It seemed that she needed a friend more than a long-lost lover at the moment.

“I remember when I used to put my feet up on your lap like this in school,” Shay said a wiggled her toes, “and you would automatically start rubbing my feet.”

Sirius chuckled at this.

“Are you trying to hint at something?” Sirius asked.

Shay didn’t have to explain any further. Sirius started to gently rub her feet.

“Merlin, I must have been whipped. Or I was just trying to get into your pants,” Sirius said with a small laugh. 

Shay couldn’t help but giggle and she closed her eyes, enjoying Sirius’s experienced touch.

After only a few minutes, the massage stopped and Shay was very disappointed. She opened her eyes and saw that Sirius’s breath had slowed. He had fallen asleep in the middle of his job.

Shay quietly maneuvered her feet off of Sirius and got up from the couch. She looked around for a blanket and found one behind a chair. She walked back over to Sirius and gently covered him with the soft fleece blanket.

Just like Shay had discovered with Harry a few nights beforehand, Sirius looked much younger while he was asleep. Over the past month or so, Shay had realized how much she truly did miss Sirius. If only things had turned out different. She wished he hadn’t of fallen asleep. She wanted to keep talking to Sirius. She wasn’t sure how often this would happen.

Shay was going to leave but before she did she couldn’t help herself. She bent down and gave Sirius a small kiss. She couldn’t exactly figure out why. Maybe it was the alcohol; maybe she just wanted to remember how it felt. However, to her surprise, Sirius kissed back.

It made Shay feel like she was twenty years old again. His lips felt the same against hers. He smelt the same. He even tasted the same. It was almost too much for Shay to handle. Sirius sat up and pulled Shay towards him. She sat, straddling him, like they used to when they had a private moment in the Gryffindor common room. Sirius placed his hands on the sides of her head and ran his fingers through her hair. He had been waiting to do that for the longest time. Shay gently ran her thumbs over Sirius’s cheekbones and down to his jaw line. It felt the same. He was still handsome. Enough time away from the Dementors had given that prize back to him. Shay couldn’t believe what she was doing. This wasn’t like her, but this was Sirius. This was different.

She had to pull away.

“I can’t,” she whispered, her voice cracking with remorse.

“Please,” he whispered back.

His eyes were closed but his face showed confliction.

“Please don’t stop,” he begged.

Seeing him like this almost brought Shay to tears. He needed this. He needed to feel Shay like this again.

“Sirius…”

Shay couldn’t go on. She softly placed her forehead against his. His hands were still on either side of her face. Their noses were touching, ever so lightly. It was the closest she had felt to anyone in a long time.

“Please don’t go,” Sirius whispered again and finally opened his eyes.

His startling gray eyes bore into her green and blue ones. Shay felt it then. She didn’t really understand what “it” was, but “it” was there. It’s what made her put her hand over his heart. She had to make sure that this was real.

“Please. I need this. Even if it’s just tonight,” Sirius pleaded.

How could Shay deny him? She loved the man.


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