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I Never Knew You by Say Bang Sparkle Sparkle
Chapter 22: Complicated
“Well in that case…” I trailed off and without even really realising it, I started leaning towards Shaylee. My arms were still around her and it was a wonderful feeling. There were butterflies in my stomach and I felt nervous. It was like I suddenly couldn’t control myself around Shaylee. When had that happened? It has sort of snuck up on me I think.
When I realised that I may like her as more than a friend, I hadn’t decided if I was going to do anything about my feelings. If anything, I was leaning more towards trying to forget about those feelings and just trying to stay friends. I mean, I’m a werewolf for Merlin’s sake! I had dated before but those relationships had never lasted long. No matter how careful I was the girl always got suspicious. I don’t think any of them have put two and two together but that was because I was never with them long enough to give them the chance.
But this thing with Shaylee, it’s different. We are friends and quite good ones at that. I’ve gotten to know her and she’s gotten to know me. What if we start dating, (that’s assuming she even likes me), and she starts picking up on the clues? She’s smart, I’m sure she could figure it out. What then?
Oh Merlin, what am I doing?! I can’t kiss Shaylee! I will probably kiss her and she will instantly know my secret! She will scream in horror and then push me into the lake before running away!
Just as I was about to take a step away to distance us, Shaylee lightly bit her lip. I couldn’t help but smile a little. I’ve noticed that she does that when she seems nervous or is thinking. It was cute and sexy at the same time but I’m sure she didn’t realise it was either.
Oh bugger it!
I slowly leaned down as my eyes closed and felt Shaylee’s soft lips meet mine. I felt relief and excitement that she was responding and not pushing me away. Both of our lips were cool from the cold air but I hardly noticed. The kiss started off soft and tentative. It felt like there was a nervousness that we both shared. I began to worry that she didn’t actually want to kiss me and that the shock was wearing off and that she would soon push me away.
But that didn’t happen. Instead Shaylee deepened the kiss. Her hands that were just moments ago rubbing my neck and shoulders, slowly slid up the back of my neck and into my hair. I shivered slightly at the feeling. My hands that were wrapped around her lower back moved to her waist and pulled her body closer to mine.
Her lips were so soft and inviting that I just couldn’t stop. I was completely lost in her and the feeling she gave me. Our lips, which were moving one moment slowly and then the next fiercely, seemed to fit each other’s perfectly. I don’t know how long our kiss lasted but we both finally allowed it to slowly come to an end, both in great need of breath.
I opened my eyes to look at Shaylee and wanted to kiss her all over again. The moon light was shining on her beautiful face as she smiled up at me. Her hand reached up to my face and she brushed her fingers lightly across my cheek, much the same way she had done that time in the great hall. I closed my eyes, as I had that day, at the feeling.
“Are you okay? You have looked ill for days…” she said in a soft voice.
The memory of the words she had said in the great hall came rushing back to me suddenly. My eyes flew open as if she had actually spoken the words just now. She looked surprised at my sudden reaction and her fingers froze on my face. Before I could say or do anything, there was a loud cry of pain that came from the other side of the lake.
I reluctantly let go of Shaylee as we both turned towards the opposite side of the lake where many torch lights were shining. They all seemed to be pointing towards the ground but it was too far away for us to see what at exactly.
“We’d better go see what’s going on,” I said softly to Shaylee and she nodded. I bent to pick up our torches that I hadn’t realised we’d dropped.
We quickly made our way around the lake, the voices of the Muggle Studies class getting louder. We didn’t say anything to each other as we hurried along.
Oh Merlin, what have I done?! I’ve ruined our friendship! She regrets kissing me and now feels too awkward to say anything. Or maybe she’s figured me out! She’s already noticed once how ill I look before the full moon; the feeling of her fingers touching my face reminded me of that. What if she…
My panicky thoughts were cut short as Shaylee and I finally reached the rest of the class. It took me a second to understand what was going on.
“Lily!” Shaylee said in shock as she rushed towards Lily. “Are you okay? What happened?!”
Lily was sprawled on the ground, grimacing in pain as she held her ankle. Shaylee knelt down next to James, who had Lily’s head in his lap. Lily, who was in no shape to answer, just shook her head as tears trailed down her face.
“She stepped and tripped in that hole there,” Alice said shining her torch on a deep hole that could have been home to any small animal. “We think she may have broken her ankle.”
“Where’s Professor Verona?!” Shaylee asked looking around for the missing professor. She was holding Lily’s free hand with both of her own and by the looks of it Lily was squeezing it back tightly.
“He’s gone to get his wand from camp,” James said as he gently stroked Lily’s hair and made comforting sounds.
At that moment the class turned as we heard, “I’m here! I’m here! Nobody panic!” Professor Verona panted as he ran back to his class. He looked frazzled and a lot like he was panicking more so than anyone else.
Verona knelt by Lily and said in what I think he thought was a calming voice. “Everything is going to be alright Lily! We are going to levitate you to the hospital wing and get you fixed up in no time!” He was shouting slightly, as if Lily had suddenly gone deaf.
Lily just nodded her head and squeezed Shaylee’s hand harder. Merlin at this rate, young Madame Pomfrey will have two broken bones to mend.
“Here you go mate,” Sirius said, suddenly appearing with James’ wand.
“James I think it best if you take Lily up to the hospital wing and Mr Black you go with them just in case,” Verona said quickly. “I will stay here and look after the rest of the class.”
“Shaylee…” Lily said through gritted teeth and looked desperately at Verona.
Verona, who was looking more flustered by the minute, quickly said, “Yes, yes, Shaylee you go with them too. Once you take Miss Evans to the infirmary you three had better stay in the castle tonight. We don’t want any more accidents on the way back.”
James easily levitated Lily while Sirius led the way with his lit wand. Shaylee was still holding Lily’s hand and walked beside her. The whole class watched as they slowly made their way towards the dark castle. Just before they were swallowed by the darkness, Shaylee looked back over her shoulder at me.
The look she gave me made me more confused than I have ever been in my whole life.
“If you don’t stop bloody laughing I will curse you!” Lily threatened me darkly. The sight of her sitting up in the hospital wing bed with her arms crossed and twigs in her hair only made me laugh more. It wasn’t really funny that Lily was hurt, it was just so ridiculous that she stepped in a hole because she was too busy telling Sirius off for being an idiot.
“I’m sor- sorry Lily,” I said through my giggles. God, what is wrong with me? Remus’ kiss has probably exploded my brain.
I suddenly stopped laughing.
Oh my God!
Remus has kissed me! Remus Lupin has kissed me and it was amazing! And I didn’t do anything stupid… I think.
But then why did he suddenly start acting so weird when I touched his face? Come to think of it, the same thing happened when we were in the great hall. I must have done something wrong. God, I probably poked him in the eye by accident!
Ohhh but our kiss had been so amazing! Just thinking about it now makes my whole body feel all gooey. What does it mean though? Are we dating? Did Remus just fancy a bit of a snog? Did he mistake me for someone else and accidentally kiss me?!
“Shaylee, are you okay? You look like you’re about to have a panic attack,” Sirius said to me softly. He was looking at me with concern. I looked at him wide-eyed and a little crazily. His concern turned into alarm.
“I’m fine!” I practically shouted but didn’t sound very fine. I think I am having a panic attack. Why did Remus kiss me?! I mean don’t get me wrong, of course I wanted him to kiss me, but now that he has, I don’t know what to do!
Lily, James and Sirius were all looking at me. I stared back at them, possibly a little cross-eyed. I was saved from saying anything by Madame Pomfrey bustling into the hospital wing from her little office.
“Alright you three, Miss Evans needs some rest. Her ankle is just fine but I think it is best she stays the night,” Pomfrey said to us sternly.
James looked like he was going to protest but one look from Pomfrey and he gave in. He gave Lily a quick kiss before he followed Sirius out of the hospital wing.
“Get some rest Lily!” I said and gave her a hug. As I was pulling away, Lily grabbed my arm and gave me a knowing look.
“When I get out of here tomorrow you have to promise to tell me everything!” She said to me in a low voice.
Merlin, she knows! I shouldn’t be so surprised. Lily is all knowing.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about!” I said in an ‘I’m-having-a-panic-attack’ voice. I then ran out of there before she could question me.
I almost crashed into Sirius and James as I leapt out of the hospital wing doors. They both stared at me. I have no time for people staring at me! I am having an inner panic attack!
“Erm, well, goodnight!” I said and tried to casually walk away. I don’t think I was very casual. I may have looked like I needed to go to the loo.
As soon as I was around the corner and out of sight of James and Sirius, I started running. I ran all the way back to the crowded common room, which was noisy and filled with students playing games and chatting. Well, okay. I didn’t run the WHOLE way. I did try though. Sort of. I glanced at the clock and realised it was after 9:30 on a Saturday night. That explained why the common room was so crowded. I was thankful that my dorm would be empty.
I quickly made my way towards the girl’s staircase, fully intending to flop onto my bed and obsess over Remus long into the night. But when I opened the door I didn’t find the room empty like I had expected.
“What are you doing here?” I asked surprised. She glared at me from her position on her bed.
“This is my room too you know!” She shouted at me and I backed away slowly. As she yelled at me I noticed her red-rimmed eyes. Oh God! She is obviously upset! What do I do?! I don’t deal with crying people very well. And I don’t even like Demelza!
“Erm… Are you okay?” I asked hesitantly as I inched closer to the door. Please just say yes so I can leave…
“Do I look like I am okay?! Get out!” She shrieked and threw her pillow at me. I dodged it, and quickly stepped out the door before slamming it shut.
What am I supposed to do now? I need to freak out but I’ve been banished from my room! I stood glaring at the door and considered going back in there and telling her I wasn’t going to leave. But then I remembered the look on her face and decided against it. I did want to live through the night.
I went back down to the common room, for lack of anywhere else to go. I was just about to kick a first year out of a comfy seat when I saw a boy coming down from the boy’s staircase.
Without stopping to think, I changed direction and quickly made my way over to the boy’s staircase. I glanced around nervously but no one was paying me any attention. I snuck up the stairs hoping I wouldn’t run into a guy. Thankfully, I didn’t and was able to slip into the deserted seventh year boy’s dorm.
Ahh this is much better. It’s nice and quiet and there are no crazed girls hurling things at me. I took a second to look around the room. It looked much the same it had the last time I was in here with Lily and Alice. I made my way over to Remus’ bed and sat down.
I am sitting on Remus Lupin’s bed. Would it be weird of me to smell his pillow?
I know you are answering, ‘Yes of course it is you weirdo!’ But I don’t care.
“Shit Shaylee!” Sirius exclaimed loudly from the doorway. I screamed in surprise and flung the pillow I was hugging away from me. I hadn’t heard Sirius and James coming up the stairs. “What are you doing in here?!” Sirius asked his voice still a little higher than normal from his shock.
“Well… Um…” I mumbled as I quickly got up from Remus’ bed. James and Sirius were standing in their doorway looking at me questioningly. Why didn’t I think of something to say before I came up here?! Deciding on the truth, I said “I got kicked out of my room and couldn’t think of anywhere else to go.”
James and Sirius looked at each other before they cracked up laughing. I automatically went into defense mode. “Hey! It is not funny! Demelza looked crazed! She could have killed me!” I said loudly over their laughter. I even had my hands on my hips and everything! It didn’t help in the slightest.
James was the first to stop laughing. He walked towards his bed and as he passed me, he ruffled my hair. “You are a top girl Shaylee,” He grinned at me. I don’t know if he is being sarcastic or not. I’m just going to pretend he meant it.
He started digging around in his messy trunk and pulled out a silvery cloak. I stared at it open mouthed. “Is that an invisibility cloak?!” I asked in shock. James just casually turned around and smiled at me. He then pulled the cloak over himself. One minute he was there and the next he wasn’t. I gaped at the spot where he had vanished.
This is one strange night.
“See you two later,” James’ voice came from the doorway. I looked at the doorway but only saw Sirius leaning casually against the wall, smirking at my amazed look.
“Bye mate, say hi to Lily for me,” Sirius said with a cheeky grin. As Sirius flopped onto his bed, the dormitory door slammed shut on its own.
My brain just cannot handle all of this tonight. I pushed my questions about the freaking invisibility cloak to the back of my mind.
“Okay, so tell me what’s going on,” Sirius said as he put his hands behind his head and stretched out on his bed.
“Nothing!” I said a little too quickly. Sirius just gave me a raised eyebrow. “What would make you ask that?” I asked a little more casually.
He rolled his eyes. “Oh I don’t know. Maybe the fact that you have been acting like more of crazy person than normal,” he said, his voice dripping with sarcasm. I glared at him while he only smirked.
“You are so annoying!” I grumbled but I ended up sitting next to him on his bed.
“Tell your old buddy Sirius what’s wrong,” Sirius said and I couldn’t help but laugh. Stupid Sirius and making me want to tell him everything. “I’m going to take a wild guess and say this has something to do with Remus?” Sirius said waiting for my reaction.
There was no point in denying it. So I told him.
“And then he kissed me and it was amazing and wonderful and all sorts of incredible!” I said and flopped backwards on Sirius’ bed. “But then he started acting weird and before I could even ask him what I did wrong, we heard Lily hurt herself in a bloody hole!” I finished and felt exhausted from all the talking. I did feel slightly better though. Sirius is a great person to freak out to.
“Hmm I see…” Sirius said and pretended to stroke an imaginary beard. I just looked at him.
I take that back. He is a crap person to freak out to!
“Sirius! I am being serious right now!” I said in a bit of a huff.
“I think you will find that I am being Sirius,” he said and smirked at me.
“No you’re not! You’re being a prat!” I grumbled and went to get off his bed so I could storm off in a spectacular fashion. Before I could even sit up properly, Sirius grabbed my hand and pulled me back.
“Oh don’t be like that Shaylee. I’m sorry okay?” he said in his ‘sorry’ voice. I grumbled some more but ended up lying next to him. Is it weird that I feel so comfortable around Sirius? I mean I am lying next to him in his bed! And it feels totally normal. I’m sure if anyone saw us like this they would get the complete wrong idea. But there wasn’t anything going on to get the wrong idea about, so I curled up next him.
“I’m so confused,” I admitted in a small voice. My brain isn’t built to handle things like this. The biggest thing I have ever had to deal with is whether or not to have toast or cereal for breakfast!
Sirius put his arm comfortingly around me and said, “I’m sure you didn’t do anything wrong Shaylee,” I made a disbelieving noise at that. “Don’t do that!” Sirius said, suddenly sounding a little angry.
I looked up at his face and he was looking at me intently. “Do what?” I asked, looking away from his gaze.
“Stop putting yourself down so much!” he said in the same annoyed tone. “You get so down on yourself and you have no reason too!”
I squirmed uncomfortably. “I-I don’t know what this has to do with me and Remus,” I bumbled, trying to avoid the subject.
I heard Sirius sigh and felt him shaking his head. “This has everything to do with you and Remus. You said you thought you did something wrong. Unless you shoved him into the lake or bit his tongue off, I’m pretty sure you didn’t do anything wrong!”
I sat up then and glared at Sirius. I know I wasn’t really angry at him but took it out on him anyway. “How would you know if I did something wrong? Were you there? No! I was! And I’m pretty sure I’m a bad kisser! That was my first ‘real’ kiss! I mean there was that thing with Aiden but that doesn’t count! He stole it from me! And what if Remus liked me until I kissed him?! As soon as we looked at each other for more than a minute, he froze as if he was suddenly looking at a troll!” I was shouting and rambling but I couldn’t stop. I had thought I had gotten it all out before but I was wrong.
And I wasn’t finished.
“All I did was touch his face! And this isn’t the first time! It happened once in the great hall and he did the same thing! Why Sirius, why?!” I asked like a crazy person. Sirius just looked at me. I sat there breathing heavily and staring at Sirius with definite lunatic eyes.
“Are you done?” he asked calmly.
I took a final deep breath. “Yes, I think so,” I said in a tiny voice.
“Okay,” Sirius said and pulled me back down next to him.
We laid there for a moment in silence. I do actually feel better. I think that was the freak out I really needed. And I will deny it if anyone ever tells him, but I was really glad to have Sirius there.
“Look Shaylee, you are an amazing girl. You’re funny, beautiful and a little bit crazy,” Sirius said in a soft voice and I laughed a little. “Any guy would be lucky to have you. And I know that you don’t want anyone but Remus. But you need to know that Remus’ life is… complicated.”
I turned to look at him and he was looking back at me very seriously. “What do you mean?” I asked.
“It’s not my place to say. But what I can say is that I know that Remus really likes you, and if you show him how much you like him, no matter what, he will tell you himself. So stop freaking out so much!” he said and laughed a little.
I was silent for a moment while I thought over what Sirius had just said. Remus’ life was complicated? How? And did he say that Remus really liked me? Ohhh this has just made me more confused! But Sirius had said so many nice things. I wonder if he shows this side of himself to the girls that he dates?
“Thank you Sirius,” I said and smiled at him. I gave him a kiss on the cheek which made him smile.
“Okay, okay enough mushy girl stuff!” he said and he hit me with a pillow. I protested but let him win this time. “Have I ever told you about the time James and I charmed the suits of armor to chase Slytherines around?”
* * *
“What the hell?” someone said loudly and angrily.
“Go away Demelza, I didn’t use your shampoo,” I mumbled and rolled over. Well I would have rolled over if it wasn’t for someone’s arm around my waist. My eyes flashed open and found myself looking at someone’s chest.
Oh dear God.
I sat bolt up, well sort of. I got half way up before the weight of Sirius’ arm pulled me back down. I tried to shove it off of me and in the process, woke Sirius up.
“Wha’s goin’ on?” Sirius asked sleepily and sat up quickly, looking around in alarm. I took the chance to fully sit up and look at the person who had woken me up.
I wanted to lie back down.
It was Remus.
At first my face split into a huge smile at the sight of him. But then I saw that he was standing with his arms folded with a very un-Remus like glare on his face.
“Hey mate,” Sirius said cheerfully and stretched. I stared at Sirius like he was mental. Does he not see how bad this looks?! Remus just continued to glare with a hint of hurt and confusion on his face.
“Remus-” I started and went to get up but Remus cut me off.
“On no, don’t get up on my account. You two looked perfectly cozy just the way you were,” he almost spat and before I could even say anything, he turned and walked out of the room, slamming the door.
“What’s his problem?” Sirius asked, still looking sleepy and clueless.
I wanted to cry, scream, punch Sirius and die all at once. I did numbers two and three.
“Oh my god!” I shouted and gave Sirius a punch to the arm. “Are you thick?! Why was your arm around me? When did we fall asleep? How is it morning already?!” I was on my feet and pacing around in circles, throwing my hands in the air, as if that would help.
I think I was a little hysterical.
“Merlin, would you calm down?” Sirius asked as he got out his bed. I whirled around and glared at him. He took a step back.
“Do you not realise what just happened?” I shouted. “Remus, who kissed me, last night might I add, just saw me in your bed with your stupid arm around me!” Sirius looked offended at me calling his arm stupid but I didn’t let him say anything. “What do you suppose he is going to think? He is going to think that I am some super tart who hooks up with his best mate!” I was pacing again. I don’t know why I thought it would help, but I did it anyway.
“Oh shit…” Sirius said slowly, finally realising the problem. “Oh shit!” he said again, a look of panic on his face. “How did we fall asleep? You were supposed to go back to your own dorm!” Sirius looked just as panicked as I felt.
“What are we going to do?!” I asked, staring at Sirius and praying that he would have a brilliant idea.
“I don’t know! Talk to him and explain what happened?” he asked more than stated.
As if that was going to work twice.
* * *
I crept down the boy’s staircase very quietly. If anyone else sees me leaving the boy’s dorms I will die. I poked my head around the corner at the bottom of the stairs and peeked into the common room. Thankfully, it was empty. I made a mad dash from the boy’s staircase and up the girls, all the way to my room. I opened the door and peered into the room. Demelza was nowhere to be seen, praise Merlin. Alice, however, was sitting on her bed brushing her hair.
“Hey Shaylee!” she said cheerfully and smiled at me. “Thank Merlin that camping trip is over! It was horrible sleeping in that tent last night without you and Lily there!” she said and pouted.
I had almost completely forgotten about the camping trip. What about all of my stuff?!
“I brought yours and Lils camping gear back with me,” Alice said, answering my unspoken question. She pointed to the bags on mine and Lily’s bed. “Your wand is on the bedside table.”
I smiled gratefully at her. “Thanks so much Alice!” I said and sat on my bed. “You’re back early. I thought Professor Verona said the camping trip was meant to be until Sunday evening.”
“No problem,” she said and smiled. “And yeah it was supposed to be but he decided to cut it short, with Lily getting hurt and all,” She then looked at me suspiciously. “Hey speaking of early, you’re awake. I thought for sure you would be sleeping in until noon!”
Oh no! She’s on to me! She knows! Quick, abort mission! Run away! Do something!
“Oh, um, yeah I was… hungry! And I needed a shower! I was too lazy to have one last night,” I was rambling and acting very shifty. Alice was looking at me as if she didn’t believe a word I was saying. “So I think I will go take one right now and head down to breakfast!” I said quickly and gathered up some clean clothes.
“Okay…” Alice said, shaking her head and laughing. That was the good thing about Alice; she didn’t push you for information. I just didn’t feel ready to tell her the whole mess of a story.
I took my clothes and hurried off to the bathroom. I looked at my reflection in the mirror and cringed. Oh God! I had sex hair! Well, of course it was really sex hair, but that’s what it looked like! No wonder Remus looked at me like I was the skank of England. Why didn’t my hair look like ‘two friends lying in a bed talking all night before accidentally falling asleep’ hair? Why?!
I climbed into the shower and just stood under the hot water.
What am I going to do?
* * *
Don’t judge me. I know you are judging me! Stop it!
Okay, I know I should have tracked Remus down and tried to explain the whole situation. I could have even made a light hearted joke about it. I might have even made up an accompanying interpretive dance. Or most likely, thrown myself at his feet and begged him to believe me.
But I didn’t.
I’m scared okay! I am a big coward and shouldn’t belong in Gryffindor. I think the sorting hat was confused or drunk when it sorted me. Or maybe it just wanted to get rid of me because it was alarmed by what it saw in my head.
My stomach grumbled and I sighed. I also coughed and spluttered a bit when I inhaled a decent amount of dust. Maybe hiding in a dirty old broom closet wasn’t the best idea, but I couldn’t think of anywhere else to go. After my shower this morning, I had practically ran past Alice telling her I was going to breakfast. I didn’t go to breakfast though. What if Remus was there?!
So instead I went to the sixth floor and found a broom closet that looked like it hadn’t been opened since Godric Gryffindor roamed the corridors. I’ve been in here for a couple of hours I think, but I’m not really sure. I’m pretty sure I fell asleep for a while and I know I spent a long time slowly replaying everything that had happened. How could so much happen in such a small amount of time?
“Shaylee…” Someone called from outside the door and jiggled the handle. I froze and stared at the door in horror. “I know you’re in there Shaylee. Open the door!”
I relaxed when I recognized the voice.
Sirius jumped when I yanked the door open suddenly.
“You are covered in dust,” he said blankly. “What are you doing in there?”
“Oh nothing, just brewing a potion!” I said sarcastically and rolled my eyes. How does he always find me?! It is very frustrating when you can’t even hide in a cupboard in peace.
Sirius rolled his eyes. “What are you really doing?”
I looked away from him and mumbled, “Hiding…”
Sirius nodded. “I tried to talk to Remus…” he said in a low voice and he looked away from me.
My stomach dropped out of my body as I stared at Sirius. He looked so unlike his usual joking self. He looked sad, confused and a little angry all at the same time.
“What happened?” I asked in a tiny voice, not sure if I wanted to know the answer.
Sirius blew out a rush of breath and shook his head. “He’s really angry at me,” Sirius said and my heart panged. “He told me to leave him alone and wouldn’t even let me try and explain.”
I felt tears spring up in my eyes at the sight of Sirius. This was all my fault. I shouldn’t have gone up to the boy’s dorm last night. It’s my fault that Remus and Sirius were fighting. They’ve been best mates for years! I’ve never felt this bad in my entire life.
“Sirius…” I said in a choked voice. “I’m so sorry!” I said and couldn’t help the tears that started. Sirius took one look at me before he pulled me into a hug.
“You have nothing to be sorry about,” he said and let me go. “Look, maybe if we give him a while to calm down, he might be willing to listen. He might even think it’s funny!”
Sure, and I’m a hippogriff.
* * *
Curse you hungry stomach!
I couldn’t put it off any longer. I was starving and it was dinner time. With a sigh and trying to not look too depressed, I walked into the crowded great hall.
My eyes automatically went to the place at the Gryffindor table that my friends and I normally sat at. I didn’t know if I was relieved or sad that Remus wasn’t there. Lily, Alice, Frank, James, Peter and Sirius were there however. I smiled at Lily and returned her wave but the smile fell from my face just as quickly.
I had spent the rest of the afternoon moping around the sixth floor after Sirius left to go to an emergency quidditch training session. He had offered to stay and keep my company but I wanted to be alone. Before he left, I had made him promise not to tell anyone. I didn’t want everyone to know and have to pick sides.
“Hi Lily, how’s you ankle?” I tried to ask in my normal voice as I sat down next to Alice. Lily, who was being distracted by James, didn’t seem to notice anything different.
“It’s fine!” Lily said and grinned at me. “That was one way to get out camping,” she said and we all laughed. Well most of us. Sirius didn’t even pretend to laugh. He was pushing his food around on his plate, looking moody and closed off.
Dinner passed rather normally. I tried to be my usual stupid self but my heart wasn’t in it. No one commented though which I was thankful for. There was one tense moment when Peter asked where Remus was. Sirius and I both froze and didn’t look up from our plates. James said that Remus was working on an ancient runes essay in the library and wasn’t hungry. No one thought that was weird and the conversation changed to what homework was due tomorrow.
After dinner we all headed back up to the common room. Sirius didn’t say anything. He just went up the boys staircase. I saw James frown at stairs. Oh god! Don’t ask me what’s wrong with him!
“Uh, wow I am so tired!” I said quickly as James turned to me. “I’m going to bed. Goodnight!” I quickly went up the girl’s staircase before anyone could say anything.
I closed the door and was filled with relief when I realised that Demelza wasn’t there armed with a pillow. I showered and put on my pajamas. I drew the curtains around my bed and pulled the covers up over my head.
How did everything get so complicated?
A/N: Hi everyone! So I’m terribly sorry about the long wait! I’ve started a new job so I have been very preoccupied with that. But I wanted to post this before the queue closed. Please don’t kill me for Remus and Shaylee not suddenly getting married and skipping off into the sunset. :P
I know this chapter is a little different from the way I normally write. It has a bit more drama for one thing. I hope you guys liked it though! If it was a massive fail then I’m sorry!
I have a couple of things I want to tell you guys. Firstly, I have started a Meet the Author thread over on the forums. So if you have any questions about this story or anything, head on over there and I’ll be happy to answer them! You can find the link on my story page.
Secondly, I have been thinking about getting a beta reader to go over the posted chapters and helping me fix any mistakes and all that jazz. I often re-read my chapters but my brain doesn’t pick up on mistakes because I know what is supposed to be there haha. So if you’re interested, let me know!
Thank you all so much for reading! You guys are truly amazing! xx
P.S: How was the kiss description? Horrible? Corny? Okay? Haha, let me know with a review!