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The Madness That is My Life by frini19

Format: Novella
Chapters: 30
Word Count: 173,754

Rating: Mature
Warnings: Mild violence, Scenes of a mild sexual nature, Substance abuse, Spoilers

Genres: Drama, Humor, Romance
Characters: Harry, Ron, Hermione, Draco, Ginny, Albus, James (II), Rose, Scorpius, OC
Pairings: Other Pairing, Harry/Ginny, Ron/Hermione, Rose/Scorpius, OC/OC

First Published: 05/30/2011
Last Chapter: 09/04/2016
Last Updated: 09/04/2016


 Addie Malfoy's To Do List:

1) Get Scorp and Rose together.
2) Don't argue with Albus Potter. (No matter how much of a jerk he is)
3) Stop failing Defense. (This might be the biggest challenge)
4) Stop finding Albus attractive, stop staring into his beautiful eyes, and stop getting butterflies around him.
5) Somehow survive this school year without ending up in Mungo's. (Not sure I can do this one)

Chapter 17: The Madness of Potter Jealousy

The rest of the week flew by and before I knew it, it was Hogsmeade.

Which meant it was the day of Louice, Jamlise and Scorose's dates.

And I got the spend the day with Al.

Not on a date. No. We were going with Freddy and Dom, because James ditched Freddy and Dom couldn't find a date after Freddy beat up her last conquest.

So no. It was not an Albie, Aldus, Adbus, or whatever-the-hell-our-name-was date.

Even though we kissed and I told him that he caught me, our official "status" hadn't changed. We weren't boyfriend and girlfriend or non-dating or hooking up.

We were just two friends who liked each other.

And flirted. A lot.

And, okay, sometimes we would hold hands if it was just the two of us in the Common Room late at night.

And maybe he kissed me once in an abandoned classroom when we went to get food.

And maybe we snogged on his bed the night after the match.

But other than that we were the same.

"So you aren't going on a date with my cousin?" Rose asked, as she got ready for her date.

"No!" I said, sitting on her bed, ready to go to town.

Rose frowned. "But you guys are basically dating! You've snogged and held hands and you told him that he caught you. Why wouldn't he ask you on a date?"

"I need to get Christmas presents and so does he," I said.

"Go Christmas shopping together! That could be your date!"

"Rose do you not want a gift?"

"If you two got together that'd be enough of a Christmas present!" Rose said, pulling a dark blue sweater over her head. "I've had to watch you two for five and a half years argue and insult and basically tear down each other's personality, because you were completely in love with each other and were too immature to handle it!"

"I wouldn't say in love," I said. "And I haven't liked him for five years-"

"Bullshit," Alice said, walking out of the bathroom. She looked in the vanity mirror before walking over and joining me on Rose's bed. "Everyone could see it. Merlin, just the way you look at him it's obvious. Even when we were 13 and he pushed you into the lake in the middle of December, you could still see that you were crazy about him."

"I forgot he pushed me in the lake," I said, biting my nail. "I need to reevaluate who I have feelings for."

"NO!" Rose yelled. "DON'T! It took us six years for you to finally admit that you had feelings for him. It took you that long to just be nice to the bloke and realize that he isn't always a jerk. Don't you dare reevaluate your feelings because I swear to you that if you find someway to convince yourself that you don't want him, I will personally murder you in your sleep. He's been waiting years for this, you can't just back out-"

"I'm not going to back out! I fancy him!" I said. "But just so you know, I feel the same way about you, Rosie. It was getting hard watching you and Scorpius like each other but not do anything about it."

"Well Scorp didn't decide he liked me until this year," she said, examining herself in the mirror.

"And when did you start liking him?" Alice asked. She met my eyes and I knew we were both thinking the same thing.

Maybe Rose would actually admit she had feelings for Scorpius now.

"Um," Rose said, pulling on her hair. "I'm not really sure. I think...I think I've liked him for a while."

"No shit," I said, smiling at her blushing face.

"I didn't want to admit it," Rose said, looking at us through the mirror. "I figured that he would never like me, so I was insane to fancy him. I knew I was just asking to get hurt if I did."

"He's not going to hurt you," I said. "Trust me, he really likes you."

"I really like him too," she said, turning towards me. "Al really likes you."

I smiled, getting the fluttering feeling in my stomach. "I really like him back." I pushed some curls behind my ear to look at Alice. "Louis really likes you."

Alice smiled. "Well good, because I like him too."

The of us sat in silence, thinking about our boys and smiling like idiots.

"Is this really happening?" Rose asked softly. "Are the three of us really all happy at the same time?"

I looked at the both of them, smiling like idiots just at the though of their boys.

I would be lying if I said I wasn't smiling like an idiot thinking about my boy.

My boy. Albus.

I felt butterflies in my stomach.

"Yeah," I said. "Yeah I think we are."


Albus Potter

Scorpius ran a hand through his hair while standing in front of the mirror, as if trying to make sure that his hair was perfectly messy for his date with my cousin.

Ugh. He's going on a date with my cousin.

Which means he's going to snog her.

That's disgusting.

Maybe I should kill him right now...

Except that be a little hypocritical of me, since I've snogged his cousin quite a few times.

"Dude," I said, lying on my bed. "Calm down."

"I am calm," Scorpius said, pushing his hair back. "Does my hair look sexier pushed back?"

I looked at him, my eyebrows raised.

"Al," Scorpius said, walking over to my bed and getting in my face. "Does my hair look sexy pushed back?!"

"Personal space, Scorp," I said, pushing him away and getting off my bed. "I'm not answering that question."

"It's a simple yes or no answer."

"I'm not answering that!"

"Come on, Al. Just do it."

"No! I'm a guy. You're a guy. That's weird."

"It's only weird because you're making it weird."

“No, it’s weird because it’s weird.”

"Just answer the goddamned question!"

"Fine! Yes, your hair looks sexy pushed back!"

"I thought you were into the other Malfoy, Al," I heard my brother say as he entered our room. I groaned and pushed Scorpius away from me. He felt the need to corner me against the wall just so he could know that his hair looks sexy.

If he weren't so crazy about my cousin I'd think he was a poof sometimes.

"I am," I said, lying back down on my bed. "Scorp is just being a creepy idiot who thinks that I actually care whether or not he looks good on his date."

"I have to look good on my date," Scorpius said. "How do you expect to me to get any otherwise?"

I glared at him. "You aren't getting any with my cousin."

"Well that's hypocritical of you. Especially after I caught you and Addie snogging. Several times."

"Shut it," I said, throwing a pillow at him.

"You snogged Ads?" James asked, coming and smothering me with a hug. "I'm so proud of you little bro!"

"Yes, we snogged," I said, pushing James away from me. I smiled, unable to control it. "Several times."

"Damn," James said. "Is she a good snog?"

"Hell yeah," I said, putting my hands behind my head. "Best snog I've ever had."

"Al, I'm still here," Scorpius said. "And while I'm happy for you, stop talking about my cousin's snogging skills or I will kick your arse."

"Same goes to you," I said. "You know, when you actually start snogging Rose."

"Who says I haven't?"

"Watch it, Malfoy," I said, glaring at him. "Hopefully you got your cousin's ability to snog. Because honestly, I don't think I've ever gotten more-"

Scorp glared at me and I couldn't help but smirk the smirk Addie not so secretly called my jerk smirk.

Even though she claimed she hated it, I knew she liked it.

"Sounds like Addie's improved then," James said under his breath. I shot up instantly.

"What do you mean 'improved'?" I asked, my voice low.

"Nothing," James said, heading towards the door. "I gotta run. Don't want to keep my dream girl waiting and all."

I glared at the door, tempted to race after him and beat his arse.

He must have snogged Addie.

I knew it. I knew something was going on with them. They probably hooked up before I told him that I liked her when I was in Fourth Year. Merlin, my own brother got the girl I wanted first. I knew that's why he was so protective of her.


I should kill him for snogging my girl.

No one snogs my girl.

Especially my brother.

"Have Addie and James hooked up?" I asked Scorpius.

Scorpius shrugged. "I don't know. I doubt it since he's still alive. She probably would have told Rose."

"And you think Rose would have told you?" I asked him.

Scorpius opened his mouth before snapping it shut. "Shit. She wouldn't." He looked at me with wide eyes. "Have Addie and James hooked up?"

"I don't know that's why I asked you!" I ran a hand through my hair. I was probably competing with my brother this entire time. What if she's been snogging me but thinking of James? What if I'm just a second choice? "Louis would know."

"Let's go. He's in the fourth year dorms with Hugo."

And we ran to the fourth year boys dorms and walked in without knocking.

Which turned out to be a mistake.

Because Louis was making out with a teddy bear.

"What the fuck?!" I asked.

Louis pulled away from the bear. "It's not what it looks like! I'm giving Hugo kissing lessons!"

"Why?" Scorpius asked, looking over at Hugo. "Does he got a date?"

"Yeah," Hugo said, turning red. "With Cat from Hufflepuff."

"Damn," Scorpius said. "She's hot. I'll give you a hint: Don't use Lou's kissing technique."

"Hey there's nothing wrong with my kissing technique!" Louis said.

"Yeah there is, you look like a fish-"

"Not that this isn't fasinating," I said, interrupting them. "But there was a reason we came here."

"Oh, right," Scorpius said. "Your issues with my cousin and your brother."

Louis looked between us, confused.

"Have James and Addie hooked up?" I asked.

"How the hell would I know?" Louis responded, shrugging. "I don't keep tabs on your girlfriend's personal life."

"She's not my girlfriend," I said.

"Yet," Scorpius interjected with a smirk. "She better become your girlfriend because if you're just stringing her along-"

"Yeah, I'm stringing the girl I've been pining after for five and a half years along," I said, raising one eyebrow at him. "I may be an idiot when it comes to Addie but even I am not that much of an idiot."

"Good," Scorpius said. "I'd rather not kill my best mate."

"Anyway," I said, changing the subject back to what I came here for. "Lou, do you think that they hooked up?"

Louis shrugged. "Would make sense but I'm not sure. Why don't you ask her?"

"I'm not asking her," I said, crossing my arms. "I don't want to seem jealous."

"But you are," Louis said. "But if you don't want to ask her then I think the next best thing would be to ask Caleb. She probably told him."

"Alright," I said, pulling out the Marauder's Map, which I kept in my pocket at all times.

"I solemnly swear I'm up to no good."


"Oi! Adams!"

Caleb turned from his conversation toward me after my call. He nodded in my direction.

"Mate," he said. "What do you need?"

"Can I talk to you about something?" I said. Caleb nodded and we walked off to the side of the Entrance Hall.

"Potter, if you're here to tell me that you're going to no longer ask Addie out, I may have to kick your arse-"

"No, I'm still going to ask her out," I said. "Eventually."

"Good," Caleb said. "Merlin knows it's taken you two long enough."

"You know," I said, looking at him quizzically. "For being her ex-boyfriend, you're really pushing me to ask her out. It's rather strange."

Caleb shrugged. "I want her to be happy. You make her happy."

I smiled at that.

"It only took six years," I said. "But she’s finally doesn’t wish that I’d drop dead."

Caleb smirked. "You and your brother are way too similar, you know that?"

At the mention of James, I instantly frowned.

"I actually had something to ask you," I said. "Do you know if James and Addie ever hooked up?"

Caleb thought about it for a minute. "I don't think so," he said and I let out a breath of relief. "But I do know that I wasn't the first guy she kissed."

"Do you know who was?" I asked, trying to keep my Potter jealousy down.

We don't like people talking to our women. Or kissing our women. Or really doing anything with our women. They're ours. Back the fuck off.

"No, I never asked," Caleb said.

Well fuck you Caleb.

"Why don't you just ask her?" Caleb asked me.

"I don't want to seem jealous," I said. "Jealousy isn't attractive to girls."

"Albus," Caleb said. "She was with me, and trust me, I got very jealous of you at times. Are you forgetting our fight?"

I nodded at the memory. Addie made me say the kiss was a mistake and then I told her how I felt about her. And she rejected me. And I had a black eye.

It wasn't a good day for me.

"Addie doesn't get put off by jealousy," Caleb said. "Just ask her. She's coming this way now."

I looked at the staircase and saw Addie walking down, giving Caleb and I a strange look.

"Thanks dude," I said.

"No problem," Caleb said. "I hope she didn't make out with your brother."

"Me too," I said, feeling the Potter jealousy building up as I looked at her walking toward me.

She was mine.

No one but me snogs her.

Especially not my fucking brother.


Addie Malfoy

I exited the Common Room, about to head down to the Entrance Hall where Dom, Freddy, Al and I all agreed to meet. However, I stopped when I saw Dominique and Freddy outside the Gryffindor Common Room, waiting for me.

"Where's Al?" I asked as I approached them.

"Went down to the Entrance Hall," Freddy said. "Can Dom and I meet you down in the Village?"

"Yeah sure," I said. "Why?"

Freddy glared down at Dom, telling her to explain.

Dom looked down guiltily. "I may have hooked up with a boy a few days ago," she said. "And now he won't stop following me and thinks we're going to Hogsmeade together."

"And being the amazing cousin I am," Freddy said, still frowning at Dom. "I get to go and straighten this whole situation out."

"I told you I was sorry," Dom said, looking up at Freddy with her big eyes.

"I know," Freddy said. "You just need to stop getting yourself into these situations. Just go find yourself a boy who is nice and won't hurt you or stalk you and gets the Wotter family approval."

"That's difficult though!" Dom whined.

"Just stop slagging around, okay?" Freddy said. "I love you and enjoy beating the shit out of the guys you slag around with, but could you please stop?"

"Okay," Dom said quietly. "I'll stop."

"Hey Weasley," a voice said from behind me. I turned and saw Lysander Scamander walking towards us. He nodded at Dom. "And Weasley."

"Hi," Dom said, a slight pink coming to her face.

Freddy noticed this and glared at Lysander. "Scamander."

Dom hit him on the arm. "Don't be rude, Fred."

"Don't be too nice, Dom," Freddy said back.

"I better go," I said, interrupting their cousin bickering. "Where did you say Al was?"

"Your boyfriend is in the Entrance Hall," Freddy said. "Dom and I will meet you in the Village."

"Okay," I said, waving. "Bye. And Dom?" She looked at me and I could see that her cheeks still had a pink tint to them. I slid my eyes over to Lysander and smirked at her, causing her to blush even more. "We need to talk soon."

"Just go be with your boyfriend, Addie," Dom said, biting her lip and telling me to shut up with her eyes.

I smirked and headed toward the Entrance Hall.

Dom had a crush.

I never thought that would happen. Maybe she'll actually stop slagging around now.

I walked into the Entrance Hall and looked around for Albus.

I was shocked when I saw him talking to Caleb.

Caleb saw me first, waving before returning to his conversation with Al. Whatever they were talking about seemed a bit serious and Al had his jaw locked, just like he always did whenever he's pissed or aggravated or annoyed.

Well this could be an awkward encounter.

"Hey," I said when I reached them.

"Hey," Caleb said, giving me a quick hug. I saw Al glare at Caleb. "I'm going to go now." He turned to Al, who was still glaring at him. Caleb laughed. "Seriously dude? No. Besides, it's not me you were worried about remember?" Caleb clapped Al on the shoulder. "Just ask, mate. Bye Ads."

"Bye," I said, confused by that whole exchange. I looked at Al, who was glaring at the ground. "Hi."

"Hi," he said. "Where's Dom and Freddy?"

"They had stuff to do," I said, not feeling like expanding. "They'll meet us down there. Want to go?"

Al nodded and we headed toward the doors. I looked at him in my side vision and saw that he was still glaring at the ground and his jaw was locked. It almost seemed like he was debating something.

After a few minutes of walking in silence, I asked "Are you okay?"

Albus shrugged.

Okay then.

We walked in silence for a bit longer before we heard someone call our names. I turned and smiled when I saw that it was James.

"Hey!" I said, grinning at him and Annalise.

"Ads!" James said, engulfing me in a hug. "And my little bro!" He was about to engulf Albus in a hug, but stopped when he saw Albus glaring at him. "You okay, dude?"

"Fine," Albus said, though his tone suggested that he wasn't fine.

Annalise seemed to have picked it up, and instead of leaving it to James and I (smart...we would have made things awkward very fast. We aren't the best at conversing) she took over the conversation and stuck her hand out to me.

"I'm Annalise," she said as I shook her hand. "We've met before. Addie right?"

"Yeah," I said. "Glad that you came around."

She smiled. "If this thing lasts as long as James seems to want it to, we'll have to get to know each other better. Although I feel like I know a lot about you, because James talks about you so much."

"Of course he does," Albus muttered, scowling at his brother.

I looked at him, telling him to cool his tone. "Well I feel like I know you pretty well, since James talks about you so much too."

"I don't talk about her that much," James said quietly, turning red.

"Yes, you do," I said. "Whenever we're together that's all you talk about."

"Shut up, Addie," James said.

"Aww, James," Annalise said teasingly. "Do you really?"

"Yeah he does," I said before James could. "It's all he can ever talk about when we're alone together. And we're alone a lot."

Al snapped his head up from death glaring the ground and turned to death glaring his brother. "I knew it."

We all turned to look at Al in confusion.

"Knew what?" James asked, shrinking away from his brother's glare. "And why are you staring at me like that?"

Albus walked right up to James. "Stay the hell away from her, asshole."

And then he punched James in the face.

"Fuck!" James said, holding the side of his face. Annalise rushed to his side, offering help.

"What the hell, Al?" I asked him but he just glared at me and walked away.

"Oh, fuck, where did he learn to hit like that?" James said, holding his jaw. "And what the fuck did I do?"

"I have no idea," I said staring at Al's retreating figure.

"We better get you to the Three Broomsticks so you can put some ice on that," Annalise said. She wrapped her arm around James's waist, much to mine and James's surprise. James, however, realized that this may be a once in a lifetime opportunity and wrapped his arm around her shoulders, pulling her closer to him. "It was nice to see you Addie."

"You too," I said before they walked away.

I looked at Al's retreating figure and suddenly became furious.

What the hell was he thinking?

I ran after him and when I reached him, I did what every sane person does.

I tackled him.

"What the hell?" Al said into the snow.

I sat on his back and punched him.

"What the hell did you do that for?!" I asked him, still punching him.

"Why the hell are you sitting on me?" Al yelled. "And why are you punching me?!"

"Because you punched your brother for no reason!"

"It was not for no reason!"

"That's total bullshit!"

This pissed Al off. He pulled himself up, causing me to fall off him and into the snow.

"It's not bullshit!" Albus said, standing up and turning to look at me. He offered a hand out to me, which I took. "I know!"

"You know what?" I said as he pulled me up. I pulled my hand out of his grasp, too annoyed and mad at him to hold it. "What could you know that causes you to punch James?!"

"I know about you two!" Albus yelled. "I know you two are hooking up!"

"Wait, what?!" I asked him as I took in his words. And then I started laughing.

He thinks James and I are hooking up.

James. The boy who's been in love with Annalise since his first year. The boy that is like a brother to me.

This is too funny.

Albus, however, did not seem to find it funny and he walked away in a huff.

"Hey!" I said, running in front of him and putting my hands on his chest to stop him. "Don't walk away from me!"

"Don't laugh at me!" Albus said and I could tell I wounded his pride.

I rolled my eyes at him. "I'm not laughing at you, I'm laughing at that ridiculous accusation."

"It's not a ridiculous accusation!"

"Yes it is!" I said. "You think that I would hook up with James!"

"Yeah! Most people would!"

I scowled at him, suddenly very annoyed that he thought I would be like most people and hook up with his brother.

I’m not like most people.

I’m Addison Fucking Malfoy.

I’m the most unique bitch ever.

"I'm not like most people," I said. "I'm pretty sure most people wouldn't give the guy who has insulted them for the past six years a chance."

"Probably not," Albus said quietly, looking at the ground.

"Look," I said, moving my hands off of his chest and taking his hands in mine. "I have not been hooking up with James."

"Okay," Al said, squeezing my hands and resting his forehead on mine. "I'm sorry I-"

"But," I said, interrupting him. "I would be lying if I said we never kissed."

Al pulled his forehead away from mine and looked down at me. "What do you mean?"

Oh, and the locked jaw appears.

It must be that Potter jealously kicking in.

"It was when I was in third year and he was in fourth," I said. "I hadn't been kissed and I wanted to know what it felt like so I kissed him." Albus was quiet, as if he was expecting me to say more. "And...okay I snogged him too. It was really bad because I had no idea what I was doing and I couldn't look at him for weeks afterwards."

" snogged him," Albus said. "Did you like him?"

I squeezed his hands. "No. I wanted to snog someone and he was there and, while you will probably hate me for saying this, he was attractive. So I snogged him."

Al looked down at me, his jaw still locked and I knew that he wasn't convinced.

I stood on my tiptoes and gave him a soft kiss on the lips, not caring that this was our first public kiss.

"I didn't like him and I never have," I whispered. "Trust me. I have never felt anything for him. Especially not what I feel for you."

"You find me more attractive than him right?" Al asked, smirking slightly, all his jealousy gone.

I smiled up at him. "Of course."

"Good," Al said, giving me the smile that all his fangirls love. "Can't have my girl finding my brother more attractive than me."

"No," I said, teasing him. "That'd be terrible. What would the press say?"

"Who gives a fuck about what the press would say?" Albus said, leaning down. "I'd just be worried about your mental health."

"A common thing to worry about," I said, turning my head up so my lips would meet his.

And he was right.

Who gives a fuck about what the press says.


"Scorp and Rose aren't back yet?" James asked, moving my feet so he could sit on the couch.

I frowned at him and placed my feet on his lap. "Nope. They're probably off having sex somewhere."

"That's not funny, Ads," James said darkly before looking at the Entrance of the Common Room. "Well, if it isn't my abuser."

I turned and saw Al walking in, bags from shops in his hands. After our snog session, we hung out with Freddy and Dom before we realized that we had to do our separate Christmas shopping. I got back about an hour ago and put all my presents away, hiding Rose and Alice's from them so that they couldn't find them.

They always try to find their presents before the actual day.

I hid them exceptionally well this year.

I highly doubt they would look in my laundry bin.

No one dares to venture into the depths of my dirty clothes.

"Hey," Al said, sitting in a chair and dropping his bags. "What's up?"

"Not much," I said.

I expected James to say something, because there was rarely a moment of when he didn't say something. However, he didn't say anything.

Not even a peep.

I didn't know it was possible for him to be this quiet.

I looked over at him and saw that he was staring very intently at Al.

"James?" I asked him, but he didn't stop staring. Al finally noticed and looked over at me, a confused look on his face. I looked at James, trying to get inside of his mind so that I could understand him.

That might be very difficult.

Instead, I end up staring at him, trying to read his mind, he ends up staring at Al for whatever reason and Al ends up staring at me, totally confused as to what's going on.

We just got a staring circle going on.

You wish you were as cool (and creepy) as us.

And then, suddenly, I understood.

"Oh!" I said, breaking the intense staring circle. I looked at Al. "James wants you to apologize."

"Oh, right," Al said, sighing. "James, I'm sorry for punching you in the face."

"Explain why you punched him in the face."

"Do I have to?"

I raised my eyebrow at him.

He huffed and said, "Fine."


I always get what I want.

"I punched you in the face because I thought that you and Addie were hooking up."

There was a moment of silence as we both watched James to see what his reaction would be.

"YOU THOUGHT WHAT?!" James yelled, staring at his brother as if he lost his mind.

"It was stupid," Al said.

"I'll say," James said. "You thought I'd do that to you? After I told you I wouldn't when you told me you liked her?"

"I told you that in fourth year!" Al said. "I thought you may have forgotten."

"I didn't," James said. "I wouldn't do that to you. Ever."

"Well I know that now," Albus said. "Sorry."

"It's fine," James said. "Potter men do dumb things when they're jealous."

I snorted. "You mean like curse a first year for talking to the girl they like?"

James glared at me. "He was trying to make a move on Annalise. It was my duty to protect her."

"She hated you! And that made her hate you more!"

"Yeah well now she doesn't hate me! I figured it would make her love me."

I shook my head. "I question you Potter boys and your wooing ways."

"Why?" Al asked, smirking his jerk smirk at me. "My wooing ways worked on you."

"Only took you six years," I said, smirking right back at him.

"Minor bump in the road," he said.

I laughed as James told a story about one of his horrible wooing ways of Annalise.

I love my Potter Boys.

"Stop following me!"

We looked toward the entrance of the Common Room, wondering who was yelling.

And instantly my heart stopped.

It was Rose.

And she was yelling at Scorpius.

"I'm not following you!" Scorpius yelled back. "I'm going to my fucking dorm!"

"Whatever, I don't care what you do!" Rose yelled. "Why don't you just go hook up with Melanie again?"

Oh Merlin.

What the fuck did Scorpius do?

"I didn't hook up with her!" Scorpius yelled. "We went on one date, one fucking date, that meant nothing!"

"Well clearly she didn't get the memo!" Rose said. "Clearly she still wants you back!"

"Well that sucks for her because I don't want her back!"

"Yeah right! You probably were wishing she was me the entire time!"

"Yeah well you were probably wishing I was Ryan the entire time!"

"No I wasn't!" Rose yelled. "Because I like you! I've liked you for years! I don't know why, since your such a prat!"

"I'm not a-"

"You took me to the bloody post office!" Rose screamed. "The post office! That isn't where you take a girl that you say you liked for a date!"

"Oh like you have so much experience!" Scorpius yelled.

I cringed.

Out of all the things to say to Rose.

You do not bring up her dating life.

Rose looked at him, her face full of fury. "I don't have much experience because I've been stuck fancying you! I've been stuck fancying a jerk from a stupid Death Eater family!"

Scorpius looked taken aback. But I saw the look in his eyes. Rose hit him, in the one part that hurt the most. Scorpius spent his entire life trying to get rid of the Death Eater image that followed him everywhere. He thought that with Rose, his family didn't matter.

"Fuck you," he said, pushing past her and walking up toward the direction of his dorm.

"Don't ever speak to me again!" Rose yelled after him.

Scorpius stopped on the first step and looked over his shoulder at her.

"No fucking problem," he said before retreating up to his room.

Rose stood, rooted in her spot, and watched him walk up the steps. And her expression changed with each step he took.

She realized what she had done. And she knew that there was no going back and that she was never getting another chance with him.

Because if there was one thing Scorpius never gave, it was second chances.

Her eyes filled with tears as Scorpius went out of sight.

She took a deep breath right when Scorpius slammed his door and she ran up to her dorm, holding a hand to her face to stop herself from crying.

I looked after her and then looked in the direction that Scorpius went.

And I felt my heart breaking for the both of them.

I stood up and started but then stopped when I realized that I had no idea who to go comfort.

My best friend or my brother cousin.

"Hey," Al said, coming beside me and pulling me into a hug. "I'll take Scorp, you take Rose."

I nodded before kissing him on the cheek.

"Take good care of him," I said, pulling away.

"Take good care of her," Al said.

And then we went up the opposite staircases, going to comfort our best friends because of what just happened with our cousins.


The next week went by painfully and slowly. I didn't know time could move so slowly.

Scorpius and Rose's breakup (I guess it's a breakup...what else would you call it? A fight? Because that was more than a fight. It basically stopped their entire friendship) had an even larger effect on the group than when Louis cheated on Alice. Honestly, their situation is looking like the Golden Age of our group.

Scorpius and Rose wouldn't be within ten feet of each other. So, if they could, they would avoid each other and sit as far away as they could. They wouldn't even look at each other. The whole thing was ridiculous and made the past five years of mine and Al's fighting to look like what we did to each other wasn't hurtful at all.

Scorpius and Rose were both heartbroken.

And there was nothing anyone could do to change that.

"Scorpius, please just sit with us," I said on night at dinner. "I miss you."

"I miss you too, Ads," he said. "But you heard her. She told me to never talk to her again. I'm keeping my end of the bargain. Besides, I'd hate for her to have to be in my Death Eater presence."

"Scorp, you know she didn't mean that," I said.

Scorpius shrugged. "It doesn't matter. She still said it, which meant that some part of her brain has thought that before."

"Sometimes people say stupid things," I said. "Remember what Al said? It hurt, yeah, but I forgave him and gave him another chance. If I didn't, I wouldn't be with him now."

"It's you and Al, you always say dumb things to each other," Scorpius said. He sighed. "Rose and I aren't you two. I told you, that day at the Weasley's party that we wouldn't work. I knew that because I was the son of a Death Eater and she was the daughter of a Weasley that it would end badly. I always thought that I'd be the one to screw it up and maybe I did. Maybe I took a chance on something that was never supposed to work."

"Scorp," I said. "Please sit with us. I don't like having my best friend and my brother cousin not getting along."

Despite how upset he was, he smirked down at me. "Now you know how I felt for the past five years." He looked over my head at Rose, who was sitting next to Alice, looking absolutely miserable. "You know me. I don't give second chances."

"Not even to her?" I asked. "Not even to the most perfect girl in the world?"

Scorpius shook his head, looking down at me sadly. "Not even to her."

I nodded and pulled him into a hug. "I love you, Scorp. I'm so sorry."

"I love you too," he said. "You're the only person I'd give a second chance to."

I looked up at him. "Promise?"


And then he went off and sat with Ryan at the Ravenclaw table, feeling just as miserable as Rose seemed.

When we got on the Hogwarts Express to head back home for the holidays, neither of them sat with us, instead opting to sit with other people, probably for the other's sake.

"I just don't get it," I said, leaning against the window as the Scottish countryside passed us. "I don't get how they could go from perfect for each other to not even speaking."

Alice shrugged. "I feel bad for them both. They both look miserable and I sometimes catch them giving longing looks at each other."

Louis put his arm around Alice and pulled her close. "It sucks. Not talking to the person you're crazy about. I never thought that they'd not be speaking. I figured once they went on a date it'd be impossible to tear them apart."

"Me too," I said sadly, looking out the window. I felt Al rub my back soothingly and smiled at him. "Were we ever this bad?"

"I don't think so," Al said, leaving his hand lingering on my back.

"That's a lie," Alice said. "You guys were worse. We used to not be able to get through dinner without you yelling profanities at each other."

"At least we talked to each other," I said. "We didn't make it awkward for our friends."

"No you made it pretty awkward," Louis said. "With the amount of sexual tension you two had, we thought you were going to jump each other at any second. I'm pretty sure Scorpius considered killing Al just so that he wouldn't have to be scared that he might see Addie snog some guy in front of him."

"Well, I'm glad he spared me," Albus said.

I smiled and kissed his cheek before resting my head on his shoulder with one of his arms around my waist. "Me too."

The compartment door slid open and suddenly, we were bombarded.


"Oh my god, it's true!"

"What is he doing with her?"

"What the hell?" I said, wondering if I should get involved.

But then I saw Alice stand up.

She can take of this one.

I'll just sit here next to Albus.

"OI! SHUT IT!" She yelled and the group of girls was silenced immediately. "Now would someone like to tell me why you felt the need to interrupt our perfectly nice and peaceful train ride?"

"Well," a voice said and Erica Ericson pushed herself to the front of the crowd. "We had to see if The Prophet and Witch Weekly were telling the truth."

"Ugh," I said under my breath to Al. "It's your girlfriend."

Al made a disgusted face and pulled me closer to him. "Don't joke about that. You know I'm spoken for. We may not be official, but I have a girl that I fancy quite a bit."

I smiled up at him.

"I think the feeling is mutual," I said.

"Good," Al said.

"What were they saying, exactly?" Alice asked. The group started speaking at once, but Alice silenced them. "Does anyone have copies that we could see?"

And just like that, there were copies of each of the papers in front of us.

And in each, there was a picture of Al and I making out in Hogsmeade.


"Damn, guys," Louis said. "You two are really going at it."

"Shut up," we both said. I sat up properly, no longer leaning on Al so that I could skim the articles.

Oh, Al's hand remained on my back.

The fangirls noticed and each made noises of fangirling.

I ignored them.

The articles were similar. They talked about how Albus was and how we were caught making out. And then they talked about who I was. Oh look they even mentioned my mother. Lovely. And about how I was basically left by both my parents and now I live with Draco and Astoria. Great. I love everyone knowing about my fucked up family life.

Al must have reached that part because he started rubbing my back soothingly. (cue fangirl squealing)

Then they went on to speculate if we were dating or not. That was where the article in the Prophet stopped, but Witch Weekly went on.

They said that it was said that Al was off the market and then they even had a poll, asking if people thought we looked cute together (85% said yes we did). Then they talked about whether I was "worthy" of him (72% said yes) and then they said that they didn't know if we were for sure together and that they would confirm when they knew more because for all they knew, this was a random hook up.

"So is it true?" Erica asked us. "Are you her boyfriend, Alby?"

I clenched my fists, annoyed with her presence and the way she was batting her eye lashes at him.

She doesn't get to flirt with him.

He's mine.

Al looked at me, as if asking me what he should say. I didn't look at him, partially because I was too busy plotting Erica's death and partly because I didn't want to tell him what he should say.

He should say what he wanted to say.

And if that was that he was my boyfriend, fine.

All the fangirls looked at him, expectantly, and I sat there, waiting to hear, almost as eager as they were.

Was he my boyfriend?

"No, we're not dating," Albus said.

I would be lying if I said that my heart didn't drop when he said that.

And that’s when I realized that just because I’m his girl, doesn’t mean I’m his girlfriend.

"Alright, you got your answer," Alice said. "Now out!"

The fangirls left and Alice resumed her position in Lou's arms. I'm pretty sure Al expected me to, but I couldn't.

He hand moved in a circle around my back and I stood up, letting it fall away.

"I'm going to go sit with Scorpius," I said, casually. "I haven't seen him in a while."

Al stood up. "I'll go with you."

"No," I said, a little too harsh, and he stopped, taken aback. I made my tone more casual. "I promised him and Ryan that I would give them some cousin time. I've been neglecting them because of Rose and...everything." I avoided Al's gaze. "Bye."

I walked out of the compartment, the Prophet and Witch Weekly rolled up one hand, and started down to the front of the train where Ryan and Scorpius were sitting.

Someone grabbed my wrist and turned me to face them. I smiled when I saw it was Al, but only because I didn't want him to think something was wrong.

"Hey," I said, hoping I sounded happy. "What's up?"

"Are you mad at me?" he asked me. I gave him a confused look. "Because I said we weren't dating. Because I said I wasn't your boyfriend."

"Oh that?" I asked, flipping my hair over my shoulder. You know, like a chill person does. "Nah, it's fine. I mean, we aren't dating and you aren't my boyfriend. Why would I be upset?"

"Well you seemed like you wanted me to say that we were," he said.

No shit, Al. I fancy the pants off you, I snog you, I hold your hand, I cuddle with you, I do everything that a girlfriend does with her boyfriend. Why would I want you to say that you were my boyfriend?

"It's fine," I lied, pulling my wrist from his grasp. "Now I gotta go; Scorpius and Ryan are in great need of my company."

"Okay," Al said, though I could tell he wasn't entirely convinced. "Are you going to come back?"

"Probably," I said, putting distance between us. "Bye."

I turned around, hating the fact that I wasn't a good liar. Hating that he could see through me.

Hating him for not wanting to be my boyfriend.

When I found Ryan and Scorp, I slid the compartment door open and walked in. They were playing poker, the muggle card game that Ryan was obsessed with. I sat down next to Scorp and rested my head on his shoulder.

"Hey," he said, looking at me. "This is unexpected."

"Yeah, well I missed you."

"I thought you'd be spending time with your boyfriend," Ryan said as he collected all the cards together.

I put the articles on the table they enchanted. "Well, as Al told the fangirls who brought us these, we aren't dating."

Ryan and Scorpius looked at the pictures before looking away, disgusted looks on their faces.

"Ads, I don't want to see that," Ryan said, flipping them over.

"That's never going to leave my mind," Scorpius said, shuddering.

Suddenly, a piece of paper flew in through the open window and landed in front of me.

I picked it up and read it aloud. "Albus Potter confirms that he and Addison, commonly known as Addie, Malfoy are not dating. You heard it here first. Sincerely Witch Weekly."

I tore the paper into pieces and threw them out the window before sitting back down next to Scorpius.

"I hate him," I said, leaning my head against Scorpius. "I mean, yeah we aren't dating officially. I know that. But I like him and he likes me, so I thought that maybe, he'd tell everyone we were dating. And then I had to pretend like I wasn't upset because how was he supposed to know that was what I wanted? I guess..." I looked at my hands. "I guess I was hoping that he'd say it."

Scorpius put an arm around my shoulder and I leaned against him. Ryan came over and leaned against me, holding my waist.

"Do you want us to beat him up?" Ryan asked.

I shook my head. "He didn't do anything wrong."

"So?" Scorpius asked. "When has that stopped us before?"

I smiled and sighed. "It's fine. I don't really feel like going back anytime soon though."

Ryan kissed my head. "Well you're always welcome here."

I ended up falling asleep on Ryan's lap for the rest of the trip. He woke me before we pulled into Kings Cross, thinking that maybe I'd like to go back to Al but I decided against it. I decided to stay with Scorpius and Ryan, even though I'd see them in a few days for Christmas and there was a good chance I wouldn't see Al until the Potter's New Years party.

When we got onto the platform, I saw Al looking for me. He was standing with his parents, who were standing by Scorp's, but wasn't paying any attention to them. He was looking out at the sea of students trying to find me.

And that almost made me forget that he said he wasn't my boyfriend.


He saw me and made his way toward me, saying hi to Ryan and Scorp before asking if we could talk alone. He pulled me over to the side of the platform.

"You didn't come back," he said.

"I'm sorry," I said. "I fell asleep on Ryan."

Al nodded and we were quiet for a moment.

"Are you sure you aren't upset with me?" he asked me.

"I'm fine," I said. "Being upset with you would be like me being mad at you for telling the truth." Al didn't look convinced. "Al, if I was upset with you, don't you think you would know? Don't you think I'd be yelling at you?"

"I guess," Albus said.

"Then trust me when I say I'm fine," I said.

"Alright," he said, taking a step closer to me.

"What are you doing?" I asked as he slowly leaned down.

"I was going to kiss you," he said. "I'm probably not going to see you until New Years and I wanted to kiss you goodbye." He frowned. "Do you not want me to?"

"It's not that I don't want you to," I said. I wanted him to kiss me. But I was still annoyed with him over the whole boyfriend thing. If people caught us kissing, again, then they'd probably think I was a slag. "Your parents are looking."

Al stopped leaning in and looked at his parents, who were, in fact, looking at us.

"Dammit," he said, looking down at me. "This is why I was hoping you'd come back when we were on the train. So that I'd get to kiss you goodbye and not be stared at by my entire family."

His entire family was staring at us. Not just Lily, James, Ginny and Harry either. I mean his entire family. Teddy and Victoire, Dom's family, Rose's family, Freddy's family; hell, even his stick in the mud Uncle Percy's family was staring at us.

Scorp also got his parents and Ryan's parents to stare at us.

Although, Scorpius and Ryan looked more like they were glaring at Al.

"Sorry," I said. I moved forward to hug him. "Bye. Happy Christmas."

I felt him kiss my head. "Happy Christmas."

I pulled away and walked quickly past his smirking family and towards mine.

"Let's go," I said, grabbing Scorp and Ryan's hands and dragging them away.

"Alright, Al!" I heard Teddy say and soon the entire Wotter clan broke out in cheers.

I looked back and saw Al with his family, bright red and receiving many pats on the back as his family cheered at him.

"Do you want us to do that?" Draco asked as he pulled my trunk.

"Please don't," I said and walked through the barrier, pulling Ryan and Scorp with me.

A/N: YAY NEW UPDATE! Yes, it hasn't been as fast as my other ones, but I do have other stories to write.

I don't like the beginning of this chapter, partially because I didn't really know what to do. I'm sorry if Al's POV is really bad, but I wanted you to get to see things as he sees them. I love the ending though because I really got back in the groove of writing Addie. I didn't realize how much I missed her.

This is a pretty long chapter, over 7000 words. And lots of stuff happened! Scorose and Aldie/Albie/Adbus basically switched relationships.

What did you think of it? What do you think of Rose and Scorpius's "breakup"? What about Al and Addie's relationship? And the fangirls? Do you think Al will ask Addie to be his girlfriend? Do you think Scorpius and Rose will make up? What's going to happen on Christmas? Or New Years?

Let me know what you think in the review box! But keep them all appropriate, meaning no swear words!