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Chapter 7: Chapter Seven
I was laying in bed that night, wide awake from when Sirius and I had shared a relatively intimate moment. A moment that could never get back to Gilderoy. Oh god, how could I be so stupid?! I was in a relationship, I was with Gilderoy and I was meant to love him! Sirius knew that, oh yes, he knew, and he took advantage of it. That stupid ignorant Sirius Black! No wonder all the girls hated him! What was he?! A relationship wrecker! That’s what he was! And he was going to pay for this. I was never going to speak to him again, ever. Or if I was, I was going to go out of my way to be exceptionally unkind. How dare Black take advantage of me!
It was only a few moments after I wandered out of my daydream that I noticed kissing sounds from Lily’s bunk. I smirked to myself, it was about time too. And with that, I rolled over and attempted to sleep. It failed miserably, constantly thinking about Sirius and Gilderoy and the choice between the two. My dreams carried me away.
I began to imagine what it would be like if I was with Sirius. Sirius didn’t argue with me much, and he gave me that type of butterfly feeling in my stomach. That was something I couldn’t deny. Sirius Black was the first boy to make me experience jealousy. Something I’d never had with Gilderoy. And then there was the way he held me. And the way he kissed my forehead when we stopped hugging. And the way he tickled me, grabbed me unexpectedly and…
“Shit.” I said out loud. It was happening.
Everyone always said a boy and a girl couldn’t be best friends. Point made.
“Over thinking, Meadowes?”
I sat up and looked over to where the voice had come from. It was James. He had pulled away the curtains from around himself and Lily to look at me with a smirk. Next to him I saw that Lily was fast asleep. I looked back up at him and smiled.
“About time too.”
“She’ll be hating herself in the morning, don’t get too excited.” James said relatively glumly. “Just like she did the night by the lake.” Then he smirked a bit. “You and Sirius, then?”
I moaned and hit myself on the head with my palm. James laughed lightly, slowly moving out of the peaceful Lily’s grip and pushing himself out of her bed. For a moment, he turned and stared at her, in a look I could tell was pain for leaving, yet love for being so close to her. And then he turned to me and held out his arm.
“Come, lets go for a walk.”
I nodded, climbing out of bed and linking his arm. Together, we walked down the stairs from the dormitory and out of the common room. On our way out, we saw a figure, lying on the ground, clearly asleep. On closer inspection, we saw it was Snape who must have fallen asleep outside the common room after shouting for Lily for several hours.
After what seemed like a while of walking, we bumped into Remus on the staircase. And a rush of guilt spread through me as I realised that tonight my prefect duty was with him. Although, when we approached him, the look on his face was not sour, more like tired.
“Remus, I’m really sorry.”
“I understand the need for both of you to be in Lily’s company tonight, it really was no problem.” Remus said happily. “But get out of my sight quickly or I’ll take points off Gryffindor.”
“Yes sir!” James yelled happily before snatching my wrist instead and dragging me down one of the corridors in a hurry. When we reached the end, all there was in front of us was a portrait. James looked ecstatic at the sight of it, and I tilted my head at him in confusion.
“Tickle the pear.” James said suddenly, looking down at me with a smile. I looked back at the painting and at the pear. Then I looked back at James.
“And why would I want to tickle the pear?”
“Just do it, Dorcas.”
I nodded, leaning forward and reaching my fingers towards the pear. Feeling like an idiot, I began to tickle at the paint. The pear let out a screech of giggling and the portrait swung open. I widened my eyes in surprise and looked back at James who was already walking through the portrait hole. I followed him and was amazed by what stood in front of me. Hundreds of house elf’s were running around a giant kitchen. Making breakfast, dinner, lunch, deserts, starters. Everything you could dream of eating was being made and stored right in front of us. I raised my eyebrows.
A small, clean house elf in a bright pink hat approached James and I with a big smile on it’s face.
“Master Potter! What a pleasant surprise. Who is your lovely friend?” The house elf asked in a high pitched voice.
“This is Dorcas. Dorcas, this is Mini.” James introduced us.
I held out my hand and the house elf looked at James, as if for approval. When James nodded, Mini slowly approached my hand and shook it gently. Her hand was so small, it fit inside my whole palm. I couldn’t help but let out an audible aw as the house elf smiled happily up at me.
“Such an honour to meet another lovely witch, Miss Dorcas.” And with that, Mini turned away quickly and shuffled towards James. “Can I get you both anything?”
James looked around the kitchen. “Actually, Mini, I am rather hungry.” He smirked down at the little house elf before picking her up, as you would to a child, and bouncing her on his side. Mini shrieked slightly in happiness and I noticed the house elves look over in happiness. “Could you possibly get me and Miss Dorcas a hot chocolate and maybe some cake. Yes, cake.” James put Mini down as she nodded and the house elf scurried away in happiness, a little skip in her step as she did so. Two other house elves came after that and took James and I by the hand, leading us to a little room outside the kitchen. It was a small seating area with many knitted socks, hats and various other items of clothing like the ones Mini was wearing. In the corner, a few house elves were sleeping on a bed of clothes. The house elves sat us down on small, very comfy bean bags and rushed off again.
“Aren’t they wonderful.” James said happily, clapping his hands together. “I’ve been attached to Mini since the moment I met her. A young house elf you see, six or seven. Was only a little one when I first met her. She was in a typical pureblood family, abused from the moment she was born. When she came here it was like heaven. I simply couldn’t resist her. I’m her master, she beckons at my call.” James sat up slightly, proud. “Although, I’d never make her do horrible tasks.” He added quickly. “She’s not my slave, more like a really good friend. Who will do anything for me. As I will for her.”
“But house elves are selfless.” I inputted. “She likes serving you.”
James nodded as Mini returned with a slice of cake and two cups of hot chocolate. She put them on our laps and then rushed over to James. James put his arms around her in a hug, which Mini let out a little purr too before running off again to join the other house elves. As I bit into my cake, I looked at James in confusion.
“Why did you bring me here?”
“To talk about your situation with Sirius and Gilderoy of course, what else.” James replied simply, not looking up at me as he crumbled his cake into smaller pieces. “Oh, strawberry, my favourite.”
“There is no situation.” I snapped back. “I love Gilderoy.”
“Oh yeah, that’s why you spent half an hour making out with him.” James replied happily, putting a small bit of cake into his mouth and smirking at me. My jaw dropped. “If you heard Lily and I, what gives you the illusion that we didn’t hear you?”
My eyes widened, “Lily…?”
“Thinks he was making out with Marlene.” James said. “I’m not going to blow you and Sirius’ secret just yet.”
“We don’t have a secret!”
“Oh, course not.” James nodded, rolling his eyes. “Not that he’s been madly in love with you since the night he found you crying on the grounds. Not that he’s been hurting for the past six months or so, watching you with Gilderoy. Hey, in the summer, he defiantly didn’t stay up all night wondering what to reply to your letters and making me read them to make sure he wasn’t too forward.” James paused, “Not like he dumped Marlene for you or anything.”
“Shut up!” I shouted loudly, closing my eyes and biting my lip. “Please, stop it.”
“Why?” James asked. I could hear the amused tone in his voice. “Started to realise you like him too?”
And he said it. Said the thing I realised in the common room. I was starting to fall for Sirius Black. I could hear my throat clogging up, and my eyes were beginning to burn with the tears that were now falling down my cheeks. When I spoke, it sounded sad.
“You, you and your fucking Marauders.” I opened my eyes to look at him. He was staring at me, half with confusion, half with fascination. “That’s what you do, isn’t it? Whatever you want, you have to get it, don’t you?” I began to feel anger now, and I rubbed my cheeks clear of tears. “It doesn’t matter who you hurt. You don’t care of the consequences. As long as you get what you want, you’re willing to go the extreme.”
“Shut up, I wasn’t finished!” I yelled at him. James’ eyes widened but he didn’t dare to speak again, and he shut his mouth. “Snape and Lily could have been together, could have been happy. But you constantly bullied him. You made him feel so miserable. You complain about him, maybe turning into a Death Eater, but who do you think’s driving him that way!” I was really getting angry now, it was all spilling out. “What fucking good does Snape see on the so called ‘brave’ and ‘noble’ house? All that happens to him, is him getting tortured, humiliated! If that happened to me, I certainly wouldn’t be on the side you were on when the war came!”
“And then there’s you and Sirius. Together, you’re one of the worst pairings that have walked the earth. Causing mischief, acting like you’re such good humans because you look out for each other? When you don’t give a shit about anyone around you?” I let out a deep breathe. “I’m not surprised Lily doesn’t want you. I defiantly wouldn’t.”
James stayed silent, looking at me in shock and guilt. I started to feel the anger leave me now as I stood up, putting my untouched drink and only slightly eaten cake on the floor. James watched my actions, looking at me in pain.
“Dory, please, don’t.”
“Tell Sirius to stay away from me.”
“You’re going to break his heart, Dory. Don’t you get it? Yell at me all you want, I deserve it, I’m a cruel bastard!” James stood up too now, approaching me and putting his hands on my shoulders. I looked up at him. “Sirius is doing this for your own good. There are things about Gilderoy, things you should know, but you wouldn’t believe us.” James was very careful with the words he said, I could tell that. “He wants you to be the one that gets over him, before you find something out, and you end up dead inside. No one wants you hurt, Dory.”
“Then why is he fucking doing this, James?” My throat was swelling up again. You could tell from my voice that I was about to cry, quicker than my eyes. “Why can’t he just tell me?”
James pulled my into a hug and began to stroke my hair. I was so confused, so lost. I didn’t understand James’ words. But now I was worried, I was scared. And I was between two boys that loved me. Was I playing them both? Or were they both playing me? “If I told you, you wouldn’t believe me.” James pulled away, giving a deep sigh. “So… I guess I’ll have to show you.” He closed his eyes and bit his lip. “I don’t know if you’ll be able to handle it.”
“I need to know.” I said sternly. Whatever it was, I was sure I could handle it.
James nodded, reaching out his pocket and pulling out the same piece of parchment Sirius had the other day in Ancient Runes. I eyed it curiously and James held it up to me.
“This is our invention. We call it the Marauders Map. Peter came up with it.” James took out his wand and pointed to it. “I solemnly swear that I am up to no good.” And as the words came out of his lips, words began to appear, names, lettings, footsteps. James passed it to me, and I stared in shock. It was a map of the entire school, showing every students name, in ever year. In whatever classroom, on whatever floor. Everyone, everywhere. I read the front.
“Moony, Wormtail, Padfoot and Prongs?” I questioned looking back up at him in confusion.
“Yes, that’s what we called ourselves. But that’s another secret for another day.” James retorted smiling. “But you can know that, Moony is Remus, Wormtail is Peter, Padfoot is Sirius, and well, you can guess who Prongs is.”
I nodded and James took the map back from me. “This shows us where any student is.” He looked down at me. “Are you sure you want to know.”
“Yes James, I do.”
James nodded glumly and took my hand. Together, we left the kitchen, saying good bye to Mini as we left, who looked disapprovingly as she saw how much we had left, and walked into the corridor again. James then led me up a flight of stairs and began to walk me in the direction of the Ravenclaw common room. And I was beginning to get worried. However, before we reached the common room, he turned down another corridor and stopped outside a random classroom on the fifth floor.
The names on the map promptly vanished and he put his wand and map back in his pocket.
“When you go in, everything’s going to change for you.” James whispered. “Sirius won’t be happy, you’ll be miserable. What lies behind that door will change everything between you and Gilderoy, you and Sirius. Everything.”
“Do I deserve to know?” I asked. James stared at me before nodding.
“But you don’t deserve the pain which will follow.”
I took a deep breathe, pulling out my wand from my pocket and lighting it up.
“We were going to go a totally different way about this.” James said quickly before I went in. “It would’ve taken us months to put together, but believe me, I didn’t have this in mind.”
I just nodded before opening the door and walking inside. Promptly there was the scraping of chairs, moving of tables and the screech of a girl. I raised my wand. And I saw it.
Gilderoy, naked, with the girl he said was his best friend, Emmaline Vance. I could feel the colour drain from my face and my heart began to beat furiously in my chest. I felt sick, so physically sick. I stared from one to the other, and saw Emmaline was looking at me, ashamed of herself. And then I looked at Gilderoy. His usual pink cheeks had faded and he looked at me terrified.
“Oh, Dory, I-”
But I didn’t get to see how that sentence ended. I raced out of the room, slamming the door shut behind me. I promptly turned to James, who was twiddling with his thumbs nervously outside the corner of the door. I jumped into his arms crying. I didn’t feel like there was anything else I could do.
Gilderoy, was cheating on me? And from the way James was saying, it had been going on for quite a while. I had only ever kissed Sirius, and he was having full blown sex with her, lying about being a virgin and was going to go right ahead and take my virginity too. I felt sick, I felt ill, I felt faint.
The next thing I knew, my feet were lifted off the ground and I began to move. But I didn’t lift my head from James’ chest. We must have been travelling for a while, through my tears and ill feeling, and eventually, through some fog, I heard James’ voice saying the password to our common room. And then I felt the comfort of the sofa beneath me. And then James vanished, and that made me cry more. I felt alone, like no one cared. And then I heard a voice I wasn’t sure I wanted to hear.
“Dorcas, I’m so sorry.”
I opened my eyes from the tears and lifted my head up from my eyes, turning it to the side so I was resting it on my left ear. It was Sirius, and he was looking at me in deep concern and worry. I had to admit, I was quite relieved to see his face.
“You knew.” I said gently. Sirius nodded.
“I should have told you, I know. But I was so scared you wouldn’t believe me, and we made this whole plan so you could find out by yourself, and it would’ve taken us months and, oh Dory, don’t hate me.”
“I love you, Sirius. I need my best friend.” I said through my croaky voice. “Why would I push you away?”
“That’s what girls usually do.” Sirius remarked with a laugh.
“Then I’m not a usual girl.” I slowly sat up, pulling my knees up to my chest and staring into the fire. Sirius moved from the floor and looked at me in worry. “Hug me.” I murmured. And he didn’t need telling twice. He put his arm around me and I rested my head on his shoulder.
“James told me you were in love with me.” I said simply. Sirius stiffened and gave a deep sigh.
“I don’t mind.”
“Don’t tell me, I’m in the friend zone, right?” Sirius rolled his eyes.
“I think we’re a little past that.” I said honestly, looking at him. “But don’t expect me to jump at you now. It’ll be a while before I…”
“Get over him.” Sirius finished for me. “Yeah, I know. It’s tough, huh?” He leaned towards me. “Are you going to end it?”
“Of course.” I said without a second thought. “I was going to let him take everything from me and he’s doing…her.”
“She’s got nothing on you.”
I snuggled up to Sirius on the sofa, a mixture of happiness and depression sweeping over me all at once. I must have fallen asleep at some point along the night because the next time I opened my eyes it was daylight and I was back in my bed.
I gave an impatient sigh, checking my watch. I had been awake since James had informed me of Dorcas’…situation. And since I had put her back in her bed and retreated to my own dormitory, I had not slept. I’m sure I would have at some point, but my worry for Remus increased every hour. Tonight was the full moon, and he was restless. He was shivering, shaking, crying. In a way, the full moon couldn’t have come at a worse time. I was desperate to see Dorcas, spend time with her, make sure he was okay. I know James was exactly the same with Lily. But Remus needed us, his pain was physical and uncontrollable. And this month seemed worse than the others.
“Awake Padfoot?” I heard James say from his bunk. Drawing my curtains I saw James in his jogging bottoms, sitting on top of is covers staring down at the Marauders Map in uncertainty. When I drew my curtains, he looked up at me with a smile. “Good night?”
“I could ask you the same thing.” I replied wittingly with a smirk. James just sniggered, looking back down at the map in contemplation. Looking away from James, I turned to look at Remus’ bunk. His curtains were drawn already from where I’d constantly been checking him in the night and he was still shaking from the cold. I gave a gentle sigh, and jumped off my bed. I turned, dragging my blanket off my own bunk and pulling it over to Remus’ bed and chucking it over him, tucking it around him. I heard him murmur slightly, half in pain, half in gratefulness.
“Shh.” I replied, leaning over him and putting my hand on his forehead. “Prongs, do you have any wolfsbane?” I turned, looking at him. James simply nodded, leaning over to his chest of draws and pulling at a vial. And then he approached me and Remus. I helped Remus into a sitting position and tilted his head back whilst James tipped the potion into Remus’ mouth. Remus shivered but smiled. His temperature rapidly decreased. I put him back on his bed and wrapped the covers around him again. This time, he snored.
“He’s such a hassle.” James said jokingly.
“Mmm.” I agreed, walking over to Peter’s bed and drawing back the curtains rapidly. Peter let out a loud moan of complaint as the sunlight streamed through the window. “Wake up sleepy head!”
“Leave the poor boy alone, Padfoot. You know he’s basically albino.” James sniggered and Peter threw him a glare before looking back up at me in sadness.
“Take no notice, Wormtail.” I told him happily, hitting him on the shoulder playfully. “I need a favour from you.”
“Of course.” Peter said sleepily rubbing his eyes and sitting up in his bed. “What?”
“Tell Dorcas to come to breakfast a s a p.”
“Oh yes!” James looked over promptly to look over at our conversation. “And make sure Lily comes with her!”
“And why can’t you two do that?” Peter asked with a raised eyebrows.
“Wormtail!” I feigned offence. “We need to get ready! It takes a lot of effort to look THIS gorgeous!”
Peter rolled his eyes and nodded, slipping out of bed and leaving the room. As soon as he left, me and James did exactly that. We got ready. We showered quickly, not together obviously, straightened out our uniform, tamed our hair as much as it was humanly possible and covered ourselves in our nicest smelling cologne. All together, it took us a grand total of 7 minutes to get ready and Wormtail returned.
“You took your time.” James stated, sorting out the cuff of his shirt.
“Marlene and Dorcas got in a fight.” Peter explained quickly, shrugging. James and I raised our eyebrows at each other.
“A fight? About what?”
“You two snogging of course.” Wormtail chucked before retreating to the bathroom and vanishing out of sight. I looked over at James in annoyance but he was merely smirking.
“Don’t look at me like that. It’s not like I didn’t hear you and Lily sucking each others face off!” I snapped irritably. James held up his hands in defence.
“I didn’t say anything.” James said with a grin. “Did you feel it though? The chemistry?”
I looked at him sternly. His grin was beginning to fade into a genuine smile and slowly, I nodded. James stood up and began to jump around, imitating an excited teenage girl and I couldn’t help but laugh about feminine James actually was with his feelings, or his friends feelings. Especially when it came to love. Eventually, he stopped jumping around and smirked at me.
“Breakfast, my friend?”
“Did you even have to ask?”
Together James and I walked down to the Great Hall and down to our usual space on the table. The breakfast smelled and looked delightful and when we sat down opposite James, I promptly shoved 3 waffles and large pieces of bacon onto my plate staring down at it greedily. As I began to dig in, James laughed and I looked up at him whilst taking massive bites.
“Our first Quidditch Match against Ravenclaw is in two weeks. We should get a lot of practice in.” James stated matter of factly. “Maybe tomorrow, Friday, Tuesday, Thursday, and then Saturday. If I book the pitch for two hours each time, our team will be ready, don’t you think?”
“More laid back then usual, Prongs.” I remarked with a raised eyebrow. “Is something else on your mind?”
“Just the same red-head that’s always there.” James said dreamily looking over to the door. “Do you think the fight will be long?”
“Dory’s not the type to fight.” I remarked, shrugging, also looking. No sooner had I done so, two familiar figures were at the door. Dory and Lily were staring into the room, looking in different direction, both equally looking in pain. Lily’s focus was on the Slytherin table, her wary eyes scanning the room for any signs of Snape, whereas Dory’s were on the Ravenclaw table. Naturally, I looked to see where she was looking. Gilderoy had his arm around Emmaline, clearly not bothering to hide their affair anymore.
“I ought to curse him into the medieval years.” I growled irritably. James looked at me, then turned his body around to look at Gilderoy.
“Don’t worry, we can turn our pranks on him.”
“Oh? I’m surprised, I thought you’d want to target Snivellous now more than ever.”
“Yes, I do.” James bit his lip, looking back at the two girls who had now taken each others hands in support but hadn’t moved. “But Dorcas said that Lily would like me more if I matured. So that’s what I’m doing. Maturing.”
“You?” I laughed. “Really?”
“Shut up.” James murmured under his breath as the girls slowly approached us, Lily taking a place next to James and Dorcas next to me. “Morning ladies.” James spoke calmly, moving a plate next to Lily but not offering anything else or doing the usual flirtatious antics he did in the morning. Lily looked surprised and confused.
“Good morning, James.” Lily said in her most civilized voice as she began piling food on her plate.
“Hello Dory!” I said happily, putting my arm around her shoulders and pulling her into a hug. Hey, no one told me I had to mature.
“Oh, good morning Sirius.” Dory replied in a relatively happy voice, hugging me back briefly.
“I heard you were fighting this morning!” I remarked, moving away and shoving another waffle in my mouth. Dorcas blushed.
“Yes, and she’s not going to make a habit of it!” Lily said sternly, giving me a glare. I tried to say sorry through a mouth full of food which turned out a bit like WAWWY! Lily cringed in disgust and went back to her food.
“Why were you fighting?” James asked curiously.
“Marlene was under the impression Sirius and Dorcas were kissing!” Lily remarked with humour in her voice. “She wouldn’t believe me when I told her it was…well…someone else.” Lily began to blush but James didn’t seem to notice and simply nodded, giving me a wary look. I raised my eyebrows slightly, looking over at Dorcas who was hanging her head in shame. She hadn’t told her own best friend. Was she embarrassed of me?
I looked over at James who was staring at my fists. They had gone white from how hard I was squeezing them together. I didn’t realise how much Dorcas keeping it a secret had hurt me and made me angry. I didn’t expect it at all. I let out a deep breathe before abandoning my food and getting to my feet. Dorcas looked at me in alarm and James stood up too.
“What are you doing?”
The idea came to me so suddenly, I didn’t know why I hadn’t thought of it before. I wasn’t angry at Dorcas, I was angry at the one that made it like this. Made her miserable so I fell for her vulnerability. A boy that made me fall for her just because she needed someone else. If he treated her well, I would have left them be. And they would have been okay. But she was hurting, and that hurt me. More than anything.
Walking around my table and down to the Ravenclaw table. I heard James and Dorcas making complaints as I made my way, James taking several snatches of my arm, but I merely shrugged out of his grip. I was on a mission. Eventually, I reached the Ravenclaw table and stood behind a blonde haired boy, who suddenly looked at me in worry.
“Sirius Black.” He said, his voice shaking calmly.
And then my fist smacked his nose, making an audible crack, and with my other hand, I pushed his head into the table, causing others around him to shriek.
But I wasn’t listening to James. I leant over to whisper in Gilderoy’s ear, “If you ever touch her again, I swear to Merlin, you’re dead.”
And with that I realised his head, storming out of the Great Hall in anger. Of course, It wasn’t long before James caught up with me, grabbing me by my shoulder and spinning me around to face him. He looked angry, annoyed, yet impressed.
“What the hell are you doing, Padfoot?”
“Oh he deserved it.” I snapped irritably.
“Nevertheless..” James said, dropping his arms, “Why would that make Dorcas like you?”
“I don’t want to be her rebound, James.” I let out a moan of desperation and put my head in my hands. James gave a gentle sigh and pulled me into a hug.
“I know, mate, I know.”
Back to Dorcas P.O.V
I’d been through a whole day of classes and no sign of Sirius since he punched Gilderoy in the middle of the Great Hall. I didn’t know how to take it, but I was pretty sure he was now avoiding me. He wasn’t in Ancient Runes, or Herbology. Lily said the same about James, Peter and Remus. In fact, all four of the Marauders were missing, and that, on it’s own, was worrying. On a free period, Lily and I took a walk in the grounds to embrace the last we would probably see of the hot sun before winter took over. My head still hurt from where Marlene pulled my hair, but I didn’t complain to Lily much. She was still grieving about Snape. Whilst out in the grounds, I decided to check when Quidditch practice was, only to discover James had booked the pitch seven times for two hours in the next two weeks. I let out a growl, but was relatively happy that our first match was with Ravenclaw. I know who I’d aim for first, unless Sirius beat me too it.
“Did you kiss him?” Lily asked me suddenly as we walked away from the Quidditch Pitch.
“Well, lets say I asked you if you made out with James. Your answer would be the same as mine.”
Lily blushed. “Oh, you heard?” I nodded. “I don’t know what came over me. It’s James for goodness sake! He’s a horrible boy.”
“He’s trying to change for you.”
“I know. He didn’t even mention the kiss at breakfast, flirt with me, or do his usual ‘give me a kiss, Evans’ routine. In fact, he barley noticed me.” Lily bit into her lip. “It’s wasted effort, I could never like him like that.”
“Oh, definitely not.” I said sarcastically.
“Well, what about Sirius, do you like him?”
“Yes.” I said honestly.
“How long has this been going on?” Lily asked. “I’m not saying it’s right, you know, what Gilderoy did. But why are you better?”
“I didn’t shag Sirius for one. That was our first kiss.” I merely shrugged. “And it hasn’t been going on for too long. He’s liked me since the day he met me, and I was so oblivious that my feelings towards him weren’t just friendship, until he tried to kiss me.”
“When was that?!”
“The same night he had sex with Marlene.”
“And you wonder why she hates you so much.” Lily said with a frown. “Will he hurt you?”
“I don’t know.” I laughed. “Who says I even want to be more than friends with him?”
Lily started to answer, thought better of it as it may have contradicted her and James and nodded. “I think it makes sense, though. I never did understand why you were with Gilderoy. I’m here for you, you know? If you need a cuddle, I’m here for you.”
“I know, Lils. You too.”
It was Severus, of course, running across the grounds towards us. Lily have a sigh, leaning into me and I took her hand, tightening my grip around her calm. She smiled up at me and then looked sadly at Severus as he stood before us.
“Lily, please, just let me talk to you. Let me explain!”
“You broke my heart, Severus.” Lily said quietly.
“Let me fix it, please Lily, please!” Severus begged, approaching Lily and putting his hands on his arms. I let go of Lily’s hand, but she didn’t seem to notice, and I began to get worried. It seemed like eternity that Snape and Lily were staring at each other before Snape began to lean in for a kiss. Lily closed her eyes and for a moment, I thought she was going to kiss him back. I stared in horror, but as his face drew nearer, I heard her whisper.
“Good bye, Severus.”
She moved out of his grip, over to me and taking my hand again, dragging me out of the grounds and back into the castle. I looked back at Snape who stared in depression after us before we were out of sight. Lily didn’t stop walking until we were in the Gryffindor Common Room. Then she dropped her hand and turned to face me. I could tell she was on the brink of tears.
“James.” She said quietly. “I need James.”
I nodded, walking past her and up the stairs to the boys dormitory. I didn’t care to knock, the four boys had annoyed me from missing all their classes, and Sirius especially annoyed me for punching Gilderoy and not saying a word to me after. So instead, I pushed the door opened and entered the room. Abruptly, the four boys heads turned to look at me in shock and annoyance. But the one who grabbed my attention first was Remus. He looked drastically ill, his face drained of all colour, his eyes bright green but with tints of red round the outside. Black bags under his eyes, his forehead covered in sweat and his hair messy and untamed.
“What is it, Dory?” Sirius asked. It took me a while to drag my eyes off Remus and my eyes looked at Sirius for a brief second before I turned to face James.
“Snape tried to kiss Lily, Lily’s broken down again.” I said simply. James let out a growl and then turned to face Remus who simply waved his hand.
“Yes, go, there’s still a couple of hours left.”
“Appreciated, Moony. I won’t be long.” James stood up quickly and left the dormitory, shutting the door behind him. I looked back at Remus in worry. He simply smiled at me.
“What’s wrong with you?” I asked cautiously.
“Girls get to be ill and in pain once a month, why shouldn’t boys?” Peter squeaked. Remus and Sirius gave him a cold glare and Peter cowered slightly. Clearly Peter had said something they didn’t want me to hear. Was it a hint?
“I’m just under the weather.” Remus explained. He pulled a potion vial out of his pocket. “This is helping me.”
A look of horror must have washed over my face because Remus frantically put the potion away. Of course, he wouldn’t of thought I would have recognised the potion. Not many people did recognise the substance. But I knew it. Truth was, my father was a Werewolf, and he had to take that potion to stop himself from being in agony before the full moon. And suddenly, what Peter said made sense.
“Y-You can’t be?” I stuttered, slowly approaching him. Remus looked away in shame. “Moony. Moon. Werewolf. It all makes sense!”
Sirius and Peter looked worriedly from me to Remus.
“How do you know?”
“My dad’s an auror.” I said simply. “Do you not think he’s been attacked by a werewolf before.”
Remus looked up at me in surprise. “Your father is?”
“How have you got it passed Dumbledore?!”
“Dumbledore knows. He’s about the only one that does.” Remus said sadly. “Please, Dory. You can’t tell anyone! Anyone at all.”
“I wouldn’t dare.” I tilted my head in fascination. “I see you still haven’t got the illness in control.”
“I-” Remus paused. “You can control it?”
I chuckled. “Oh, not completely of course, my father still has a headache and suddenly has a craving for meat, but apart from that, you wouldn’t even notice. And the next day, he could still work as normal.”
“Remind me to ask you for your fathers contact details.” Remus murmured, giving a reassuring smile. “May I ask you to stay out of trouble tonight, Dorcas? You’ve been doing an awful lot of wandering of late.”
“Dory.” It was Sirius. I gulped and turned to face him. He was standing up, a worried look on his face. I hadn’t been looking forward to our conversation. “Could I possibly…talk to you?”
I nodded, giving another smile at Remus before leaving the dormitory with Sirius. Sirius closed the door behind us and gave me a serious look. I began to worry about what he had to say. I bit my lip nervously and Sirius put his hand on my arm.
“I don’t want to be your rebound, Dory.” Sirius said. I raised my eyebrows, about to speak, but he stopped me by putting his finger on my lips. “Anything that happens between you and me now will merely be a rebound from Gilderoy. So, I’m letting you know. We should still be friends, of course.”
“You’re…breaking up with me?” Was there a better way to phrase it.
“We were never together?”
“Yeah but you’re saying you don’t want to kiss or cuddle anymore because you think I’ll be rebounding.” I snapped back irritably. “Did you ever think that I cared about you? That I liked the comfort you gave me from kissing and cuddling. Lets not forget how I cheated on my boyfriend for you. That’s hardly rebounding!”
“Dory, you’re taking it the wrong way. I do want to be friends but I don’t want you to just…want me more now that you’re single.”
“I wanted you when I wasn’t single!” I growled irritably. “Why have you even brought this up! I wasn’t expecting us to immediately date. It is possible to like two people at the same time believe it or not.”
“Okay.” Sirius said shortly, rolling his eyes.
“Is that all I get?”
“Is this where we’re meant to kiss and make up and have a happily ever after? Yes, that’s all you get.”
“You’re unbelievable.” I stomped my foot like a child and put my hands to my head. “You Marauders are all the fucking same. James tried to convince me you were different, but you’re not! You just like messing people up, and when you’ve done it, you get bored and move on!”
“If that’s what you think.” Sirius said coldly before turning and walking back into the dormitory, slamming the door behind him. I let out a loud scream of frustration and banged my fists against the door in anger.
“I hate you, Sirius!”
“Oh stop being so fucking hormonal!” I heard Sirius shout from the other side of the door.
“Dory, you can go in you know.”
I turned. James was standing behind me, a lipstick mark on his cheek and a faint smile on his face. As Lily and him were getting closer, Sirius and I were falling more apart. He seemed to see the anger in my expression and his smile faltered.
“What’s up, princess?”
“Sirius Black.” I snapped irritably banging on the door again. I heard James sigh behind me.
“So much sexual tension.” James said loudly. I heard Sirius snort from the other side of the door. “Relax Dory, he just doesn’t want to be hurt.”
“I don’t want to hurt him!” I snorted. “I want my best friend.”
“Give him time, tonight’s a difficult night for us. He probably wants you to hate him tonight in case he dies tonight.” James shrugged.
“Why would you die?” I paused. “What are you planning?”
“Well, you know about Remus and everything. From what I heard.”
“Yes, yes. But why would YOU get killed?” I raised my eyebrows. “Are you…going out there with him?”
James rubbed the back of his head awkwardly. “Well, yeah.”
“Oh no!” I turned, storming through the dormitory and approaching Sirius. He rolled my eyes again. Behind me, I heard James close the door and cast a silencing spell. “You are not putting your life at risk, Sirius Black! You are not!”
“I do it every month, nothings going to happen.” Sirius told me with rolled eyes.
“And what if it does huh? Human legs are a lot slower then Werewolf legs!”
“We have our ways of hiding.” Sirius remarked, giving me his signature smirk I glared at him.
“I won’t allow it.”
At this, Sirius stood up and stood a few inches from my face. His was reasonably taller than me and had to bend down to be as close as he was to my face. And he had his devilish smile as he spoke again, “And how to you propose you’re going to stop me, Dory?”
“If you go-” I paused, stuttering slightly, “If you go, if you go I’ll, I’ll-”
“Good argument.” I heard James mutter from behind me. I sighed, lowering my eyes from Sirius’ and staring at the floor. I could still feel Sirius’ stare on me before I felt his finger under my chin, lifting my head up to look at him. And then he kissed me ever so lightly on the lips.
“You have bigger things to worry about tonight then me, dear. Sleep, you still need to make your choice.”
“What choice?” I asked quietly.
“You know, me or your Blondie.”
“You mean, the one that’s cheating on me?” I snapped. “Yeah, hard choice.”
Sirius seemed to smile at my words before steering me out of the room. He stood in the doorway and I stood on the outside. He quickly leant down and kissed me gently on the lips once more. It almost took my breathe away. And then he moved away to smile. “I promise you I’ll be fine. See me tomorrow? After you’ve broken up with Gilderoy.”
I knew there was no point arguing. I simply nodded, giving him a smile. And with that, he closed the door. And I was left to think.
Two weeks ago, Sirius was just a friend. How could so much change in such a short time? And what would happen with Gilderoy now I’d caught him cheating? And how long had he been? And how had the last 14 days been the most eventful of my whole life.
And the biggest question, would my life get any better in my sixth year at Hogwarts?
A/N: Hey guys. Sorry this chapter was so ridiculously long, but I needed to get everything in, because this is where the serious things start! Be prepared for Volderort, traiotrs, more of Sybil's predictions and a whole lot of hateful Quidditch! Please Review :)