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Chapter 9: What I've Done (Draco's POV)
My life sucks.
But it hasn't always sucked, for about a month, I had it all. I was a rich, good looking, pureblood Slytherin, dating Aria Merona. But now, I was just a rich, good looking, pureblood Slytherin. Not that I care much about those trivial things, all I care about is Aria. She's all I've ever cared about since the day I first saw her.
Let me tell you about how I met, fell in love with, dated, and lost Aria Merona. I'll also tell you how I completely destroyed her life for my own selfish reasons, but let's not dwell on that too long.
It all started on the Hogwarts Express. I was a short, twelve year old, who had a habit of bullying people. I realize, I still haven't kicked that habit yet, but I'm working on it. Anyways, I walked into the compartment that Potter, Weasley, and Granger were in, so I could make fun of them, and that's when I saw her.
She was sitting across from the others, laughing at something one of them said. I instantly fell for her, I know I was only tweleve, but you can't help love at first sight. But I quickly realized there was a problem, she was already friends with Potter,Weasley and Granger, my sworn enemies. There was no way she'd like me after they told her horrible things about me.
So, I did the only thing I could think of, I insulted Potter, Weasley, and Granger, and called Aria a loser. I didn't mean it,but it already came out, and the word 'sorry' was not in my vocabulary yet.
Aria glared at me and told me to get out, because my fat head was taking up the whole compartment. Needless to say, I was very impressed, she didn't seem like the type to have such a fiesty attitude. That made me like her even more.
So, I left, without insulting anyone, which was a first for me. I spent the rest of the train ride thinking about her.
When it was time for Aria to be sorted, I was hoping she would get in Slytherin, after all, she had an attitude worthy of a Slytherin, but she was sorted into Gyffindor. I watched sadly as she made her way to Gryffindor table, smiling, and happily taking a seat between Granger and Weasley.
As the year went on, my crush on Aria did no waver at all. I would do anything just to be within the same vicinity as her, I would take detours to class at places I knew she'd be. I sat behind her in class,just so I could stare at her without it looking too suspicious.
Unfortunately, I didn't exactly know how to act around her. I wanted to tell her how I felt, but the fear of rejection,and embarassment kept me from doing that. Not to mention, if everyone found out I liked a Gryffindor, my reputation would be ruined.
So when I talked to her, I either insulted her, or I was a pervert and I flirted with her. Which ever I did, I ended up getting insulted by her, which I took a sick pleasure in.
I did my best to make sure no one knew about my crush, but one day, Blaise found out. It was at the end of second year, and we were in Transfiguration. I couldn't focus,because Aria looked even more beautiful than usual that day, so I kept staring at her.
"What are you looking at?" Blaise asked.
"Nothing." I said quickly.
He looked over to where I had been looking. He turned back to me, eyebrows raised. "Were you staring at Merona?"
"No, of course not. There was, uh…a bee in her hair." I said. I realize how stupid and unconvincing that sounds, but it was all I could think of.
"Really?" Blaise asked, sounding unconvinced.
"Yeah." I insisted, "It just flew out of the window."
"Maybe I'll just ask Merona if she knows why you're staring at her."
"No!" I whispered frantically. I looked around to make sure no one was listening. "Look, I, uh, I like her all right."
"Like her, like you think she's hot?" Blaise asked.
"No, like, I really like her. It's more than just looks." I explained.
"Are you serious?" He asked.
"Yes, but please don't tell anyone, I'd die if Aria found out." I pleaded.
"What, you call her Aria? What happened to Merona?!"
I shrugged, feeling slightly embarassed.
"I won't tell anyone, but only because you're my best mate." Blaise said shaking his head in shock.
As the year came to a close, nothing changed, I was still crazy about Aria, and Aria still hated me.
For two months, I didn't see Aria because of summer holidays. I figured I'd get over her during holidays, afterall, she was just a good looking Gryffindor. Besides, I wasn't the same short twelve year old from last year. I was much more mature, and tall, and I no longer used obsene amounts of hair gel. And Aria meant nothing to me. She was nothing special, I told myself. I was wrong.
The moment I saw on the Platform of the Hogwarts train, I knew I still liked her. She wasn't the same person either, she was even more beautiful. I watched her with her family. She looked just like her mother, but like me,she inherited her father's hair color.
There was another girl, whom I assumed to be Aria's sister. She looked a year older and looked like Aria,but she wasn't nearly as pretty. There was a boy, about the same age as us, whom I assumed to be her brother. Then, there was another boy, he looked about a year younger, he was in a wheelchair.
I could tell him and Aria were really close. I could tell the boy completely adored Aria, he was constantly pulling on her arm to get her attention. And Aria would look down at him smiling. I looked at his wheelchair, I wondered what was wrong with him.
I turned to my parents,they might know, since from what I found out over summer, they knew the Meronas. "Who is that?" I asked gesturing at the boy, without looking obvious about it.
"That's the Meronas' son, I believe his name is Adam." My mother answered.
"What's wrong with him?" I asked.
"Oh, he was in a terrible accident last year, it paralyzed him from the waist down."
"So, he can't walk?"
My mother shook her head sadly. I looked back over at Adam, I felt bad for him. The poor guy was disabled. I watched as he and Aria slapped their hands together, it seemed like some sort of game. Aria noticed me looking, she looked at me as though daring me to laugh or make fun of her brother. But I didn't find her brother's condition funny at all.
When Aria realized I wasn't going to either of those things, she nodded slightly towards me, and then turned away. A few minutes later, her family left. Aria hugged Adam longer than anyone else. Then she left to go meet up with her friends.
Seeing Aria with her family made me somehow like her even more. I wanted to be nice to her, but my pride wouldn't let me. If there was one person who could truly hurt me, it was Aria, and she didn't even know it.
The year started off uneventful, except for all these girls hounding me for attention. Although they were pretty, they were nothing compared to Aria.
Then I heard about a party, that all houses were invited to, but I wasn't sure about going.
"You going to the party on Friday night?" Blaise asked during Potions.
I shrugged, "Probably not, I don't see a reason in going," I said.
"What if a certain Aria Merona was going?" He asked quietly.
My head snapped up, "She's going? I asked. Blaise nodded, "How do you know?"
"She told me." He said.
"You actually talked to her?!"
"Not, exactly, she really told the person standing next to me,but same thing. So are you going?"
I didn't answer,my mind was racing. Party meant drinking, drinking meant firewhiskey, firewhiskey meant Aria might be drunk. And if Aria is drunk, I might be able to get her alone, and maybe even kiss her.
The girls that were hounding me wanted more than attention, they wanted snogging. But I hadn't had my first kiss, and I wanted more than anything to have it with Aria. Maybe, if she was drunk, I'd be able to have my way and she'd be my first kiss. I had no idea if she had her first kiss, but I hoped she hadn't.
The night of the party I was nervous and anxious, I was hoping my plan would work. All I had to do was get Aria alone, and then kiss her, that's it. In the beginning of the party, a few sixth years, which included my Quidditch captain, Marcus Flint came up to me.
"Hey, Malfoy." Marcus said.
"Hey, what's up?" I asked, though I could really care less, I was trying to find Aria.
"Look what we've got." He said holding out his hand. I saw a little plastic bag that held small white pills.
"What are those?" I asked.
"Pills." Marcus replied grinning, "Slip these in someone's drink, they'll do just about anything." He explained, "And the best part is, they won't remember a thing tomorrow morning."
"Really?" I asked.
"Oh yeah. Here, why don't you try? Tell us how it works out." He said handing me a few,and walking away, smirking. This was perfect, a sure way to get Aria to kiss me.
Finally, I spotted Aria, she was in the corner with Granger, with a drink in her hand, perfect. I waited until she had a full cup to slip the pills in. All I had to do was walk casually by and drop them in, everyone was too distracted, or drunk to notice anything.
In a mere fifteen minutes, the pills had kicked in. Aria was stumbling all over the place, and slurring her words. I easily got her away from everyone else. I pulled her into the closet and turned on the light.
She was smiling drunkenly. "Draco Malfoy," she slurred, sending chills up my spine. I loved when she said my name. "To what do I owe this pleasure?" She stumbled a little and then regained her balance.
Even when she was drunk and drugged, she was gorgeous. "I just want one thing." I said stepping towards her. I had never been so close to her, and it excited me.
She cocked her head to the side. "You know what? You are really sexy." She whispered smiling widely.
"Really?" I asked, my heart skipping a beat.
"Yeah!" She laughed nodding her head vigorously. "But shh," she placed her finger on my lips. I couldn't believe she was actually toucing me! "D-don't tell anyone, especially Malfoy, I'd die if he found out."
We were so close, and I knew it was the perfect moment to kiss her. The wonderful thing was she leaned into kiss me too. When our lips touched, I was in ecstasy, even though Aria tasted like firewhiskey. She wrapped her arms around me, and pulled me closer, I pressed her against the wall, wanting to do so much more than kiss her.
I wanted to touch her, to pleasure her, to make her love me the way I loved her. But I knew I couldn't. It would have been wrong to take advantage of her when she was in this state. We kissed until I felt myself losing control, then I pulled away.
Aria had a dazed look on her face. "Woah," she said giggling. "That was my first kiss."
I was surprised, she was so good at it, I thought she had to have had experience.
I smiled at her, "Let's get you out of here." I said grabbing her hand as I opened the door. I led her a couch and sat her down, knowing she wouldn't stay very long. Then, I left her there.
The rest of the night was boring compared to kissing Aria. I managed to keep the girls at bay,at least.
The next morning, I felt weird, because I had kissed Aria. Not only that, but I was her first kiss,that had to count for something. When I saw Aria, I couldn't help but wonder if she even remembered kissing me. I think she did, because I could have sworn I saw her give me a small smile.
After breakfast, I was walking out of the Great Hall, behind Aria and Granger. I listened to what they were saying.
"I did that?" Aria asked Granger.
"Yes." Granger answered, "Don't you remember?"
"No, I barely remember anything." Aria said shaking her head. I felt a little guilty suddenly.
"So, you don't remember leaving the party?" Granger asked.
"Not at all, what happened to me last night?"
I happened. I drugged her,and now she doesn't remember anything. I'm a terrible person. I quickly went to the commonroom to tell Blaise about the night before, and share my guilt.
"It's no big deal." Blaise said after I told him how guilty I was feeling for what I did. "It's just one drunken night she won't remember, it's not like it was an important night anyways. It was just a party."
"What is she finds out what I did?" I asked.
"She won't." Blaise assured me, "No one will know but me and you."
"All right." I nodded.
"So,how was the kiss?" He asked grinning. "What was it like kissing the girl of your dreams?"
I couldn't help but smile, "It was amazing, I'm surprised all I did was kiss her,I wanted to do so much more."
Blaise shook his head, "Man, you got it bad." He said.
Yes, I did.
The year passed by quickly. I wanted Aria so bad, and knowing I couldn't have her had me in a depressed state. I stopped avoiding all the girls after me just to see if any of them made me feel the way Aria did. They didn't. I tried my best to like them, but it didn't work, so I'd stop seeing them, which is where I got my reputation of having my way with girls, and then dumping them. Everyone thought I was a player, but I wasn't, I just wanted to be with one girl.
Blaise saw I was depressed, and it slightly annoyed him.
"Why don't you just ask her out?" He asked me one day.
"Because she hates me, she'll say no." I said pathetically.
"Well, whose fault is that?" He asked.
"Yeah, yeah, I know it's my own fault. But even if she didn't hate me, she'd never date a Slytherin."
"There is where I think you're wrong." Blaise said. "I think she would."
"No way, she hates all Slytherins." I said.
"She doesn't hate me. We talk all the time in Potions."
Professor Snape gave us assigned partners in Potions, I was upset to see that Blaise got partnered with Aria, and I got partnered with Parvati Patil. I did notice that they talked a lot, and he made her laugh.
"I can see why you like her now." Blaise continued, "She is really pretty and smart and she's so funny and it's so cute when she talks in French, she mumbles it a lot, you know."
I had heard her mumble in French before, and you could hear a slight French accent when she talked. And when she was mad, I mean reallymad, you could hear her accent perfectly, and sometimes she'd start ranting in French. I had only seen her like that once, and unfortunately, it was towards me.
I had called Granger a filthy mudblood, and then I hexed her, and Aria went beserk. I didn't know what was happening, Granger was on the floor, Aria was yelling at me in French, and then she pulled out her wand, and the next thing I knew, I woke up in the hospital wing, having been unconcious for three days.
I never hexed Granger again.
I gave a Blaise a suspicious look, "Don't even think about it." I said through gritted teeth.
"Don't get your knickers in a twist, I don't like her." Blaise said rolling his eyes. "But I can assure you if I did,I'd have no problem getting her to date me."
"Actually you, would, Aria doesn't like Slytherins." I insisted.
"Let's make a bet then,shall we? Ten Galleons says she'll say yes if I ask her out."
"Fine then." I said confidently. I was sure Aria would reject him, so it didn't matter to me.
"All right then, I'll ask her out after dinner." Blaise said.
After dinner, I watched as Blaise pulled Aria away and asked her to walk with him. He winked at me as they left. I went up to my dormitory and waited for Blaise to come back, it was awhile before he walked through the door, a grin on his face. My heart sank.
"Guess who's dating Aria Merona!" He exclaimed.
"You're lying!" I said.
"No I'm not, now give my money." Blaise said holding out his hand.
"I'm not giving you shit until I see proof!" I said angrily.
"Fine," he said shrugging, "you'll see your proof tomorrow morning. Oh, yeah,and you were right, Merona is a good kisser."
I chucked my book at him. "Ouch!"
The next morning, I waited anxiously next to Blaise in the Entrance Hall, he had to be lying, there was no way Aria said yes to him.
I saw Aria come down the stairs, looking for someone. She looks over in our direction and smiles. My heart skips a beat, until I realize that smile wasn't for me. I watch in horror as Aria walks over to Blaise, wraps her arms around his neck and kisses him. Blaise wraps his arms around her waist,and kisses her back. I'm horrified.
When Aria's done kissing him, she turns to me and sees my expression. "What, you can't believe your best friend is dating a filthy Gryffindor?" She asked sneering.
I just shake my head, because I couldn't respond. She rolls her eyes, and turns back to Blaise. "Come on, I'm hungry." She says, grabbing his hand and pulling him away.
He turns around and mouths "Ten Galleons." And then he smirks at my expression,before turning around. I couldn't believe it, the girl I was helplessly in love with liked my best mate!
The day passes by in a blur. Everywhere I go, I Blaise and Aria together, either that, or someone's talking about them. It sickened me.
Later that night, when Blaise walked in the dormitory, I hounded him. "Where have you been?!" I asked.
"With Aria," he said shrugging. "She wanted some alone time. She really likes snogging, you know." A sly grin spread across his face. I was ready to hit him.
"What kind of friend are you?" I growled angrily "You're going around snogging the girl I'm in love with! What's wrong with you?!"
"Woah, calm down!" Blaise said putting his hands up defensively. "I asked her out, I've got to play the part. Don't worry, I'll break up with her in a week, all right?"
"You better!" I grumbled.
That week, in a word was terrible. Seeing them together killed me. I just couldn't believe Aria really like Blaise, it didn't make any sense to me at all. But finally, the week was over, and I was excited to see Aria single again.
"How did Aria take it?" I asked Blaise as he entered the room.
"How did Aria take what?" He asked.
"You breaking up with her, was she upset?" I asked.
"About that, um, I didn't break up with her." Blaise said not looking at me.
"And why not?"
"Er, how do I say this? Uh, I like her."
"What?!" I exclaimed.
"I like her." He repeated, "She's so amazing, I can't break up with her, I'd be mad to do that."
"Do you realize what you just said?!" I yelled. "You're telling me that you're not breaking up with the girl I'm in love with?!"
"Yes, I am," Blaise said calmly. "Look, I'm really sorry about this, but I can't break up with her, I really like her, I'm sorry."
"You are the worst best friend ever!" I said stalking out of the room. It took all of half an hour for me to go back and talk to Blaise again. I had realized I had no one else to talk to about Aria. So, unfortunately, I had to deal with Aria and Blaise dating.
It was hard seeing them together. I could tell Blaise kept the snogging to a minimum around me, though and I appreciated that greatly. Finally, after enduring four months of them together, the year was over.
I was even happier to hear Aria had put them on a break, since she would be spending the whole holiday in France and didn't want to deal with long distance. I checked with my parents to see if she was actually going to France. I was hoping to catch her in a lie, and have Blaise break up with her,but she was really going.
I made my goal that summer to get over Aria, after all she was my best mate's girlfriend. Even if I did see her first, and love her. I dated a few girls, broke a few hearts, and I thought for sure this time I was over Aria Merona. Again, I was wrong.
Again it was on the platform that I realized I wasn't over her one bit. I saw her with her family, again. She was laughing with Adam about something. I wished I could say something to make her laugh like that she had a beautiful laugh.
Her family left, but instead of going to find her friends, she made her way towards me. I could feel my heart pounding in my chest. My face became uncomfortably hot.
"Hey, Malfoy." Aria said as she apporached me. I got that chill like I always did when she said my name.
"Hi, Ari-um Merona." I stuttered nervously.
Aria didn't seem to notice, "Have you seen Blaise?" She asked looking around.
I shook my head vigorously, "No, he's not here yet. I'm waiting for him."
She looked down at her watch and shook her head smiling. "So typical of him to show up as late as possible." Unfortunately,she wasn't comlaining about it. She looked at me. "Is it okay if I wait with you?" She asked.
"No-I mean, yes! It's fine."
"Thanks," she said slowly, looking at me weirdly. We stood there in silence, to other people, we probably didn't even look like we were standing together. We probably looked like random strangers who happened to be standing next to eachother.
"How was France?" I asked in an attempt to not keep things so akward.
Aria seems caught off guard. "It was nice, thanks." She said not sure why I was being so nice. "Um how was your holiday?" She asked.
"Fine." I said. Suddenly a big smile spread across her face. I thought it was for me, but her attention was behind me. Then someone wrapped their arms around Aria, and was kissing her fiercely. It was Blaise of course.
Needless to say, I was quite uncomfortable. They pulled away. "I missed you." Aria whispered.
"I missed you too." Blaise said going in to kiss her again. There was something about the way Blaise was kissing her that I didn't like. He kissed her hungrily and his hands were much lower on her back than usual. Everything about it seemed sexual, and I didn't like it one bit.
They pulled apart again when the train whistled. "Hey, Draco, is it cool if Aria sits with us?" Blaise asked, already knowing what my answer would be. Of course it was cool Aria sat with us. It would be fantastic! But then, I'd probably have to endure nonstop snogging between them.
I shrugged and said "Whatever,I don't care." Then I started walking towards the train. They followed behind me, whispering to eachother. I found the usual compartment where Crabbe, Goyle, and Pansy Parkinson already sat. Pansy gave Aria a dirty look, and I almost yelled at her. I endured a long train ride of watching the two of them laugh, and kiss, and whisper to eachother. Not the best train ride.
The school year started, and I noticed that things between Blaise and Aria were becoming more serious. They would kiss longer, touch more, have deep conversations at lunch, I didn't like it. Two weeks into the year, I saw Blaise looking happy, one Friday morning.
"What are you so happy about?" I asked.
"Nothing," he said "Just excited for my special date with Aria." I rolled my eyes. I hated hearing about things he and Aria did together.
"Have fun." I muttered, hoping she'd break up with him.
That night, I was awoken by a small noise, a groan of some sort. I listened intently, but I heard nothing else. When I decided I had imagined the noise and I was going to go back to sleep, I heard a faint giggle. I assumed one of the guys had brought a girl up and they were fooling around. I went back to sleep.
The next morning, I woke up to whispering. I couldn't understand it. I opened my eye up a fraction and was surprised to see Aria standing there, wearing Blaise's shirt, and a pair of shorts. I was wondering why Aria was here so early.
Then I saw Blaise walk up to her with just a pair of boxers on. He kissed her and whispered "Is everything okay?"
Aria smiled whispered back "Of course. Last night was amazing."
Things suddenly started to click, Aria here extremely early, Blaise wearing only boxers, Aria wearing Blaise's shirt, the groaning I heard in the middle of the night, a girl giggling. Aria had spent the night with Blaise,even worse they had sex. Something inside of me died.
I watched as Blaise pulled her into a hug and kiss the top of her forehead. Then Aria whispered three words, I thought would kill me. "I love you," she whispered.
"I love you too." Blaise said.
I seriously wanted to die. If Aria didn't love me, or even like me what was the point of living? Why did I even bother to exist? I felt like my heart was literally ripped out of my chest.
That was the moment I decided I was going to get over Aria. I was done putting myself through so much pain. I was moving on from her and I knew exactly how...
That night, I walked up to Erin Saunders, she was a hot Slytherin girl that had her eye on me for quite some time now. I always found a way to shake her off, but not that night.
"Hey Erin." I said giving her a charming smile.
She smiled back seductively "Hello, Draco, what brings you over to me?"
"Well, I was hoping we could hang out tonight." I said.
Erin stepped so close to me, I could smell her purfume. "And what does hanging out consist of?"
"Anything you want." I whispered.
She kissed me. She tasted good, but nothing like Aria. I ignored that. "I want to do that." She said.
"Okay then, but how about we do a little bit more than that?" I asked wrapping my arms around her. She nodded, knowing exactly what I meant.
So, that night, I had sex for the first time with Erin. Afterwards, I felt nothing, I felt empty and I wished Aria was the one laying next to me. I continued seeing Erin for about a month. Our whole relationship was based on sex, which neither of us minded. But I started to feel guilty for using Erin for sex, so I broke it off. Luckily, she wasn't that upset.
The only problem was Blaise and Aria together, I couldn't take it anymore. I had to get him to break up with her.
"Seventy-five Galleons." I said one night.
"What?" Blaise asked.
"I'll give you seventy-five galleons if you break up with Aria." I said. I knew paying Blaise would be the only way. It's not like he needed the money, but he was greedy.
"You're serious?" He asked.
I nodded. "I can't take it anymore."
"All right then, I'll do it." Blaise said.
"Really?" I asked shocked.
"Yeah," he said, "I should have never gone out with her in the first place. I'm a bad friend."
The next day, Blaise broke up with Aria. She didn't cry, she didn't beg him for another chance, she didn't ask what she did wrong. She nodded, said she understood, and walked away.
Everyone could tell Aria was a mess after the break up, but not once did I see her cry. She was being strong, considering she loved Blaise and all. Out of respect for Aria, Blaise kept his next few relationships a secret.
Soon enough, Aria was looking happy again and she was laughing. Oh, how I had missed her laugh. I started being a little nicer to her, I didn't insult her as much, and sometimes I smiled at her. I thought maybe if I was nicer to her she'd like me the way she did Blaise.
It didn't take very long for me to realize I had a bit of competition. Cedric Diggory, the seventh year Hufflepuff pretty boy, and a Triwizard Champion. Not only that, but he was a prefect, and captain of the Hufflepuff Quidditch team, I couldn't compete with that.
Then I heard about the Yule Ball,and I wanted to ask Aria, but pretty boy Diggory was in the way. I had to get rid of him.
"Hey, Diggory, who are you going to the ball with?" I asked.
He gave me weird look "Um, a girl." He said.
I rolled my eyes. "I'm not asking because I want to go with you,you're not that good looking, you know. Just tell me who you're going to ask."
"What if I paid you seventy-five galleons not to?" I asked.
"Are you serious?" He asked. Why does everyone always ask me that? Do I sound like I'm joking?
"Yes." I said seriously.
"Uh, I don't know, I really like Aria." Diggory said.
"One hundred galleons." I said.
Diggory looked torn. "Fine." He said finally. "Now I have to find a new date."
"Ask Cho Chang, she won't shut up about you." I said before walking away, feeling pleased with myself.
I thought for sure I was going to be Aria's date to the ball then I'd ask her to be my girlfriend, and everything would be perfect. Of course it didn't work out. I hadn't anticiapated that Weasel asking her. And she said yes! Therefore, I was forced to go with Pansy.
The night of the ball, Aria looked so beautiful, in her purple dress. Unlike Pansy who had a hideous ruffled pink dress.
I watched as Aria and Weasley danced all night. She was laughing and smiling so much. Then I watched as near the end of the dance Weasley pulled her away from everyone. He took her hand in his and asked her something. She smiled and nodded and then they kissed.
My stomache dropped. Aria was dating the Weasel, and there was nothing I could do about it. I couldn't pay him to break up with her. As much as he needed the money, he would never take it from me. So there I had lost Aria to Weasley. How pathetic is that?
The rest of the year went on uneventfully. Aria and the Weasel continued dating. She seemed really happy, but I couldn't help but notice that Granger didn't.
One day I was sitting in the library, watching Aria with Weasley and Granger across the way. I watched as Aria and Weasley left leaving Granger alone. She got up and went to the back of the library. I looked down at the Charms book I paid no attention too. I was thinking about how Aria had looked at me a few minutes ago.
A few minutes later I heard sniffling from the back, I went to investigate. I saw Granger on her knees crying on the floor. I actually felt bad.
"Hey," I said akwardly, "What's wrong?"
She looked up startled, "What do you care Malfoy?" She asked.
I shrugged. "You seem really upset. Why?"
She sighed wiping her eyes. Then she stood up and straightened herself out, clearly trying to maintain some dignity. "If you must know, I'm crying because I love Ron and he's dating my best friend and there's nothing I can do about it."
I felt sympathy for Granger, because I knew exactly how she felt. Suddenly, a brilliant idea came to me. "Well, if you really love Weasley, you should fight for him." I said.
"What do you mean?" She asked.
"Well, what if he feels the same way? I mean, I bet if you didn't go to the ball with Krum, Weasley would have asked you,and you two would probably be together. He thinks you don't like him, so he's staying with Aria. But I bet if you told him how you felt, he'd dump Aria and get with you."
She stared at me suspiciously "You're being nice, why? What's in it for you?"
"Nothing," I said innocently. She glared at me disbelievingly. I sighed "Fine, the truth is, I'm in love with Aria." I said.
A shocked expression came across Granger's face. "Really?!" She asked.
I nodded. "Don't tell anyone especially Aria." I said desperately, not believing I really told her I loved Aria.
"I won't." She said. "So, by me and Ron getting together, you're hoping Aria will like you?"
"Yes." I said truthfully. "Are you going to try and get Weasley?"
"I think I will. Thanks Malfoy." She said composing herself and walking away.
During the summer, I was excited for school to start back up. Aria would once again be single, and I'd have another chance to win her over.
What was even better was I was made a prefect. That had to impress Aria. I was happy to see she had also been made a prefect. What I wasn't happy to see was that Aria and Weasley were still together. I thought Granger was going to break them up. But what was weird was that Granger looked happier than she had in a long time. It didn't make any sense.
A few months passed, and nothing changed, Aria and Weasley were still together, Granger still looked happy, and I was upset.
One November afternoon, I was talking to Blaise about Aria. I was telling him everything I had done to be with her, and asking him why nothing had worked when Weasley came out of nowhere. He had a smirk on his face, I knew he had heard everything. My stomache twisted in knots at the thought of Aria finding out what I did.
"Interesting what you hear when you listen to two Slytherins talking." Weasley said before walking off, still smirking.
Blaise and I looked after him, with wide eyes we both knew I was deep trouble. The whole day I waited for Aria to come up to me and punch me in the face or hex me into next month, but it didn't happen. Weasley was keeping it to himself, but why?
A few days later, I was standing in the Entrance Hall with Blaise, looking over at Weasley and Granger, Aria was nowhere in sight, something wasn't right about that. I watched as Weasley leaned down and whispered something in Granger's ear, and she giggles. Then it hits me: Weasley was cheating on Aria with Granger. It all made sense now, Granger being happy, the two of them alone without Aria.
I couldn't believe it, how dare he? Didn't he realize how good he had it? He had the perfect girl and he was cheating on her with some filthy mudblood. And Aria didn't even know it, or that's what I thought.
A few minutes later Aria stormed into the Entrance Hall. "How could you do this to me?!" She screamed at Weasley. Weasley says something, and then there's more screaming. Then Granger is crying, and Aria is yelling at her. After more screaming,Aria storms off. I'm shocked.
Weasley gets Granger to stop crying and then he walks up to me. "We need to talk." he says.
We go into an empty hallway. "I have a deal for you," he started "I won't tell Aria, or anyone else what you've done if and only if you sleep with Aria."
"What?" I asked.
"Sleep with Aria, help her get over me, and then dump her like you do with all the other girls, and no one will ever find out what you did. Do we havea deal?"
I stared at him for a moment. This could potentially hurt Aria, but not as much as finding out what I did. I sighed, "Fine, we have a deal." I said.
"Good. Do it within the next few days if you can. And don't have too much fun when you have sex with her, remember, it's just business." He walked off looking pleased with himself.
How the hell was I supposed to get Aria to sleep with me?
The day seems to go by fast. I spend the day trying to figure out how I could get Aria to sleep with me. I couldn't just walk up to her and say "Hey, wanna go back to my room and have sex?" That would get me a slap to the face and knee in between my legs. I wanted to avoid that at all costs if I could.
While I was walking around thinking, I bumped into someone. I saw that it was Aria. I immediately sneered at her and said "Watch it Merona." But only because I still didn't know how to act around her.
Suddenly she hugged me,I was completely shocked. "Um, Aria, are you all right?" I asked, knowing she wasn't.
"No!" She cried. My heart broke at the sound of her voice, so sad, so broken, she didn't deserve that.
"Well, what's wrong?" I asked, again, already knowing.
She pulled away from me, which I wish she didn't, and for the first time ever, I saw her crying. Her face was tear stained, her eyes red and puffy, but she had never looked so beautiful. That was the moment I truly fell in love with her.
She told me about finding out Weasley cheating on her with Granger, and by the end of the story, she's bawling, and she can't get her words out.
"Why don't we go to my room, we can talk there." I said leading her to the dungeons. I wanted a place where we could be alone, and no one could interupt. When we get to my dormitory, I sit Aria down on my bed, close the curtains around my bed, and do the Muffliato spell, so no one can hear what we're saying if someone were to come up.
I ask her questions like if she suspected Weasley of cheating, and if she even knew Granger liked him. She nods or shakes her head, since she's crying too hard to respond. I want to make her feel better, so I put my arm around her and rub her arm soothingly.
All I can say after I'm done asking questions is "Weasley's a fool!" Then I realize how close we are, and how good she smells and how perfect her lips are, and I can't control myself, I lean in to kiss her. And she actually kisses me back.
Soon, I lose control of my hands,and they start wandering all over her body, and she doesn't even care, she just lets me. I move my lips down to her neck, wanting to kiss every inch of her.
She's moaning with pleasure,and I'm loving the fact that I make that happen. I push her down on the bed and climb on top of her,not breaking the connection. I was scared if I did Aria would realize what was happening and hex me and leave.
I kiss her on the lips again, and I start unbottoning her shirt. I'm waiting for Aria to push me off of her, but she doesn't. I take her shirt off, and I can't believe how perfect her body is. As I feel her, I moan with pleasure. I had never wanted her more than I did at that moment.
Aria takes my shirt off, and I know we're going to have sex, or I hope so. The way my skin feels on hers is amazing, it feels so soft. She starts kissing my neck, and I have to grip the headboard in order for me not to lose control. Because at that moment, I wanted to rip the rest of her clothes off and have my way with her.
Clothes continue to come off and now I'm positive we're going to have sex, but I don't want to do it unless she does. "Aria?" I whispered in her ear, "Do you want me to stop?"
"No." She whispered back.
"Good cause I wasn't going to." I say honestly.
Soon it's happening, and it's the most pleasurable thing I'd even experienced.
The next morning, I woke up with the feeling of someone's head on my chest. I look down to see Aria sleeping. I chuckle,because I can't believe I actually slept with her. Then I whispered "Finally."
Aria stirred and woke up. I turned into the cocky Draco Malfoy that Aria knew me as. She said the night before was interesting and surprisingly pleasurable. I was very pleased that I pleasured her.
We walked to the Great Hall together, and before entering, Aria turned to me and said, "What happened last night, where does that leave us?"
I pulled her closer and said "No clue." Even though I knew where I wanted it to leave us. Then she kissed me.
"I'll let you think it over then." She said walking into the Great Hall, smirking.
I walked into the Great Hall, somewhat dizzy from the kiss Aria had given me. Only then, when I saw Weasley and Granger together, and Aria staring at them do I remember the deal I made with Weasley.
I realize I've already done half of what Weasley told me to do. Now I was supposed to dump Aria. But I couldn't, I mean who said I had to tell Weasley we slept together? I could pretend we didn't yet and then figure out what to do later, but I had to talk to Aria alone.
So, after breakfast,I found Aria with Weasley and Granger in the Entrance Hall. I go up to them and insult Weasley and Granger a bit to make Aria feel a little better, and it works,because I saw her smiling. I flirted with her a bit, and she flirted back, which never happened. I slipped her a note telling her to meet me in the Third Floor Corridor the next day.
Later that day Weasley approached me.
"What was what happened after breakfast about?" He asked.
"I was doing what you told me to do," I lied. "I was giving Aria a note telling her to meet me tomorrow, we'll talk a little, have sex, and then I'll dump her and the deal will be done."
"Good." Weasley said.
I was anxious the next day, I didn't know if Aria would meet me or not. When I saw her in Potions I winked at her. I was trying not to seem so nervous and worked up, but that was all I was.
I sent her another note telling her to meet me in the beginning of lunch, since I had a lot to talk to her about.
When the time came, I was so nervous, my hands were shaking. I waited a few minutes before heading over, I didn't want to seem too eager. When I got there, I saw Aria looking as though she was about to leave. She turned around and saw me, and I took a step towards her, she backed up.
I lied and said I knew she'd come. She said she only came because she was in the general area, but I knew she was lying, but I didn't say that. I had her backed into a wall, and she asked me what I wanted and I said I was looking at her. Then I kissed her, and again, I was shocked when she kissed me back.
We had sex yet again, and missed the rest of our classes, but I could care less. Afterwards, I told her I wanted her and she was shocked. She thought I was going to treat her like the other girls and have my way with her and then be done with her.
That's what I was supposed to do, it was part of the deal, but how could I let go of the girl I loved? I couldn't, so I didn't. I told her how I felt about her, how I'd always felt about her,and again she was shocked.
Then I plucked up the courage and told her I wanted to be her boyfriend. She told me I should ask her, so I did, and she said yes.
And that began the beginning of our wonderful relationship. I convinced Aria that it should be a secret,she easily agreed. So, I told Weasley that I followed through on the deal, and he believed it.
Being with Aria was amazing, even if I did have to sneak around to see her. I loved being able to touch and kiss her when we were alone. I had never been so happy, Blaise noticed, so I told him what was going on. He was happy to see all my hard work had finally paid off.
About a week and a half into the relationship, I noticed something weird. Aria had bruises on her back, her neck, and on her arms. I was worried someone was hurting her, so I asked where she got them from. She said they were from me, and I was shocked. It didn't make sense, I would never hurt her like that. Then I realized it was from when I'd get a little excited and agressive when we'd fool around.
I'd press her up against walls roughly, grip the sides of her arms, bite her neck. I didn't mean to, but it was so hard to control myself around her. For a moment, I thought she might break up with me for it, but she didn't mind very much. She said it didn't hurt.
As our relationship continued, I found myself falling even more in love with Aria. Finding out who she was made me want to be with her more. I found out that other than her family, and Granger, I was the only person to ever see her cry. It made me.feel special.
She hated crying infront of people, it made her feel weak and pathetic.
A month into our relationship, I told Aria I loved her. I hadn't planned on it, but she said it first and then tried to take it back. She didn't believe I loved her at first, she said I barely knew her. So, I started telling her everything I knew about her, which happened to be a lot.
Somehow, our first kiss came up. I got nervous, and I wanted to tell her what I'd done. When she leaned in to kiss me, I pulled away, ready to tell her the truth. But I got scared, I knew she'd leave me, and there was no way she'd believe I loved her after. So, I didn't tell her, but promised myself I would tell her soon enough.
I finally got her to believe I loved her. And when she said she thought she loved me too,I had never been so happy, but I had also never felt so guilty.
Later that day, I got a letter from Weasley telling me to meet him. I figured he wanted to make another deal. When I met him,I asked him what the meeting was about. He was angry and told me he thought we had a deal.
I told him we did and that I'd slept with Aria like he told me to. He told me he found out that were together. I asked him how he knew, and he said he had tried to get back with Aria, but she told him she was with me. Then Weasley told me if I didn't break up with her the next day he'd tell her everything. I told him I would. My mind was racing, thinking about how I would be able to keep Aria.
Suddenly, I saw Aria over Weasley's shoulder,by the look on her face, she had heard everything we just said. I thought Weasley had set me up, but he was shocked to see her. He told her she shouldn't have followed him.
She doesn't even register he said anything. She just continues to come towards me, with tears in her eyes. I try to say something, but nothing comes out.
"How could you do this to me?" She asked shaking her head.
I tried to explain that it wasn't how it sounded but she interupted me.
"You lied to me Draco, you manipulated me, and made me think you loved me."
Her words rang in my ear. Manipulated. She thought I manipulated her. That made me sound so horrible.
I was desperate to have her believe me. I pulled her towards me and tried to kiss her to to prove to her I truly did love her, but she turned away. I was hurt. I told her I didn't lie, and that Weasley was blackmailing me.
She said it didn't matter, and that I did it anyways, and I didn't care about her. The tears were falling down her face. I couldn't believe it, before I was one of the only people who had seen her cry, and now I was the one making her cry, it killed me.
I also realized Aria's lack of stong French accent when she was angry. Because at that moment she was beyond angry, she was destroyed. I had destroyed her. I hurt her when I promised I never would.
I tried to tell her that wasn't true and that she was all I cared about,but she wasn't listening, she told me to tell her what Weasley was blackmailing me with. But I couldn't. I couldn't bear to have her look at me with disgust. I desperately told her I loved her.
"I don't believe you." She said backing away from me. Then Weasley led her away. I looked after them, even after they were no longer in sight. I dropped to my knees, defeated, broken,destroyed. And I cried for hours on my knees, hoping Aria would come back and tell me she loved me. But she didn't.
I barely remember what happened the rest of the week. All I knew was that I wasn't with Aria anymore, and it killed me. I needed her. So I went to Granger, I asked her what the password for the Gryffindor commonroom was. She told me I was mental. I told her it would break Weasley and Aria up. She gave me the password.
When I enter, I see Aria sleeping on the couch. She's muttering in her sleep, which she does sometimes. I wake her, she punches me in the face. It hurts just like I'd always imagined it would. I explain I'm there because I missed her and things weren't right anymore.
And I tell her I'm there because I'm going to tell her what I'd done. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. After telling her about convincing Granger to get Weasley, Aria tells me to leave. And I'm tempted, but I had to tell her everything. I had to tell her about the party,the thing that started it all.
After that Aria is digusted with me, she can't even look at me. But she says she believed I loved her. I had a tiny bit of hope in me, until she said she didn't forgive me. So I got up to leave but she told me to kiss her before I left.
I walked up to her and kissed her with as much passion and love as I could. I put everything I had into the kiss, I wanted to make sure she knew I loved her with everything I had. I whispered I loved her and she told me to leave.
The weeks following were horrible, I wanted Aria back so bad. Sometimes I thought of getting down on my knees and begging her to take me back, swearing up and down I would never hurt her again. But I knew she needed time to think, so I gave it to her.
During this time, Pansy was trying to capture my attention. I was avoiding her, because all I could think about was Aria. But soon, I got tire of Pansy's advances, so I agreed to go out with her. But I told her we needed to keep it quiet. I wanted to make sure I'd be available if Aria decided to take me back.
And one day, she was ready. I was getting ready to enter the Great Hall when I heard "Draco, wait!"
I immediately know it's Aria. I turn to see her running towards me. When she reaches me, she flings her arms around my neck and kisses me. The world suddenly seemed right again, and everything was perfect. When Aria pulled away, she started speaking quickly.
"Draco, I'm so sorry about everything that's happened between us. I know you did all that stuff because you wanted me, and I realize all that stuff led me to be with you. And I'm happy about that, and I've missed you…" she paused, and I knew what was coming next. She was going to say she loved me.
"And Draco, I lo-"
"Um,Merona, what are you doing all over my boyfriend?!" Pansy's voice said.
No! What was she doing?!
"Boyfriend?" Aria asked. Pansy nodded,glaring at her. Aria immediately let go of me. I literally wanted to kill Pansy. I tell her to give us a minute. She walks away giving Aria a cold look.
"Um,so what were you saying?" I asked Aria. She said nothing, and that it wasn't important anymore. I can see the tears filling her eyes, and I can't believe I hurt her again. She turns to walk away. I tell her to wait.
She says we both needed to stop waiting, and since I'd moved on, she should too. Then she ran away.
After that, things continued to go down hill. Pansy didn't dump me, unfortunately,but I supposed being with her was better than being alone. Aria avoided me like a plague, I couldn't focus on anything other than my sadness over losing Aria yet again.
The day of the Quidditch Final my head isn't in the game. My whole life was a mess. I didn't care about Quidditch. I watched as Aria entered the Great Hall. She looked over and smiled at me, my heart skipped a beat, and I returned the smile.
We ended up losing the match, but I didn't care, I was just glad it was over. The next day, I didn't see Aria once I assumed she was sick.
But the day after that, she was back. That day,I was walking around at lunch, avoiding Pansy, when Blaise pointed out Aria.
"Hey, isn't that Aria with Dean Thomas?" He asked pointing towards them.
I watched as they talked. Suddenly, she laughed. He made her laugh. Then she laughed again, there was no way he was that funny. She playfully hit him, like she did with me when I'd say something funny, yet mean. She hit him again, but he caught her hand and got closer, I didn't like it.
They talked some more, but I had no idea what the were saying. Suddenly, they were kissing. I couldn't believe it, now I had lost Aria to a mudblood.
The weeks passed,and Aria continued to date stupid Dean Thomas. Valentines Day was apporoaching, and I thought I'd get Aria a card, just so she knew I still loved her.
On Valentines Day, I watched as she opened my card. She smiled, and I knew she liked it. I watched as Dean went over, they kissed a few times, and then he left. Aria switched cards with Granger, and soon, they were hugging.
Later that day I was enjoying some alone time when I heard footsteps approaching me. I was surprised to see Aria. She hugged and gave me a quick peck on the lips.
Then she whispered in my ear "Thanks for the card, that was really sweet Draco." While slipping something into my hand. She quickly walked away.
"You're welcome." I said.
I looked down in my hand and saw it was a card. I quickly opened it.
Thanks for the card, it meant a lot to me. Although you weren't my first love, you were my best. I will also never forget what we had. I regret letting you go, you will always hold a special place in my heart. Happy Valentines Day.
p.s. I miss you.
She missed me, I couldn't believe it. And I was her best love. I couldn't wait to rub that in Blaise's face.
The next day when I saw Aria and Dean together, something was different. They seemed happier than usual. Dean had this happy grin that I recognized. It was a "I slept with Aria" grin.
I knew because Blaise had had it, Weasley had had it, I even had it. And now Dean had it, he had sex with Aria.
My life sucks.
A/N: Sorry this took forever and five days to post,I've been rather busy. I'm also sorry this chapter was so long, but it's the most important one. Hope you enjoyed!