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Chapter 3: Just One
Two Years Ago:
"Hey, Natalia." A voice behind me said. I turned around to see Draco Malfoy, my stomache felt funny. It always did when I was around him. We had been secretly hanging out since that day we met at the library.
Even though I was happy to see him, I didn't want to let on that I was. "Hello Draco." I said calmly.
He smiled and my stomache felt even funnier, why was this happening? "What, no hug?" He asked.
I cocked my head to the side, confused. "Hug?" I asked. I had never heard of that
"Yeah, a hug, you know," he made strange movements with his arms, as though he were wrapping them around something and trying to strangle it. I shook my head, showing him I didn't know what it was.
"You've seriously never heard of a hug?" He asked.
"Is it some sort of display of affection, or emotion?"
"Then I don't know."
"Oh, yeah, I forgot you were raised to be an emotionless assassin." Draco said shaking his head. "Don't worry, I'll teach you what it is." He smirked and stepped closer. "And then I'll show you what a kiss is."
I rolled my eyes. "Nice try, but I know what a kiss is."
He gaped at me, "How do you know what a kiss is, and not a hug?" He asked. "Kisses come before hugs!"
I shrugged, "I don't know, I've acutally seen a kiss, even then I had to ask what it was. Honetly, it just looks like people trying to eat eachothers faces off."
"So, I guess you've never been in a relationship." Draco said.
"Relationship?" I asked,again, confused.
He smiled at me like I was an innocent little girl. "You have so much to learn." He said, again shaking his head. "Come on." He held his hand out. I just stared at him.
He smirked, "Don't tell me you don't know what holding hands is."
"Oh, shut it." I said grabbing his hand,and letting him lead me. I felt like I had been electrocuted the moment our hands touched. I wondered if that's what happens when you're with friends.
Draco tells me we're friends, so maybe that's why I felt funny around him. I liked being friends with him, he taught me about feelings and emotions I knew nothing about. Like, he taught me how to have "fun". Which from what he says is when you're happy and enjoying yourself. That's how I always feel around Draco.
But in a friendly way, of course, cause that's all Draco and I were. Friends. I had never had romantic feelings for anyone, and I never would.
Draco and I were sitting in the grass under the stars. His arm was around me, and I was resting my head on his shoulder. He told me friends did this all the time. I decided to ask Draco why my stomache felt funny.
"Draco, why does my stomache feel funny?"
"What do you mean?" He asked. "Do you feel sick?"
"No, it feels like there's fluttering in it." I explained. "It only happens when you're around."
The biggest smile I had ever seen appeared on Draco's face. "You get butterflies when you see me?" He asked.
"I guess." I said. "Does that mean I feel sick around you?"
"I hope not." Draco chuckled. "Lay down." He suddenly said. I do as I'm told. I feel him lift up my shirt. Again I feel like I've been electrocuted from his touch. I wonder if it had anything to do with the butterflies.
I felt his head on my stomache. "What are you doing?" I asked.
"Seeing if I can hear the butterflies." He said softly. He kept his head there for a moment, and then I felt his lips on my skin.
I closed my eyes in what I believed was pleasure and satisfaction. "What was that for?" I asked.
"Just a friendly gesture." He whispered. But I had a feeling it was a bit more than friendly.
Suddenly, Draco stood up. He held out his hand and I took it. "You're so beautiful, Talia." He whispered in my ear. I felt my face get hot, even though it was cold. That's odd, I thought.
Then he wrapped his arms around my waist tightly, it felt highly uncomfortable.
"What is this?" I asked.
"A hug." Draco answered.
"Is it supposed to feel like this?"
"Actually, you're supposed to wrap your arms around my neck." I did it, and the hug was much more comfortable. For the first time ever, I felt safe with someone else. Draco made me feel safe.
I could feel his heart beating rapidly in his chest. He pulled out of the hug. I stared into his eyes, which shone with longing and desire…for me.
Before I could really register the thought, Draco had leaned down, I knew what he was going to do. He was going to kiss me. I stepped away.
"What's wrong, Talia?" He asked, taking a step towards me, I backed away.
"You were going to kiss me, weren't you?" I asked quietly.
"Yes." He whispered,still walking towards me. I continued to back up.
"You can't." I said shaking my head.
"Why?" He asked anxiously.
"Because, Draco, you know I don't feel emotion or care about people. It's not how I am."
"But you could be." Draco said desperately, "We can be together. I-I can teach you how to care for people, how to feel."
I had backed up into a tree. "But I don't want you to." I whispered as he came closer. "Draco, you don't want to be with someone like me."
"That's all I want." He insisted, standing about an inch away from me.
"No, you only think you do." I said.
Draco sighed. "Just one?" He whispered.
"One kiss." He breathed. I felt his warm breath on my cheek.
I bit my lip. I really wanted to kiss him. What's the worse one kiss could do? I nodded.
He leaned down, his soft lips touching mine. I could now see why people engaged in kissing. It was exhilerating, better than the thrill of killing someone.
Draco's tongue hungrily pried my lips apart and made it's way into my mouth. I had no idea people used their tongues while they kissed. He pressed me against the tree, kissing me harder. I was enjoying this too much, getting lost in the kiss, I had to stop. I pulled away.
My breathing was heavy and loud. "I have to go." I whispered.
"Talia, please." Draco begged.
"I have to." I said.
He sighed and and unpressed himself from me. I walked away quickly without another word.
The memory of my first kiss came back in full force, after I'd passed Draco in the halls, and he was close enough to kiss me. I actually felt his breath on my cheek, just like I had that night.
I looked around and saw that I was in an empty hall. Shit, I thought as I looked down at my watch. Defense Against the Dark Arts started ten minutes ago! I had been standing in the same spot for about fifteen minutes thinking about that stupid first kiss that changed everything.
I quickly walked to class. I wasn't too worried about getting in touble, considering Professor Snape was the teacher. He liked me, well, he liked me as Natalia. Snape is a Death Eater, so he knows all about me,and my mission from two years ago. But he doesn't know I'm now Lana, and I plan on keeping it that way.
Finally, I reach the class. When I open the door, everyone turns around to look at me. "I'm sorry, I'm late, Professor." I say immediately. "It won't happen again."
Snape nods, and I take a seat in the back alone, as usual. I don't pay much attention in what Snape is saying. I can't focus, my mind was stuck in two years ago.
"Ms. Noel, may I have a word with you?" Snape said when class was over. I asssumed he wanted to talk about my lateness.
"I'm very sorry about being late, sir, I-"
"Natalia, I don't care that you were late." Snape said in a bored tone.
I gaped at him. Did he just call me Natalia?!
"You really thought you could fool me?" He asked.
"How did you know?" I asked sighing.
"Did you think I was not informed that you would be having another mission here?" He asked silkily.
"I had hoped not." I admitted.
"Why are you in disguise?" Snape asked, his black eyes studying me.
"So I wouldn't be recognized." I answered.
"You know very well I wiped the everyones memory of of you."
I was suddenly filled with hope. "Everyones?" I asked.
"Yes, except for a few students, including Draco." Snape said.
The hope left me quickly. "Why didn't you wipe his memory?" I asked quietly.
"I was under the impression you wouldn't want me to." Snape answered shrugging casually. "You two were in a relationship, were you not?"
"Well, it's not like it meant anything." I said.
He raised his eyebrows. "That is a lie, and you know it. You are in love with him."
"I am not, just because he loved me,doesn't mean I love him back."
"If I ever saw two people in love it's you two." Snape said calmly.
"How do you know?!" I asked angrily.
"Because if you didn't love him, you wouldn't be in disguise. You wouldn't have cared that it would hurt him seeing you again."
I stayed silent for a moment. "He's still in love with me, isn't he?" I asked.
"Very much." He said.
"Wiping his memory would have been better."
"No, it wouldn't. I was in love once, and I would never want to forget something like that."
"You were in love?" I asked, shocked.
"Yes." Snape said quietly. Then he cleared his throat. "But that's not important, you must tell Draco that you're hear."
"No way!" I exclaimed.
"Yes! If he finds out later it will hurt him more."
I sighed, "Fine, I'll tell him. But not until after I find out what he's up to. I have a mission to complete. If he fails, I fail." I said gathering my things.
"Very well." Snape said as I walked towards the door. "And Natalia?" I turned around. "If you don't tell him, I will."
I nodded and walked out of the door.