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Chapter 2: This Can't Be Happening
I woke up to the light pouring into the windows. I ignored it and put my head back down on my pillow.
Although my pillow was very hard. I tried moving around and found that I was locked in place by something.
I slowly opened my eyes and the first thing I saw was a male chest. A bare male chest. And then I remembered.
I had sex.
With Scorpius Malfoy.
Holy. Fucking. Crap.
I had sex with Scorpius Malfoy.
I lost my virginity to Scorpius Malfoy.
Oh. My. Fucking. Merlin.
And now we were cuddling.
I was asleep on his chest.
In his arms.
With my arms wrapped around his torso.
Bloody. Fucking. Hell.
I was in shock. I mean, who wouldn't be. I was completely sober and I lost my virginity to Scorpius Malfoy.
If any of my family finds out I will be murdered.
Well they won't find out.
Especially not Dad.
God, Dad would kill me.
Okay instead of thinking how Dad would kill you, why don't we think of something else. Like Scorpius. Let's see if he woke up.
He was still fast asleep, with his head to the side. Not for the first time, but I realized how attractive he was. It was hard not to tell, because he was hard to miss. About 6 feet tall, with that platinum blonde hair. He could constantly be seen walking down the hall and you could feel the arrogance that he had.
But looking at him now was different. His eyes were closed, his hair slightly messed up, and he didn't have his usual (attractive) smirk on his face. He looked so calm, so peaceful; the only motion was from his chest moving up and down with his breaths.
I decided that since it was probably pointless to try and free myself from his hold, that I should go back to sleep. I put my head back down on his chest and fell into the same breathing pattern that he was in.
I was almost asleep too.
That is until my two roommates came in.
"ROSIE!" Audrey yelled as she entered the room. "TIME TO GET OUT OF BED."
Fortunately, either Scorpius or me had the smart idea to pull the curtain closest to the door closed. So they couldn't see us.
Scorpius started stirring in his peaceful sleep at the sound of Audrey's voice. He opened his eyes and looked down at me. He was about to say something but Chloe beat him to it.
"COME ON ROSE GET OUT OF BED!" She yelled. "YOU WEREN'T EVEN AT THE PARTY LONG, YOU DISAPPEARED AFTER YOU RAN AWAY FROM YOUR CRAZY FAMILY."
I looked at Scorpius with wide eyes. I mouthed, "What do we do?" and he just shrugged back.
"COME ON ROSE BUD." Oh shit that's Lily! She can't keep a secret for anything. "YOU DIDN'T EVEN HOOK UP WITH ANYONE LAST NIGHT." Scorpius and I looked at each other and smirked. That is, until the curtains fell open and there was Lily yelling, "ROSE GET UP ALBUS IS - MALFOY?!"
"OH MY GOD ROSE!" Audrey yelled as she saw Scorpius and I, in bed arms around each other. I'm sure she noted that Scorpius had his shirt off and that my chest was covered in sheets. She started yelling some random things about how she was proud of me and how she couldn't believe I was a woman. I tried to hide and buried my face into Scorpius' chest.
"AUDREY," Chloe yelled. "SHUT UP." Audrey quickly shut her mouth. "Okay. Clearly Rose and Malfoy," she looked over at us, my face still buried in his chest and around the bed, where our clothes were thrown. "Um, well clearly they did it. So we should probably leave so they could get back into their clothes."
She grabbed Lily and Audrey, who were still looking at us in shock, and pulled them out of the room. Once I heard the door close, I lifted my head from his chest and removed my hands from him. He let go of me and grabbed his boxers from the ground. Once he had his boxers on, I pulled the sheets up with me as I got clothes out of my trunk and went to the bathroom. I changed and looked at myself in the mirror.
I didn't look different. I didn't look like I just had sex. I still looked the same. Same old virginal Rose.
I walked out of the bathroom and put the sheet that I took with me into the hamper. They needed to be washed. Or burned.
"So why'd you change in the bathroom?" Scorpius said, smirking. "I mean it's not like I haven't seen it all before."
"Oh, so you're gonna be that guy," I said, suddenly angry and sad at the same time. "You're gonna be the guy that is a jerk about us hooking up?" Some parts of the sheet were still out of the hamper so I put them back in forcefully. "Great," I said. "Just fucking great."
When I looked back at Scorpius, the smirk was gone. "That was your first time wasn't it?" He asked me softly, looking at his hands.
"Yeah," I whispered back. "Yeah it was." I felt tears coming on at the realization. I had lost my virginity. In one of the worst ways possible. I wasn't in love, I wasn't married, and it wasn't even someone I was friends with. It was with Malfoy, a boy I barely exchanged kind words with.
I was pathetic. I was ashamed.
I felt like a whore.
I let the tears fall. I didn't care if he saw. He didn't make fun, he didn't do anything mean. In fact he did the one thing I never expected him to do.
He walked over and pulled me into a hug.
When he hugged me, I let it all out. I started sobbing into his chest as he rubbed my back. I punched his stomach out of anger only to hug him and cry harder. I just sobbed at the realization that I was never going to give that gift, the thing a lot of people value, because it was gone. I gave it to Malfoy.
When I had finally calmed down I let go of Scorpius and he let go of me. He whipped a few remaining tears from my face and said, "Your family is going to kill me."
I chuckled at this. "Not if the don't find out. Because I am most certainly not going to tell them. Or anyone."
"Is that what we are going to do?" he asked. "Act like this never happened? Have no one besides your roommates and your cousin know?"
I nodded. "I would like if we did that."
"Alright, we'll do that," he said. "However we have one problem."
"What?" I asked.
"It might be obvious when I walk down to the common room what happened," he said. "People are stupid, but no one is that stupid."
As if on cue, Chloe stuck her head back in the door. "Rose, I got the invisibility cloak so that Malfoy could walk down without anyone seeing him."
Scorpius eyed me suspiciously. "Invisibility cloak?"
I walked over to Chloe and got the cloak. "What about Audrey and Lily? Are they going to say anything?"
"No," she said and I breathed a breath of relief. "But only because I promised them that you would give them details and then if they got your permission they could tell people. But they're very excited to hear about Malfoy's skills in bed."
I heard him laugh at this and I blushed. "Thanks Chloe."
"No problem. Just hurry up. I told them I was going up to get you so you have to be down there soon."
I turned around as Chloe shut the door.
"So invisibility cloak, huh?" Scorpius asked. "I always wondered how Potter was able to pull off all the crap that he does."
"Yeah well it's Albus' so I'm going to need it back," I said. Just put it on and then give it to me after breakfast."
"Whatever you say, Weasley," he said.
"And Malfoy," I said as he pulled the cloak around his shoulders. "You better give it back to me because if you don't, I will come and find you. I'll hex you if I have to."
"Ah, the feisty Weasley is back," he said. "You know that's such a turn on."
"Shut it, Malfoy."
It was mid- November now. It had been about 3 weeks sense the Halloween party. And I was freaking out.
My period was a week late.
I never have a late period. Ever. It's always on the day it's supposed to. My body is freaky like that.
So when my period didn't come on the day it was supposed to, I thought it was just a fluke, maybe I counted wrong. When it started getting longer I started freaking out.
I probably wouldn't be freaking out so much if I were still a virgin. Now, I'm totally worried that I'm pregnant. Especially when I realized that Malfoy and I didn't use protection.
Which is just such a basic rule. Dad has been drilling that into my brain since I was 2 and asked where babies came from because Mom was pregnant with Hugo.
I was also worried because Grandma Weasley always joked about how Weasley's have the gene to get pregnant at the drop of a hat.
Having baby-maker genetics and not using protection was just all around stupid.
I haven't had any symptoms of pregnancy, although some food tasted funny sometimes. I went to the library and learned that that was a symptom of pregnancy.
Chloe was the only one who knew about this. I love Audrey and Lily but they were barely containing themselves with the fact that I slept with Scorpius. If they knew I might be pregnant, there was no way they could keep it a secret.
Chloe thought I should tell Scorpius, but I hadn't talked to him properly since the incident. I especially didn't want to scare him with the idea that I could be pregnant. If I were pregnant, I would tell him. If I wasn't, then there is no need for him to know about this.
Fortunately there was a trip to Hogsmeade this weekend, so Chloe said she would come with me to get a pregnancy test. I didn't think that Albus would appreciate being left by his girlfriend, but she said that he wouldn't care if she said she was buying tampons.
When the day of the Hogsmeade visit came, I was freaking out even more than before. My period still hadn't come no matter how much I prayed, begged and pleaded Merlin.
Also, I was starting to get nauseous and have weird food cravings.
I was so scared that I almost didn't even go with Chloe when she told Albus we had to go to the store.
I am a coward. I don't belong in Gryffindor.
Chloe and I entered the store and started looking for a pregnancy test. Of course, it was in the aisle with the tampons.
They had two types of pregnancy tests, a Muggle one and a potion. The potion is a hundred percent accurate, so Chloe got that and the Muggle one, just to be sure. The potion was also able to tell you if you were pregnant less then a week after sex, where as the Muggle one needed six weeks. She also grabbed a box of tampons to cover up our lie.
Chloe walked up to the counter and paid for everything, the saleswomen eyeing Chloe, in her Gryffindor scarf, as it was clear she was a student. And you could tell the woman thought she was a slag for buying pregnancy tests. The worse part was that I waited outside while she paid, too ashamed to go in and show it was me who needed the test.
I believed I had to be perfect. Even at a young age I tried to be perfect. Always being polite and nice and never upsetting my parents. I grew up around the paparazzi and while Dad would sometimes lose it and hex one of them, Mum always wore a facade where she'd pretend everything was perfect. Everyone bought it. Even when Dad would do something to the press, he was so high in the Auror department, not to mention he had helped save the Wizarding World, that everyone still saw them as perfect. I did too.
So I did everything to make sure that the press wouldn't use something against me. I got perfect grades, perfect O.W.L.S, became a prefect and was now Head Girl. I was always polite to the press, greeting them with a smile, only to lose it somewhere private.
This was my way of dealing with them. James, Albus' older brother, was a bad boy to the press. He had a great image, the broody bad boy Quidditch player. He was drafted to Puddlemere United right out of Hogwarts and became a fan favorite. The press was constantly catching him drunk or hooking up with some girl or both. But everyone still loved him.
Lily and Hugo were still too young for the press to be completely interested in them, especially with all the stuff James kept getting into. Lily enjoyed partying but was smart enough not to draw attention to herself. Hugo was only ever in the paper if he was seen with a girl, which rarely happened, although girls were constantly swooning over him and Albus. Albus was only ever in the paper if he was with Chloe. When they started dating, they quickly became a favorite couple for the Prophet. James never had a serious girlfriend, so people loved "Chalbus" as the press dubbed them.
I was probably least reported about. And I liked it that way. I had controlled everything in my life so that it wouldn't be a huge scandal or something constantly talked about.
But this was one thing I couldn't control.
"Okay," Chloe said, appearing in front of me. "So take these up to the castle and I'll tell Albus that you got sick and head up after. No one will be in the dorms so we don't need to worry about anyone seeing. Just put these in your purse."
I stuffed the plastic bag into my purse and looked at Chloe. I was sure the look on my face was one of nervousness and fright. "Thank you, Chloe," I whispered.
"Oh honey," she said, pulling me into a hug. "Everything will be okay," she whispered into my ear. "No matter what that test says, I will stand by you."
"Thank you," I whispered back. She let me go and I pushed her towards the Three Broomsticks, where Albus was waiting.
I started walking up to the castle and was almost at the end of the street when I saw him.
He had been making small attempts to talk to me ever since Halloween and whenever we passed each other he would try and catch my eye. Now was no different, even though a pretty Slytherin was trying to get his attention. And just like all the times before, I put my head down and walked away. My bag felt suddenly heavy, as if seeing him had triggered the tests saying, "That's him! That's the father of the possible baby!"
I knew that if the tests said what I hoped they would, I could probably continue ignoring Malfoy until he confronted me.
But I also knew that if the test said...THAT then it would be a whole new Quidditch game.
I could only hope that they said I wasn't having Malfoy's baby.
It had been about a half hour since I had gotten back from Hogsmeade.
About 20 minutes since I had finally gotten the courage to take the tests.
About 19 minutes since the test told me the results.
And about 18 minutes since I sat on the bathroom floor, starting at the tile.
I heard the door to our room open and Chloe say, "Rosie?"
Her gentle footsteps made their way across the floor and she opened the bathroom door. She looked at me sitting on the floor and tentatively said, "Rose?"
I nodded to the sink counter where the pregnancy tests were. She picked both of them up and gasped. After studying them, she looked over at me with a shocked and worried expression. She walked over to where I was sitting and sat down next to me. My body was still completely numb.
"So..." she said slowly. "You're really having a baby?" She said it in a whisper, almost as if she couldn't believe it.
I looked down at my stomach where my hands hand been since I saw I was pregnant. It was hard to believe there was a living human being, probably no bigger than my pinkie finger nail, living inside me.
"Yeah," I said back in a small voice. "I'm really having a baby."
Chloe didn't pull me into a hug or put her arm around me. Her hand just found mine and squeezed my hand. She didn't let go. She just sat there, holding my hand, letting me know that what she said earlier was true. She wasn't going to leave me or abandon me. She was going to stand by me, even if we were standing alone.
I'm not sure how long we both sat in the bathroom, not saying anything. But it was a long time. We only snapped out of it at the sound of people returning from Hogsmeade.
Chloe got up and picked up the pregnancy tests. She was about to throw them away when I said, "Wait." She turned around and looked at me.
"Do you not want me to throw them away?" she asked with a confused face.
I shook my head. "If Audrey finds them in here she'll freak out and probably yell it and then everyone will know," I said, finally standing up. "Besides I might need them when I tell Scorpius."
"Do you think he won't believe you?" she asked as she handed the tests over to me.
"I don't know," I said. "I don't know how he'll react, I don't know what he'll want to do, or if he will even want to be involved. I just...I don't know."
"Wow," Chloe said, cracking a small smile. "For once, Rose Weasley doesn't know something."
She was right. Normally I knew nearly everything. I've known that I wanted to be a Healer since I was 5. I knew that Chloe and Albus liked each other in fourth year without them telling me. Ask me any fact about History of Magic, I know it. Any charm, I know it. I was so used to knowing everything that I didn't like this feeling of not knowing. I didn't like it at all.
"I have to tell Scorpius," I said. "I have to tell him as soon as possible.
"Well," Chloe said. "I think I know something that will make him very easy to find."
Only one thing came to mind. "The Map?"
She was one of the few who knew about the cloak and the map. We tried not to tell too man people about them because it was a Wotter Family secret. Once she started dating Albus at the end of fifth year, she learned everything.
So we ran to Albus' dorm, fortunately no one was there yet, and grabbed the Map from under his pillow and headed downstairs.
Where I ran straight in to Sam Nathanson.
"Hey Rose," he said. He was another person I had been avoiding since Halloween. Which was difficult since he was Head Boy and we had to patrol together. We started splitting up the castle because I said it would be quicker when I actually just didn't want to be near him.
"Um, hi Sam," I said, trying to get around him and over to where Chloe stood by the portrait hole.
"Wait, Rose," he said, grabbing my arm. "Are you okay? You've been acting weird since Halloween."
"I'm fine," I lied. "I just really need to go right now."
"Oh, okay, bye," he said, but I was gone before the words were out of his mouth.
"Have you found him?" I asked as Chloe examined the map.
"Not yet," she said. "Wait! There he is. He just got into the castle."
"We looked at each other and ran down the stairs to the entry hall. I heard Chloe say, "Mischief Managed" and put the Map into her pocket. We both started looking for the tall platinum blonde. Who I couldn't find until I ran into his chest.
He looked down at me standing in front of him and said, "Watch it, Weasley."
I heard his friends laugh and realized that because there were other people around, he wasn’t going to act like Halloween happened. I realized that if I want to get him alone, I would have to play along.
"Malfoy," I said. "I've been looking for you."
He broke his character when I said that, revealing the look of shock in his eyes. He regained his composure quickly. "And why the bloody hell would you be looking for me?"
"Because you prat," I said, my harsh tone matching his. "You’re one of the top suspects for putting the dungbombs in the Ravenclaw tower." this was a lie because I knew for a fact it was Louis but I wasn't going to tell Scorpius that. "So come with me."
"Whatever," Malfoy said and started following me. I led him through the crowd of people who had just returned from Hogsmeade with bags from Zonkos and my Uncle George's joke shop and Honeydukes. I led him to the Astronomy tower, the one place I knew we could have privacy.
"So since you took me all the way up here," he said. I'm assuming that you don't think I put the dungbombs off."
"Yeah, I need to talk to you about something," I said, pulling off the mask of anger an annoyance I had before.
"Oh, so whenever I want to talk," he said. So he wasn't wearing a mask of anger. He was pissed. At me. "You always would put your head down and walk away. But now that you want to talk, you expect me to just sit here and listen? Not fucking likely." He turned and walked toward the door.
"Don't fucking try, Weasley," He said, stopping to look back at me. "Nothing you say will make me want to talk to you." He turned back around and started walking toward the door again.
I closed my eyes and summoned all my courage. 'I'm pregnant," I said in a loud voice, opening my eyes.
His entire body froze. All his muscles tightened and his jaw was clenched. He didn't turn when he said, "What?" His voice wasn't how it normally was, loud and carefree. Now it was barely audible.
"I'm pregnant," I said.
Scorpius tuned around slowly. "And I'm the father?"
I was insulted he even had to ask. For the first time since I found out I was having a baby, his baby, I didn't feel numb. I was angry.
"Of course you're the father!" I yelled at him, releasing the tears I didn't know I was holding in. "What do you think I am? Some whore who goes around sleeping with whatever moves? You are the only person I've had sex with! So yes, Malfoy, you are the father!"
Now it was Scorpius who was looking at the ground. "That was stupid to ask."
"Yeah," I said, trying to wipe away my tears. "It was."
Scorpius walked until he was right in front of me. He lifted my head so I was looking at him. "What are we going to do?"
"I don't know," I said. "Scorpius?"
He wiped away new tears from my face. "Me too."
We were quiet for a few seconds until he said, "Does anyone else know?"
"Only Chloe," I said. "And she's going to stand by me."
"Why would she have to do that?"
"So that I'm not alone."
Scorpius looked shocked and pulled me into a hug. "You're not alone, Rose," he said into my hair "We're in this together."
"We're really having a baby?" I asked him. He squeezed me tighter.
"Yeah," he said. "We're really having a baby."
"We're going to have to tell our parents soon," Scorpius said, ruining the silence of the Astronomy tower as we looked out onto the grounds.
"I know," I said. "And I'll have to tell the rest of my family."
"I'm going to be so dead," Scorpius muttered. I gave him a questioning look. "Rose, your family is made up of mostly males. Extremely overprotective males. Who will kill me for getting you pregnant."
I cringed a little when I realized it was true. My crazy family was going to kill both of us. "Mum will stop them from doing anything. Besides it's not like this is your fault." I put a hand on my stomach. "It's no ones fault."
We stood in silence until I said, "I think we should tell our families at the same time."
"I think that is a crazy idea," Scorpius said. "With your entire family in one room, I’m sure to be dead."
"I don't mean the entire Wotter family," I said. "Just my parents, Hugo, your parents and us." He was still looking out at the grounds, where a fresh blanket of snow laid. "I really think that is the best way to go about this. Just get telling them over with."
Scorpius sighed and ran a hand through his hair. "Okay," he said. "We should talk to McGonagall tonight to see when we can do it."
I put my hand over his and squeezed it. "Thank you."
"We should probably head down to dinner," Scorpius said.
I turned and started walking towards the door when Scorpius spoke.
"Have you thought about if you're going to keep it? Or are you thinking of putting up for adoption?" He was looking down with his hands in his pockets, kicking the ground.
"I honestly haven’t thought of it," I said. "I’m not even sure what I want to do."
"Oh," he said, still kicking the ground.
"It would have to be something we decide," I said and he looked at me. "Because it's our baby, not just mine. We would have to make that decision. Together."
He smiled a small closed mouth smile, barely visible. It was almost as if he thought I was going to decide on my own. “We probably shouldn’t tell people until we tell our parents. Even after we might want to wait a while."
I nodded in agreement. "Chloe won't tell anyone, not even Al. She'll leave it up to us to tell."
"Okay," he said. "We should probably meet at eight so we could talk to McGonagall."
"Alright," I said, heading towards the door. "I'll see you then."
I didn't hear his footsteps behind me as I walked away.
A/N: HI! New chapter! I hope all of you are enjoying the story!
The next chapter will be from Scorpius' point of view. I have the next few chapters written and know exactly where I want to go with ths story.
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